"Why is it necessary for me to check him out?"
"What father said is correct Lucia,"
"It's unnecessary."
"You can't call this a sacrifice."
These words were all wandering in my mind.
"It is how it is, huh..." For hours now I again and again told this to myself but I couldn't get myself over the fact that ๐๐ง ๐๐ฆ ๐๐ข๐ช ๐๐ง ๐๐ฆ.
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐จ๐ฆ, ๐ฉ๐ถ๐ฉ...
What happened today made me remember of a certain event that changed my life. My entire perspective towards the life.
๐๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ท๐ช๐ด๐ช๐ต ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ช๐ด๐ฉ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐จ๐ฆ... ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต ๐ช๐ต ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฎ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ถ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต ๐ช๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ด.
๐๐บ ๐ท๐ฐ๐ช๐ค๐ฆ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ง๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ช๐ณ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ๐ด.
Iโ, That incident. Everything happened infront of me and all I did, was to stood in my position.
I was powerlessโ
๐๐ฐ! ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ด ๐ข๐ง๐ณ๐ข๐ช๐ฅ. ๐๐ง๐ณ๐ข๐ช๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ด๐ข๐บ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ... ๐๐ง๐ณ๐ข๐ช๐ฅ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ซ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ.
I... will never let something like that happen ever again, and that's the promise I made to myself. A Vow to my beliefs.
I got of my bed as I wiped tears under my eyes.
"There is nothing in sitting idly and cry like an idiot," I explained to myself.
I opened the door slowly, it was pretty late. When satisfied that there was no one around, I made my way to Allan's room.
As I reached, I slowly opened the door so Allan don't be disturbed.
The view infront of me as I enter.
Allan, rest on bed. The moon light entering from open balcony caressed his lower body, slowly making it's way to his face.
I took a chair and placed it right beside the bed. Sitting right beside Allan, I just keep looking at his face.
"How can you sleep soundly after what happened this morning?" I asked him but of course there was no reply.
I extended my hand towards his face. As I was about to touch his cheek I felt something!
Allan's feet, almost his whole lower body was trembling. The fact that his upper body, the back, was wounded so bad and his legs to, I was shocked that his feet can show some movement.
"Is he... in pain?!"
But the real question is, why pain of wounds now? The wounds, now that treated, shouldn't hurt that bad. In fact, why is his body responding to pain all of a sudden? He was calm up until now. Not that he moved his body at all. Then Why?
๐๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ... ๐ ๐๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต๐ฎ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ?! ๐ ๐ฆ๐ด. ๐๐ต ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ฐ๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ด ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฎ.
Sudden reaction of body while dreaming is normal. If it's a nightmare, the chance significantly increases. Since Allan can't move his upper body, he is letting it through his lower body.
But his legs were injured too. There is a possibility that wounds might end up opening.
"What to do? What to do?"
๐๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฑ๐ฉ๐บ๐ด๐ช๐ค๐ช๐ข๐ฏ?... ๐๐ฐ, ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ญ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ.
As I was busy figuring out what I could possibly do to help Allan, I saw fingers of his left hand moving slightly. But the tremble only increase.
๐๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ช๐ด ๐ฃ๐ข๐ฅ. ๐๐ง ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด, ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ต ๐ต๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. ๐๐ง ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ฏ, ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฃ๐ข๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข๐จ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ!
Don't know what to do, I reflexively reached out for his now trembling hand.
I took his hand in my both hands as I gently rubbed back how his hand with my palm.
"It's OK now! Calm down. Calm down. I know that you can hear me so Allan, just calm done a little."
๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ท๐ฐ๐ช๐ค๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ช๐ด ๐ข ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ง๐ง๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ต...
At least I could feel trembling lessen.
"Yes, just like that. Try to calm yourself."
Maybe it was working.
I kept rubbing palm of my hand against back of his hand,
"Don't worry, I'm here. If anything, feel free to ask me. I'll listen to you. So just calm down."
Slowly but surely all the suffering detoured as Allan finally calmed.
I could no longer feel any sort of movement but just his breathing.
Seeing this I sighed in relief,
"...Maybe I'll watch over him for a bit,"
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It was then when I found myself amidst of nowhere, just void.
"Here I am again..." I sighed as I glanced around.
"If it's a dream, then there is no point of doing this. After all, I am very familiar to it now."
I declare to no one.
After few moments of silence, a voice finally replied.
"Is that so?"
It was the voice I had not heard for Yugs now but... I could never forgot that voice.
"How about this then,"
Suddenly, a landscape appeared in front of me from nothing.
It was a land full of flowers. Variety of Florals...
Though it was much bigger than the flower garden Lucia owned.
There I saw a child.
She was sitting under shade of a tree, playing with flowers, making crown of flowers.
They were beautiful.
She took one and wore it on her head. It wasn't flashy, or too colorful, or so eye-catching. Just a simple crown made of all white flowers.
It was really pretty on her.
From the distance, I saw two more children, one girl other boy, making their way to girl. Noticing them, she waved at them.
As they sat there, all three of them seem to have some good quality time though I couldn't hear their voice.
It was a heart warming scene.
I wouldn't lie but I too wanted to join them.
Eventually decided to not as I stood there and just watch them sending their time in joy.
"Even though, it's an illusion or just a dream, I still don't mind it at all."
Suddenly, as if sensing something, little girl who had white crown on her head, turned towards my direction.
She waved as if inviting me. I turned around just to make sure there wasn't someone else she was signalling at.
Apparently, there wasn't. On my delay, little girl moved her hand in a rough manner as inviting me even more strongly.
Even I couldn't help myself as a smile escaped me.
I walk towards the tree as little girl smiled as she saw me approaching.
Other two doesn't seem to notice anything which was a pretty suspicious. Putting that aside, I made my way to girl... that's when I sensed a sudden heat.
I looked around as I noticed a red ball in sky.
๐๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต... ๐๐ถ๐ฏ? ๐๐ฐ! ๐๐ถ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ด ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ! ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ...
The size of red ball was increasing in a major scale. It wasn't a Sun but an attacked aimed for the land!
I looked at the children but they were paying no mind to their surrounding.
Little girl right there just innocently smile at me whole time.
"Tch! I must protect them."
Prรฃna gathering in my hand, I launched a powerful attack at now-Gigantic Red Ball.
As soon as impact was made, speed of Red Ball decreased.
I glanced at little girl from corner of my eye. She was still at her place, starring at me with a confused look on her face.
"Run! Run for your life!" I yelled but little girl just tilted her head.
๐๐ข๐ฎ๐ฏ! ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐บ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ฆ.
All of the sudden, Energy of Red Ball increased as I started to get pushed back.
"HaaaaAHHH!!"
I put everything in my attack but... It was in vain!
The Red Ball was feeding on my energy as it keep getting closer and bigger.
"Darn it!"
I cancelled my attack as I pushed the ground and flied to Red Ball in full speed.
"Well then. I'll push it myself."
Concentrating all my energy in a single punch, I launched my most power blow towards oncoming attack.
I fist made it's way as at the moment of impact,
"What?!!"
I passed through whole Red Ball. Red Ball Passed Through Me!
๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต...
I looked behind as I saw little girl looking up at me, clueless.
Red Ball made it's way as I yelled, "RRUNNNN!!!"
To which little girl naively smiled back at me.
"... Her smile," It was the most beautiful thing I ever remember... Yet I failed again.
In absolute despair, I saw that attack consuming everything in front of it and vanish in nothingness when no left.
It was all dark again. Just Void...
Here I was again, proven all powerless again.
The flames of Anger started to build up inside me.
"HAAAaahhhhhHHHH!!!"
I erupted, whole void begin to shake violently.
๐๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด. ๐๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด... ๐๐ต'๐ด ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด!!!
๐๐ฉ๐ข๐ต?! ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐?!!!
My anger blinded me I had no control over myself.
All I thought was to End every thing around me. End Everything in this entire Universe.
Though it was a dream, I could feel my physical body trembling. That's when I felt it... Warmth.
Warmth of other person, something I wasn't actually familiar with in my entire life much.
I started to feel it around my hand as it slowly covered my entire body.
Two arms from behind, embracing me. A gentle voice told me, "Calm down, Allan... It's okay, now. I am here for you."
So I started to gain control over my consciousness.
"So please, Calm Downโ"
As I finally opened my eyes.
I sat down on the bed as my hand on my head, taking deep breaths to settle my intense breathing down.
I looked outside balcony as I sensed that it was 10:45 at night.
That's when I felt warmth around my hand.
I turned only to find Lucia, sitting on a chair, head on bed, sleeping like a baby.
She had her hands wrapped around mine.
With my other hand, I reached out for her. With a finger, I reached to touch her cheek but pulled back before making actual contact.
๐๐ฆ๐ข๐ถ๐ต๐ช๐ง๐ถ๐ญ?... ๐๐ฐ, ๐ฎ๐ข๐บ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ถ๐ต๐ฆ...?
"This time, you actually saved me." I said. Of course she couldn't hear me, looking at how soundly she was asleep.
I carefully tried moved her hands with my right hand to free my other hands from her grip. In response, she held it even stronger than before.
"Mmhm..." Lucia made that noise.
"Seriously now," I sighed as I tried to free myself.
After wasting whole 5 minutes, I was finally able to free my hand from Lucia's gentle, firm yet soft and warm grip.
I got down of bed as I took a blanket from closet, making sure not to make any annoying noise that may possibly end up disturbing Princess' sleep. Then I covered Lucia with it as and act of a gentleman.
๐๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต'๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ต ๐ฃ๐ช๐ต ๐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ๐ฅ ๐ฅ๐ฐ.
I made my way to balcony, observed the surrounding.
Put my hand in my pocket just to make sure, I pulled out a necklace and held it in front of me.
"You ready? The ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐น show is about start."
With that, I put necklace back in my pocket and moved to balustrade of balcony, and
"Time to act,"
I jumped over it.
. . . . .