* If the apology can not pay for all the mistakes.
So being a part of that suffering may be an answer.
If remorse isn't enough to prove.
So being hurt can treat other wounds.
***
"Good luck, Andi. I'm sure you can win." Putri gripped the cellphone very tightly as if she was afraid the cellphone would fall, while her other hand was holding some textbooks.
Her eyes looked at some of the students who had started to enter after the school ceremony. Monday always begins with busy students and teachers.
"Am I dreaming? Do you give support and encouragement for me, Putri? It feels like my heart is pounding." Andi's voice on the phone was a little spoiled, making Putri imagine Andi's expression, which must be very strange.
"Hehe... if I don't know you. I'm already pounding too." Putri answered flatly.
Andi heard a small laugh, hearing Putri's answer.
"Did you know? I miss not seeing you for the past few days." Andi's voice grew softer.
"Miss me?! We just don't meet in a day. Your words so ridiculous, Andy!" Putri answered while keeping the intonation of her voice that looked flat.
"Ooooh... you're so mean, Putri," Andi said and was disappointed to hear Putri's response.
"Don't say always miss me! Remember, you need to focus when facing the competition," Putri explained.
"Uhmm..." Andi's low voice did not seem to be heard by Putri.
"I have to go to class, let me know this afternoon. Or I can call you at lunchtime. Take care of yourself, and cheer up." Said Putri immediately hung up the phone without hearing any answer from Andi.
It's not the first time Andi has tried to express his feelings to Putri. But she always avoids situations like that.
For Putri, their friendship means more than they have to date. Better friends, that's what Putri needs.
After the school ceremony,
The atmosphere in the classroom was quiet when the teachers had started arriving at the class. Putri spent the time with boredom while still thinking about her meeting with Mega last Saturday night.
The third lesson with Mr. Raden,
The teacher hasn't come yet. It seems it's too late – that's what Putri thought. The students started to make a little noise. They were busy playing online games on their cell phones. Some students are busy talking about many things, from make-up, online shopping, and even celebrity gossip.
Meanwhile, Putri just sat quietly. She puts on the headset with a loud volume while closing her eyes to avoid the gaze of her friends. All students in her class have started to get used to Putri's attitude of not wanting to get along.
Putri rarely communicates with her friends, occasionally talking to her class leader and only to ask about some lessons that must be done or collected.
"Putri..?" Someone took off one of the headsets he was wearing.
Putri looked at her class leader's pointed face with her glasses.
"Rika, I'm sorry I didn't hear you call me," Putri said still looking at Rika's facial expression, which looked strange.
But not only did the look on his face look strange, but the class situation also turned strange. The students in his class are no longer busy with their own business, but they are busy with something.
Putri saw her classmates were crowding the classroom window. They seemed to be trying to see what was happening outside.
Even the classroom door was already full of students and students who seemed to be paying attention to something.
Putri glanced to the right and left. She looked back and forth. She realized that she was the only one who was still sitting glued to the classroom bench.
"What is this, Rika?" asked Putri in confusion.
Rika's face began to show an expression of seriousness, making Putri even more confused.
"You'd better see this, who is walking at the end of the corridor with the Principal," Rika said flatly.
"What do you mean, Rika?" Putri asked, and this time she looked like a dazed person.
"Well, how do I explain it." Rika leaned her body on the edge of Putri's table.
"I accidentally overheard Principal talking." Rika paused for a moment and seemed confused to continue her conversation.
"I heard that Mega is back in this school," said Rika whispered into Putri's ear.
Putri was surprised. Is this what Mega means?
She was silent for a long time and lost in thought. She didn't know how to react. Should she be happy with Mega's return?
The students in the class have returned to their seats. Mr. Raden had arrived in the room and rebuked some students who seemed to have just left class.
During class hours, Putri could not concentrate. Even during class, Putri did not take notes. Instead, she made several to-do lists when she would meet Mega later.
** a list of questions **
The words I will say when I meet Mega:
1. Hi Mega – How are you? (this sounds weird, I can't do it - Putri immediately crossed it out)
2.Where have you been all this time, Mega? I want to apologize (I'm sure Mega will not answer my question. Again, Putri crossed out her writing)
3. May I speak to you, Mega? (I'm not that familiar with her! Ahh..! that sucks. Again she crossed out her writing in annoyance)
4. Why did you not say that you would go back to school? (what kind of question is this? Putri crossed out her writing again)
5. Yesterday I saw you and Wira in the cafe a few days ago. Are you guys start dating? Don't worry, because I won't disturb your relationship anymore (Huh? No...! Putri crossed out her writing again)
6. How about your wound at that time? Has it healed? (If I ask to like this, I'm sure that Mega will hit me - Putri crossed out her writing again)
**list end**
In the end, Putri gave up on the list of questions she made. Feeling annoyed and she closed her book while taking a deep breath.
"Hhh... it's stupid if I think I can have a good relationship with Mega," she said sadly. Remembering Putri's dark past and how she always hurt Mega.
***
Putri enjoys a break on the school park bench while carrying a new list that she made. She isis thinking, what to do. Even Putri doesn't know where Mega class is
There's no way she'd ask her classmates. It would look strange. Putri had bullied Mega, then asked where Mega was? A plan that will make people think that the Putri will do something bad to her.
Putri was annoyed with herself and felt like a fool. Unknowingly Putri crushed the list she had made into her hands.
"Hhh..!" Putri complained in a loud voice. Students around the school garden began to pay attention to her, and she looked back sharply at them.
Putri was laying her back on the back of a park bench. Looking up, she closed her eyes and hoped to find the right words when she met Mega.
She still closed her eyes and thought again for a while. Putri felt the wind starting to hit her face, but she heard a soft sigh in front of her face.
Slowly she opened her eyes and upturned face seen by Putri. Her face was too close to the Putri's face. Even her long hair hit Putri's face and shoulders.
It looks like Mega gives Putri a big smile, but her smile looks unfriendly.
"Mega?" Said Putri confusedly, after the many lists she made and wanted to say when she met Mega. But that's the only word that came out of her mouth.
Mega straightened her body arrogantly, and Putri could feel it. Mega walked towards Putri, then sat right next to Putri. Now, the students in the park are starting to pay attention to the two of them, but Mega's attitude is too ordinary and doesn't even seem to care.