CHAPTER 16- The Mentality of a Widow. Part 6.
(Pov- Yuki.)
Ahhhhh! Just by remembering all that pain, it makes me tremble with fear!
Saik, you're a liar…! But I will forgive you because you will give me a great and delicious reward... Oh… That sounded wrong.
"Hey, hey. Saik, hey. Hey, Saik. Hey… Don't ignore me!"
"Ah... Yuki, have you ever been told it's not normal to talk alone when you're walking down the street?"
"But there's no one here!"
"But there are security cameras."
Well... I guess that's true.
Ahh... How boring.
I wish I was alive.
I hate looking like this!
My mother had big breasts! It's not fair, I was going to have big breasts too! I only have the fucking breasts of a 10-year-old girl. Ah, life is never fair to me.
… Well, that's not entirely true, though. I was lucky enough to meet Saik. Thanks to him, I can leave home, eat delicious food... Live a normal life again... Although I can't talk to anyone else, talking to Saik is enough for me.
… My first and only friend.
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(Pov- Saik.)
I left my backpack on the floor, put my arms on the table and tried to rest.
But it remained just that, an attempt.
As a consequence of my past actions, someone now considers me her friend.
"S-Saik, shall we meet at your house to start the project?"
Ahh... Socialize, my worst enemy.
I looked up and looked Sylphie in the eye.
"It's true... Sorry, I didn't clean the house... Can we do the project at your house, Sylphie?"
"I-in my house?"
"If it's not too much trouble."
—… "Y-Yes... Y-yes, it's fine."
"Thank you, you'd save me a lot of trouble. Since I live alone, I don't care what my house looks like. It's very dirty... Well, that's a disadvantage of being lazy."
"Lazy...? But you're very smart, Saik."
… Yuki began to pretend that she caressed Sylphie's breasts, with fury and envy.
I must ignore that.
"AHHH! How envious! I'd have big breasts too! Life is not fair!"
… Ah, Yuki.
"You may consider me intelligent, but that has nothing to do with being lazy. I prefer to avoid many things that I find boring."
"Like not giving the welcome speech."
Ram put her hand on my table… Ah, this became a habit.
"Hey, don't you think doing the same thing gets boring?"
"I dare you. Whoever makes the best project, will be the winner."
"No, thanks."
"Are you afraid of losing?"
"Oh, I'm not afraid, I'm 100% sure I'll lose."
"Eh?"
"That's why I'd rather avoid a competition. You've already won. Well, congratulations."
I got up from my seat and pulled a lollipop out of my pocket.
"Here, the prize. I hope to win next time."
"Tsk. You are rare."
She walked away from me.
"You forget your prize."
"I don't want it!"
… Why does she keep coming at me? I guess she's mad because I'm number 1 in the class and she's number 2.
But, in theory, she's number one and I'm one of the worst.
If I didn't have Yuki, I wouldn't even be in this school.
"Ah, I'm sleepy."
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The first classes were over and we went out to eat.
As always, I went to eat on the roof of the school, but they closed the door.
"Ah. We were discovered."
Resigned, I went down and went back to my classroom, to eat.
Now I have to endure the voices of my classmates.
I'd eat outside, but the result would be worse. The voices of so many people would be more annoying.
… Ah, that's right... Yuki.
I got out of my classroom.
Where can I eat...? Oh, I know.
Behind the arts classroom.
I'm sure there's no one in that place, for two reasons.
Number 1: It's a long way from the school cafeteria, where students eat. No student with an active social life would come to this place.
Number 2: There are other dining areas at the school, such as in the garden, courtyard, and classrooms. This would be the last place the loners would come.
Even the loners eat in their classrooms.
I come to this place to eat with Yuki, so it's okay.
I arrived, sat down, put my back against the wall and opened my food.
I always bring two meals, one for me and one for Yuki.
She took hers and started eating.
"This is delicious as always, Saik!"
"Thank... Yuki, stop eating."
"Yeah, I heard that too."
Someone's coming.
5... 4... 3… 2…
"Oh… Hello."
I thought it was Sylphie, but it's another girl.
I looked into her eyes.
Wow... Unlike Sylphie, this girl isn't adorable, she's beautiful.
Blonde and long hair, blue eyes, pink white skin, big breasts, beautiful legs... What is she doing in this place?
She's clearly a popular girl. I doubt she's a loner.
"Hello."
I ignored her and continued to eat.
"Can I eat here?"
"I suppose so. I don't own this place."
She laughed a little.
"Thank you."
Wow... She's really beautiful.
I will say it again. What's she doing here?
I'm not handsome or popular, so she's not a girl in love with me like romantic stories.
It only leaves me one option.
She wants me to help her study.
She definitely wants to use me.
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… Ten minutes passed and she said nothing.
We only eat in silence... Wow... Did I misjudge her?
Well, I'm almost done.
… I got a notification.
I took out my smartphone... Yes. The new event is finally available.
I opened the game and the classical music of the game began to play.
"Oh, you play it too?"
She approached me.
"What level are you?"
"I'm level 35 barely."
"You must be very good! I'm barely level 17."
That is good. The levels in this game are hard to climb.
"Oh, and you've already collected all the chests and keys?"
"Fufu. I did it in less than an hour."
She said it with pride... She really likes the game.
"Ah... Wow... It took me two hours."
"Hey, would you help me defeat the water flower? I need the materials to upgrade my character, but I can't defeat It.
"Sure, pass me your player number."
"Thank you!"
She opened the game and told me her player number.
I added her... Cristal? Don't girls like to put on cooler names?
"Fufu. Is your name "AlucardFire"?"
"Yes. Sound bad?"
"N-no, I'm sorry. It just seemed a little weird to me."
"And what does Cristal mean?"
"Oh, that's my name."
"I see... Well, we still have a few minutes to spare. Let's kill that flower."
"Yes!"
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(Pov- Yuki.)
I'm starving! And I can't eat because she's here.
It is not fair!
Well, at least he's socializing a little bit.
Although I suspect that girl has ulterior motives.
Don't worry, Saik, I'll keep an eye on her! I won't let anyone take advantage of you!
I'm the only one who can make fun of you!
… They're distracted... I'll take advantage and eat a little.
I took some food and started eating.
I have to keep an eye on them so they don't catch me.
Ah, I look like a cat eating like that... It is not fair!
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(Pov- Saik.)
Well, we gotta get back.
"Thank you so much for helping me!"
"You're welcome."
"Let's play it again another time. Good bye."
She left. Fine...
I sighed and turned to see Yuki.
She's eating too fast.
"Enjoy your food. Eat slow."
"But we have to go back now."
I patted her head.
"Eat well and take it easy. Enjoy your food."
"Y-yes."
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I skipped a class to have lunch with Yuki, but also for another reason.
I gotta think about what I'm gonna do with Sylphie's mom.
I'm going to her house today, so I have to think very carefully about my actions.
Obviously, missing a class will affect my average, but I don't care.
For now, all I care about is getting my plans right.
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The class ended and I entered the English class.
Ram and Sylphie saw me weird, but I don't care.
I sat in my place and took out my materials.
Yuki went to watch Cristal, because she suspects her. I suspect so, too.
I hope she didn't plan anything bad against me.
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Classes are over and I can go now.
I waited for Sylphie and we went to her house together.
"Ah, it's a cloudy day. That's cool."
"Y-Yes... It's a nice day."
I keep my distance, so I don't bother her.
I don't look at her and I just look straight ahead.
I guess she won't be uncomfortable with me that way.
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(Pov- Sylphie.)
"I like days like this. I feel more comfortable. There is not cold neither heat. A perfect temperature for walking. Do you prefer the cold or the heat, Sylphie?"
"The... The cold."
"I like them both. I like the heat because it allows me to wear more comfortable clothes. And I like the cold because it allows me to enjoy cloudy and cool days."
Saik is… someone kind.
I can perfectly see that he keeps his distance and avoids looking at me, to prevent me from feeling uncomfortable.
Unlike other men, I don't feel scared when I'm with him… Why do I feel like I can trust him?
I honestly... do not know.
I barely know him and trust him... Why?
I don't know... I don't know.
—… "Saik, can I ask you a question?"
"As long as it's not math, of course."
—… "Why don't you like to comb your hair?"
I was a fool.
I wanted to ask him about his life and if he is happy.
He lives alone. That must be very lonely for him.
"Mainly for laziness. If I comb my hair, I have to comb my hair all the time because the wind would ruin my hairstyle. I'd rather avoid that and not comb my hair."
"I-I see."
Just by looking at his face and body, I can see that he has an excellent physique and a cute face.
He would definitely be popular with girls if he showed his face better.
His personality is... rare... He is strange, but kind... He has no other intentions towards me. He doesn't look at me lustfully ... He's definitely a nice guy... I think that's why I can trust him so much... I don't want to lose my only friend.
What if my mom's drunk again? I don't want him to see me as the daughter of an alcoholic... But there is no turning back now... Or... But maybe...
"Saik ... Would you like to go to a cafeteria to do the project? I don't want to bother my mother."
"Of course, that's fine. I think arriving without permission would not be okay... Okay, let's go."
I only have money for a coffee, but it will be enough... I hope so.
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(Pov- Saik.)
Ahh... I knew this could happen. Sylphie was ashamed of her mother again… Well, I knew this could happen, so I already have something planned.
We sat at a table and an employee attended to us.
"What would you like?"
"I... I just want a coffee."
"Something to eat?"
"N-no, thank you."
"I want two chocolate milkshakes and two burgers with potatoes. Thank you."
"It'll be ready in a few minutes."
The employee left and I took my notebook out of my backpack.
"Like any good project, planning is the most important thing. We need to gather important information and organize it."
"Yes."
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After 10 minutes, the employee returned with our order.
"I hope you enjoy it."
The employee left and I put a milkshake and a hamburger in front of Sylphie.
"Here."
"H-Huh? N-no. I c-can't take it."
"If we want our project to be good, we need to do it right. Sylphie, you need energy. Eat, coffee won't give you the energy you need."
—… "I-I 'll pay you tomorrow."
"It is not necessary... Let's make a deal."
She got nervous when I said that.
Surely she misunderstood me... Ah, do I really look like a pervert?
"In exchange for the food, you will pass on tomorrow's homework to me."
—… "The English homework?"
"Yes."
"But... It's really easy."
"Yes, it's an easy homework assignment, but I'm lazy to do it. So, is it a deal?"
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Sylphie nodded nervously.
"Y-Yes... Thank you very much... Thank you."
"You're welcome."
Fine... She comes closer. I need all my power.
"I must go to the bathroom."
I took my glasses out of my backpack and went into the bathroom.
Well, there is no one.
I looked in the mirror... This will be cruel, but necessary.
I took off my contact lenses and my eyes turned gray.
"Ghost number 13 and 14… Ghosts of sadness... Maximum power."
That will be enough.
I can't wear contact lenses for a few hours, it's dangerous for my eyes.
I put on my glasses and washed my hands.
Ah, wearing glasses with my hair covering my eyes is uncomfortable... I must comb my hair.
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(Pov- Sylphie.)
… Saik knew that I had no money, that's why he bought me food... He's definitely a nice guy.
Someday I'll return the favor.
"Well, let's get started."
… Saik returned… And he looks... cute.
He put on glasses and combed his hair a little... He is still disheveled, but now I can see his eyes without any problems... They are pretty... Light brown eyes… His eyes are... beautiful.
… He would definitely be popular with girls if he wanted to.
"Saik ... I didn't know you wore glasses."
"I wear contact lenses, but I don't like wearing them for so long. And since we'll be here for an hour or two, I'd rather put on my glasses."
—… "And you combed your hair."
"I feel uncomfortable if I have my hair covering my eyes while wearing glasses."
"I-I see ... Y-you look good."
"Thank you. Well, let's continue... By the way, have you spoken to your mother yet? So that she doesn't worry."
"I-I'll talk to her right now."
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(Pov- Iris.)
I have a headache... I have not been feeling well lately.
Nightmares don't let me sleep... Nausea does not go away... Why do I feel so bad…? Why ...? I don't know... I don't know.
"Ah... Everything is spinning in my head..."
Someone is calling me... Is my daughter.
Please, don't make this bad news.
I answered the call.
"Is something wrong, Sylphie?"
"Mother, I'll be home late today. I met with a... f-friend, to do a homework assignment."
"A... friend?"
"Yes ... A friend... But he's kind, he has no other intentions! You don't have to worry about me! I'll be home in two hours."
—… "Yes… It's okay."
She hung up the call. My daughter... has a friend.
"And it's no thanks to you!"
"Your presence only harmed her!"
"You're no longer useful to her!"
"She can survive without your help!"
"Get out of her life!"
… Damn voices in my head... Huh?
"I-I 'm… crying?"
… Yeah… Those voices are right… My daughter has a job... She is self-sufficient... She doesn't need me... I'm just a burden to her... I'm the worst mother... I don't deserve to live.
She would be better off without me.
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(Pov- Saik.)
The two hours advanced and we finally finished the first part of the project.
I asked the employee for the bill.
"Here it is."
… Wow, I ordered too much. Well, I was ordering food every 30 minutes, so it was obvious this would happen.
Sylphie got nervous when she saw the total bill.
"Okay..."
I took out my wallet and paid.
"Thank you very much."
The employee retired.
"Well, I guess that's it. Tomorrow we continue, I must go buy something."
"Saik ... Do you work?"
"No, but I plan to get a job in the future... I'm sorry, but I must go."
"M-me too. I-I must go ... Thanks for everything, Saik... Thank you very much, Saik."
"You're welcome. See you tomorrow."
"Y-Yes... See you tomorrow."- She said smiling.
We left the place and both of us went our separate ways.
Everything went perfectly, now I have to wait a week for the final result.
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(Pov- Yuki.)
Ahh... That girl wasn't planning anything wrong. She's smart and sociable. She's nice, too. No one hates her... Why did she eat in such a lonely place?
Someone like her always eats around her friends.
Something strange happens... I'm curious, but I doubt I'll discover anything without Saik's help. And that idiot won't want to help me, because he doesn't get any benefit from doing that.
"Ah..."
"Is something wrong, Yuki?"
"Nothing, Noel… I'm just a little curious about a girl from Saik's school."
"Did something happen?"
"Well…"
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I told him about what happened at school today. He was a teacher, so he could help me.
"Hmmm… I think most likely she just wanted a moment of peace and silence. Always being around people can become annoying."
"Yes ... I suppose you're right."
So... Is that girl like Saik?
She doesn't look it. She's very sociable, and Saik is... Well, Saik is... a Saik.
A guy who only cares about himself and always wants to be alone.
And, of course, he never smiles!
Someday I will see a natural smile from him... Someday!
"I came back."
"Saik, welcome...! Saik... Is that you?"
My heart started to speed up more than it usually does when I see Saik... How cute!
"Woah… Saik ... I thought you were a normal guy, but you're... cute... Handsome no... Cute."
—... "Thank you, Noel... I guess."
"Mmm... I got it. Saik, would you like to marry my daughter? I want to have cute grandchildren, and you'd make a perfect husband for Sylphie."
"No, thanks. I don't plan to marry anyone. Sylphie and I will just be friends, but nothing more."
"What a pity. But remember, you'll always have my permission."
"Though I'll never need it... Yuki, stop looking at me like that, it's uncomfortable."
Saik with glasses... Him eyes are cute... How cute he looks!
He is totally my type...! Ah... I'm dead, it's true... Life is not fair!
"It was a long day. Sylphie's a good girl. I thought I'd be more shy, but I think I've already earned her trust."
"You're a good boy, Saik. You can earn the trust of anyone."
—... "Although I don't consider myself a good person."
Saik left a bag of food stuff on the table.
"Today we will have homemade pizza for dinner."
"Yay! Pizza! Make it with lots and lots of cheese!"
Saik stroked my head.
"Of course, we'll make it with lots of cheese."
... My heart raced faster.
How cute!
I wish he always wore glasses and combed his hair.
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91 was looking at the photograph of Shadow, who was a 6-year-old boy, wearing black bandages to hide his eyes and his hair was gray.
They called him Shadow, because a black aura surrounded him and disappeared without a trace.
"Someday I'll find you, Shadow... I want to meet you... And destroy you... You took away our legendary ghosts that cost us so much effort and lives. You will not get away with this."
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(Pov- Saik.)
As I prepared the dough, I felt a chill.
I feel like someone's planning something wrong with me.
Ah... More problems. Can't I have a normal school life?