Two days passed like a blur. He barely registered what happened in those days, but probably he lived a luxurious life with a beauty feeding him all the time and flirting when she felt like it.
However, Matthew steeled his heart and mind, struggling not to get carried away too much by those kind and selfless actions. He needed all his willpower to do such a thing. It was not easy to resist the opportunity of abandoning his dangerous life whatsoever. Indeed, for various times he pondered whether his previous resolve was correct or not.
He was trying to find excuses to invalidate his previous points and make it seem like a good idea to leave the Grand Crusade and just disappear from the map.
'They don't need me since I am not an Ascendant, right? If I leave, they won't miss me at all.'
'I have been one of the weakest people in our group. Why would they ever care about me?'
