I took a long look at the old concrete building for the last time. My eyes feel on the cracked glass room on the right block of the second floor.then I turned to the black and white smiling brunette girl staring at me...

I felt warm warm tears flow from my eyes,here I bid farewell forever. Now I am 24 years old,I will stand on my own feet,I will overcame the obstacles in front of me one by one,I am even going to place I do not know at the moment as a district governor.

I got into a taxi with wet eyes,looking out the window

Dede bagel shop,coffe smelling streeet,grocery store Şevket then cotton grandma...

Does a person miss a place where he is a foreigner?

After all, no matter how foreign I was, I grew up here,I breathed its air ,the trees became my mother ,the coulds became my father,of course I will miss it.

"Madam,did you come to this orphange to visit the children? Are you a teacher or something?"

"I am not absent. I grew up here ,my mother left me when I was four years old, I don't even know what happened to my father.

I had a very difficult time here. Can you imagine, I've never been able to call anyone 'mom' inmy entire life.

I got sick,broke,spilled, but no one said 'you will be fine with'

Tell me , who deserves to grow up without a mother?

What mother leaves her chil in this cold place?

Tell me, tellmee!"

"Yes you are right my madam, Allah help you it was clear that the man did not understand me.

Of course ,since he has not suffered such a pain,he cannot understand it even if he wanted to.

İnsolent,he could at least listen, isn't that the saddest thing? They don't even listen to your troubles. Even those who ask how you are...

The man's hair has started to turn white,although he looks younger. The water droplet's accumulated on his forehead tell that he had a tiring day. When I looked a little more carefully, I realized that he was very tired and I agreed that he did not want to listen to me. Everyone has a problem,after all,today everyone has pain and difficulties. Who knows how many hourse he worked to earn money.

Who knows how many people he talked to?

After a while, Istanbul Airport appeared. My heart felt like it was going to explode. People flock to the airpord,children are trying to catch up with parents who are dragging their suitcases with ice cream in their hands. Those who parked their cars in the wrong place are arguing with security,planes take off one by one ;America,Australia,Pakistan plnes...

The driever stopped near the entrance and unloaded my lugage.

"Madam you have a nice way, if you pay 200 tl,it is enought."

I took 250tl out of my packed

"Keep the changel brother"

"Allah bless you!"

The man's eyes parkled with joy. He looked at me shyly. I think he reg retted not listening to me. I looked at the clock it was almost time for my flight. I took my suitcases and started dragging them toword the airport

I still have fear inside of me. I started to wait to get the ticked I bought in oduance.

"Can I have your ID?"

"Of course!"

"Tomris Şanlı,Adıyaman 11:00 flight?"

"Yes"

I bought my ticked and mingled with the crowd. I was trying not to show it was my first time getting on a phone.

'last 45 minutes to Adıyaman flight. Please take your seats.'

"Your seat number?"

"36"

"Ok. Please take the seat on the for right."

"Okey,thank you"

I sat on my seat. My heart was still pounding. I thought how lucky waited for the plane to take off.

An aunt inher 60s with glasses was silting nex to me. The brightness of his face cought my attention. Light red cheeks, low eye brows,loshless eyelids...

She was a light weith. I'm amazed. Her turban consisted of vibrant calors. I tought how cute she was.

I think a looked at aunt for a long time

"Sweetie,is this your first time on a plane?"

"Is it too abvious?(Aunt smiles gently)"

"Yes, I think you're being a little abvious. Are you from Adıyaman or are you going for travel? If you are going to travel,you should definitily go to mount Nemrut Inculuded in the UNESCO world heritage list, it's a wonderful place.

"No,my aunt, I haven't been before. Do you know Gerger? I was appointed as the district governor there. I will go to the place you said at the first opportunity. Hullol so you are the district governor. Your parents are proud of you how well they raised you.

I almost cried. If you know how much I hurt? I raised myself to make my domn life bettery to help people"

"Aunt, I don't have parents . I grew up in an orphange."

The woman's almost cried in a tone off voice that clearly regretted asking;

"I'm so sorry seweetie,I ..."

"No important. How would you know?"

We chatted a long the way. I learned that the woman is from Adıyaman. I tought I was lucky to be assigned here because I loved this aunt. I thought the other people there were just as good herated as this aunt. I got phone number from her she said I could call her if I needed anything. I know this city would do me good. I already had some one I could get help with.

I got of the plane and got into the office car that was waiting for me. During the 2-hour road, I watched outside without blinking