"You brat, you have money for other people ye you can't even afford to make yourself pretty?" Mom told me those words
Those words I don't wanna hear
I can't understand why she was always mean to me
"Why are you like that?" I asked her while I'm stopping and holding myself from crying
"It's because of you, being irresponsible," she said
"Why does it look like I was the bad one here?" I confronted her
She walked closer to me and stared at me
"It's always you, the bad one in this family, such a disappointment that we have adopted you," she said
I froze
I couldn't comprehend all the things she told me
Those words kept on circulating all over my brain, endlessly running through my head
"You wanna know why I'm being like this to you?" she asked me while giving me hatred look
I can't stop myself from crying, I gathered all my strength but is it enough?
I looked at dad he's just standing beside the table, he's not doing anything to ease the tension
"You are the reason why my sister's dead, your mom, my sister....s-she w-was my everything, you took her away from me if you didn't keep on asking her to go to the park, she could still be alive right now, you ruined my life, Lia, you... you disgust me" she straightly confronted me
S-she... disgusts me?
I don't know what to do, she left afterward while dad followed her upstairs to comfort her
I was left there...alone, sad, crying, in pain, I hold my chest trying to calm my heart
I didn't know what to do I noticed my tears kept on falling, I can't stop myself from crying, I felt like my world just shattered
My heart was in so much pain
I need comfort too, but I was left alone
I ran outside of our house and decided to call Daniel
I reached out for my phone inside my pocket and dialed his number
I immediately ran to the park since I told him to meet me there
The park...
I stopped for a while to catch air
I can't breathe everything I felt was circulating within me
I wanted to die at this moment but I can't
I ran again
I didn't stop this time
All the things she said was repeating in my brain
I'm a mess, It was my fault
Why...
Why is this happening to me?
I wanted to run.. run away from reality, run away and be free
I wanna be free.....