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Emma 's POV
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Everything was dark. I couldn't open my eyes. It was like a heavy weight was placed upon them stopping them from opening. A hot piercing pain strikes me in my left shoulder. I wanted to scream but my mouth wouldn't open up. It's like I was stuck. I couldn't move or lift my hand. It wasn't like something heavy was on me, but more of something heavy hit me and now I can't move a muscle kind of thing.
Where was I? What's happening?
Slowly after trying so hard my eyes started to open. I observed my surroundings trying to keep my eyes from shutting again. I was in the car. His car to be specific.
Why is it so hot?
Where was this heating coming from? It was like I was being barbecued.
Shit!
Fire!
Double shit!
The fire was everywhere. I could barely make anything out as the smoke covered almost everything. My vision was still foggy from before and now this smoke almost made it impossible to see anything.
I knew the second we started to drive down the city that there was something going to be wrong. But I didn't know that a drunk truck driver would hit us with his truck and send us flying to the other side of the road like this was some action movie. I knew in my gut that there was something not right. But still I ignored the feeling and do what I mostly do.
Everything was messed up. I couldn't breathe. The smoke made it difficult to do anything. I couldn't see anything due to the smoke. There was this ringing in my right ear. It was difficult to focus on anything but still I can hear something. I could hear his voice asking me to leave to go but I couldn't. I couldn't leave him here. How selfish that would be. I looked around trying to make sense of the situation we were in.
I could make his silhouette in the smoke.
I focused more and saw that he has a deep cut on his forehead, his right arm was moved to an angle that it looked badly broken. There was blood coming out of his mouth and nose and god knows where else. The side car door was bent to angle that it pierced his left side of the stomach. Yet still he was trying to get me out of the car.
"Get out of the car" he said worriedly.
But I ignored him and tried to think of ways to get both of us out. I tried to open my seat belt and as soon as I heard the click of it I fell on him making him groan and then only I realized that the car was upside down. I released my body weight from him and tried to undo his seat belt. The flames of the fire were making it hard. The heat was so much to bear and I was on the verge of passing out but I kept my focus on him to try and take him out of this fire hole.
No! I can't leave him.
My vision was clouded by yet another issue. No, I cannot cry. Now is not the time for these stupid tears to show up. I don't do crying. So why now did they choose to appear?
He was barely conscious, tears were streaming down his face and that was the first time I saw him crying and I couldn't bring myself to it. He grabbed my face and looked straight in my eyes. The amount of passion I saw in them shocked me to my core. He looked at me like I was his world. His eyes told me everything he couldn't right now and it pained me. He was trying to tell me something and I understood each and every word. He slowly leaned towards and smashed his lips on mine and kissed me like his life depended on it. I guess it was. His kiss was possessive and soft and yet at the same time hard and rough like he was afraid to lose me.
I swear I knew what he was trying to do. I knew the first instant that this was his way of telling me goodbye forever but I wasn't ready for it. I pulled away.
"This is not the end. We will get out of here. I promise. Please don't do this " I said my voice hoarse with all the pain.
" You can't deny it, it is the end. We both can't get out on time. You have to get out of this damn car and live the life you always dreamt of. Never ever look back. I love you to the bottom of my very heart and trust me my life is full when I know that I'm going to close my eyes forever after looking at the world's most beautiful and amazing girl. Always remember that I love you no matter what and you are the most amazing person ever I met. Try to move on and live your life with utter happiness and if possible forget me ."
"No no no you can't say that, we're gonna get out of here together. Remember live together die together " I said while crying hysterically.
He grabbed my face and kissed me again with even more passion than before if even it was possible. He pulled away from me and gave me his best smile and kissed my forehead.
That's when I felt a tug on my ankle and saw people pulling me out of this hell hole. I was shouting for them to leave me with him and let me die with him peacefully but these people thought that it was better to make me live a life of sorrow rather than die in peace with the love of my life. It was getting really hot and I was on the verge of losing consciousness. I screamed for them to let me go. If he isn't coming out of this than I don't want to either.
The last thing I saw was people pulling out his body which was looking lifeless and screaming at me that I could have saved him and that I don't love him. That I was selfish.
Something in me shifted and I screamed for him that I'm sorry. Sorry that I couldn't save him.
I became confused when I felt someone was shaking me. Calling me. How did they know my name?
"Emma "
" Emma "
"Wake up "
Don't they know I couldn't. It was my time to go now.
" Wake up please "
" Wake up Emma !! "
I opened my eyes and looked at the white ceiling of my room in which I was living from past 1 year.
" Emma it's just a dream. Sunshine focus on your breathing. Breathe in and breathe out "
I looked at my mom who was trying to control my panic attack but I couldn't bring myself to do whatever she was telling me.
I couldn't breathe. It was getting harder to breathe now. The same smoke was coming in front of my eyes and I know I was losing it. Badly!
"Look at me baby. It's okay just breathe in and out. You are okay sunshine." She said.
I was looking at her but my thoughts were still stuck in the nightmare I just had. It wasn't something unusual that happened but I never got them in such detail. It was always me being in a burning car with a silhouette there whose face I could never see. But this time I could exactly see who the person is.
My breathing was hard and beads of sweat were visible on my face and neck.
I tried to breathe in and out and slowly I came back to normal. My t-shirt was soaked in my sweat. My mom hugged me like her life depended on it and started crying.
I wrapped my arms around her and started stroking her. I was trying to calm her the same way she was doing. My condition may have taken a toll on me but it was a new level for her. She could never see me like this. Her own daughter was suffering and yet she couldn't do anything.
Slowly but in the company of each other we cried for what felt like hours. "Did you took your medicines for them ?" She questioned but deep inside she knew the answer to that.
I nodded because I was too afraid to speak. She knew that I was lying but didn't say anything.
"Do you wanna talk about it?"
I shook my head sighing at the same time. She always ask this but I couldn't bring myself to talk about my nightmares or the night.
She wiped her face than mine and said " Take a shower dear and I'll bring you hot chocolate then you can go to sleep. Okay ".
After that she kissed my forehead and left my room.
I walked towards my bathroom and stood in front of the mirror . I examined my self and saw that I looked horrible. I have purple bags underneath my once bright eyes. The skin that used to glow is now dull and pale. The once full of life eyes are now empty and lifeless.
I turned on the shower and got in the icy cold water to calm myself down.
This was the first nightmare I got in 3 months that made me cry out so loud that mom had to come and wake me up. It's not a new thing for me to get nightmares every day. You will be surprised to know that I'm used to them now. They are not generally as bad as today. Sure I would wake up in a pile of my own sweat and tears. Sure I would cry for hours after getting those horrible nightmares but my cries were never loud enough to wake mom or anyone up. Hell it didn't happen in a long time that my mom had to come wake me up. And I know why that happened. I looked towards the calendar and sighed.
Time is flying faster than I thought it would.
I left taking those medicines a long ago because I wanted to feel normal and I'm sure no normal person eats them.
I turned off the shower and wrapped a towel around my body and went to my closet and put on simple black shorts and a white hoodie which was comfortable to sleep in. When I came out I noticed that it was only 2:00 am in the morning.
Knock!
Knock!
" Come in mom " I said and my mom walked in with hot chocolate and trust me she makes the world's best hot chocolate which I can't ever resist.
" Sunshine, you need to take your medicines daily. Baby, I can't see you like this. I know you are suffering and I can't bring myself to think that I can't do anything to make it okay. It kills me."
" I'm okay mom. Even this the first nightmare I have in a very long time. I don't need medications and trust me I'm fine. See I'm smiling. Don't worry mom." I told her smiling to assure her that I was fine. The uncertainty was clear in her eyes but she nodded and got up to leave.
I grabbed her hand and stood up. I hugged her tightly to myself and thanked her. She kissed my forehead and left.
I sat on my bed trying to divert my mind from that day. With each and every sip I took of the yummy hot chocolate I thought about all the things that happened to me these past few years. How once a happy little young cheerful girl became into a hollow sad cold living corpse. It didn't help that I lost almost everyone that I loved. I have only my mom and my best friend left with me.
I broke out of my trance when I heard a loud beep sound and that's when I realized that it's time to get up and get ready for school. I turned off the alarm and got up.
It's time for rise and shine.
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Love Luna.