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Chapter 10 - Self Realisation

After leaving the home, she saw the sky has almost become dark and cloudy and also, she did not bring an umbrella. After a while, heavy rainfall was pouring down to her as if the sky read her mind.

With solitary walking, her tears also started to fall like rain but she did not want to cry but don't know why she could not stop herself and then suddenly she bent her

knee down on the road and cried furiously looking at the dark sky "why me? Why they do not love me? What did I do wrong? Why why why?" where are you, grandpa? I need you. Please come back quickly, your Kia needs you. Please."

Heavy rainfall was pouring down continuously like rain also cried with her and gave emotional support as no one was there to support her in this state.

"Ahha, why my heart is paining? I know they have never loved me since childhood. I could see hatred for me in their eyes. Why God why? What is my fault? "She cried out with her all emotion then suddenly a car splashes the water on her and pass on.

If anyone will see her in this state then they definitely will think that she is out of her mind. In the middle of the road, who cries like hell?

When the splashed water pouring down on her face after that she got back her consciousness and moved her head behind and saw a black Mercedes is passing by her side. She also realized rain stopped.

Then she looking around the place and saw the empty chair and went toward it and sat down. After relaxation,

she consoled herself that "Kia you should move on and do not waste your tears on them. It`s your life, you have all the right to do what you want. Live your life how you want though they judge you anyway. Why do you care about them when they don`t care about you? Life goes on Kia and embraces all fault and happiness. So, move on Kia and remember that do not waste a single drop on them. Fighting."

'O God, it is already 9.pm' she exclaimed After checked the watch on her waist and said that "I am already late. the Last bus is about to come" she quickly got up and ran towards the bus stop.

Within minutes, she reached the bus stop 'o god, thank you" Kia expressed her gratitude to God and panting like a dog. If anyone could see that then definitely, they will laugh out loud because she was looking very funny.

And the last bus finally arrived and she hopped on a bus and sat near the window seat.

And the side, a black Mercedes was standing away at a distance of few meters from her and was watching everything that has happened with Kia. As the bus started moving from the bus stand then a deep male voice from Mercedes command that "let's go".

A driver answered "ok baron"

She was alone in the bus. somehow Kia felt so good and relax if all the burden come down. humming the song "beautiful life by Bebe Rexha"

'I was lost, but you found me

Hiding in the shadows from my destiny

And you saw things that no one could see

You saved me when I was my worst enemy

It feels so good to be alive

Just you and me tonight

Don't wake me up from this high

What a beautiful life'

While humming the song, she felt that her own spirit finds her finally. Since childhood, She was always trying to please her family member thinking that, they will shower same amount of love on her someday but she did not realize that she is just losing herself. Somewhere her mind already knew that they will never care for her but her heart was never ready to accept the truth. But today all her illusion came to an end.

'I heard your heart call mine

And then all the stars aligned

Don't wake me up from this high

What a beautiful life

Spread through me like a wild flame

I feel it in my veins

I'll never be the same

I'll never be the same

Cheers to the thing money can't buy

Can't buy what I feel inside

This thing, I can't deny

Our pretty little paradise'

Her transformation is like a butterfly. When a butterfly is about to transit to a new bodythey felt like that they were dying in the process but when in this process they faced lots of difficult situation and also embrace the life death situation but when they enter into a new life that gives them so many purposes to live life happily. So transformation is a new chance that life gifts you and Kia happily embraced it with an open hand.

Then suddenly a voice interpreted that "mam, where are going? This is the last stop."

"Oh God, I did not realize that I already reached my place. Thank you, driver uncle" kai hurriedly came out from the bus and gave a little bow to the driver and turned her head up and saw a clear sky.

"Uff Kia, day by day, you have been clumsy" she murmured herself and give slapped. Then she reached her apartment and saw that nova has not came till yet and complained about nova that 'uff this girl. This is already 10 at night don`t know till how long she will work?" before opening the door nova commented that "look, who is complaining at my back?" After hearing that Kia turned her face and said with a beaming face that "oh, you are already behind my back" and went to unlocked the door.

But after noticing her she in socked, nova asked confusingly that "my lord. why your dress is wet?"

Ding

Then Kia and nova entered the room together and Kia said half-truth that "oh, I went outside and forget to take my umbrella. So I got wet but by the way, why are u late?

Nova commented that "o god Kia, please go and change otherwise you will be sick and go first"

"Ok ok, my nai nai," Kia said with a laugh and went inside the bathroom.