In the middle of the darkness, in a space that apparently had no end, there was a young man of about 25 years old, his clothes were worn and torn in several places, his hair was so long that, if he stood up, it would reach him to the ankles, but perhaps what stood out the most about this young man were his eyes, eyes that at times did not radiate a single bit of life.
In a hoarse voice, but with some resignation, the young man exclaimed:
"* sigh * another day in this place huh."
The young man only smiled, shaking his head helplessly, he had already lost count of the time he had been in that dark and endless place, so each time his consciousness returned, he considered it 1 more day.
At first, when he first woke up in this place, he got very scared, screamed, ran with all his might, cried, but still struggled to find some way out or to find someone else in this horrible place, but little by little, Although it sounds ironic to say it, he was realizing the "reality" of things and that yes, he was the only person who was in this place of endless darkness, absolute silence (in addition to his voice and the steps he took), and empty, since apart from him, there was nothing else.
When he finally assimilated the "reality" he was in, he went into despair, he had already tried to remember what he had done to get to this place without success, at that moment he only remembered his name and where he came from, as well as to his parents and the place where he studied, but not a single memory of them explained how he ended up in that situation.
Despair filled him, to distract himself, he began to count and record the time that passed in his mind, seconds, minutes, hours, days ... Time passed little by little, and the young man began to calm down, which in itself It was a miracle, since anyone would have gone crazy in a place like that, but the young man decided to start remembering, not to look for something in his memories as he had done before, but simply to "live" those experiences again, like this It was also how he realized how upset he had been since he did not realize that in this strange place he did not need to eat or sleep, much less go to the bathroom.
In this way, about 25 years passed (of which he had more or less kept count), reliving his life through his memories, by then he had noticed that all his memories were quite clear, he even remembered the moment when that for the first time he opened his eyes when he was born, in addition they were not blurred memories, they were very vivid memories, which he enjoyed a lot in the midst of so much hopelessness, and it was just when he came to his experience lived when he was 25 years old that he realized, or rather it confirmed what he had already suspected but that years ago he still could not remember or face.
"I… I'm already dead."
Right at the moment that he came to that conclusion, the missing memories, the ones that were very important to understanding how he came to this horrible place, were revealed to him.
The young man decided not to see them yet, after so much time analyzing and reliving experiences many times, he had already learned how to "block" memories that he did not want to see.
"Maybe myself from a few years ago, I would have jumped directly to those memories in despair, but I don't see the sense, after all, could I change my current situation? I also think that these memories are very special and should be analyzed in depth. "
"But boy, in the end, all those religions were wrong, what heaven and hell, what reincarnation, what there is after death is just a dark and empty world, where you are alone, waiting for your soul to disperse little by little ... "
That is the conclusion that the young man had reached and that in his opinion made sense, if you did good things in your life, it is most likely that you will immerse yourself in those memories within this dark space until little by little your soul disperses, or on the contrary, if all you did was sow evil, then all those memories will haunt you until you go crazy and your soul breaks, very similar to what religions say, only without heaven or hell.
"Well that's just a hypothesis of mine, besides I'm just here, so corroborating it is out of my reach, although it's strange, I've been in this place for more than 25 years, but I don't feel different, if my guess is correct? Shouldn't it have completely disappeared already?"
Thinking about it, the young man tried to find an answer to this question, which he did not take long to find.
"Perhaps it is because I still don't know how I died or the circumstances of it, that my soul cannot rest in peace and disperse?"
"Well if so then I was right to seal those memories, narrowly and disappear."
Breathing a sigh of relief, the young man began to ponder the validity of it, but in the end he just shook his head.
"Even if I am wrong and end up in this place until my soul disperses… there is nothing I can do right?"
"Also, I realized that my memories are very clear, I practically remember every book and novel that I have read completely, I suppose I will study everything I can in case there really is another life..."
Although the probability of it happening was almost non-existent, the young man still had a shred of hope, after all, he had already died and was in a very strange place instead of disappearing completely, that for him was already a miracle within what fits.
"Well, I will go back to review my life from the beginning, putting emphasis on everything that I was taught and books and novels that I read, well I guess I have a while."
And so, without further ado, he began to review his memories, recreating the life he lived, the decisions he made, and so time passed.
Almost 100 years had passed, the young man had already reviewed his life over and over again, where something happened that he himself did not expect, or, rather, never occurred to him, and that was the mental trauma that he was going to face, after of everything, although the young man was not a murderer, in his life, he did have a defect, in each novel he read, he always put himself in the position of the character, in the end he experienced his pain, joy and thoughts, so that almost At the end of his life, his mental state was completely different from what a young man like him should have.
His point of view and way of seeing things was more similar to an old man than a 25-year-old, so his relationship with his colleagues at the university was not very pleasant, as you might imagine.
All that mental load he experienced over and over again for the next 100 years, so when he came to, he realized that, all that emotion that he had, that little anticipation that he had towards reincarnation disappeared, in the end he almost breaks.
"* sigh * I almost ended up breaking my soul, too much information, emotions and thought seems to overdrive the soul, if it weren't for sealing almost all of my memories except those that allow me to be 'me', I would have lost my consciousness by now."
Remembering about it, the young man "sweated" cold, he knew that once the soul collapses it would be the end of everything.
After all, the understandings and concepts of life must come progressively and vary depending on the life one experiences, going beyond that without improving my "soul" is simply suicide.
But of course, in the end this incident left him after effects, at times he would faint and, upon awakening, his entire "body" felt intense pain.
In addition, this pain only disappeared when he was unconscious, so the young man decided to keep his consciousness off.
"While doing this is dangerous, it is not that I have any other option, this pain is unimaginable, it is better that I only wake up at certain intervals to see if my situation changes."
And so time passed, the young man not being able to remain conscious could not verify the time that had passed, but he had the feeling that more and more time passed between each awakening.
Sometime later, in a certain awakening, the young man realized a terrifying fact.
"My body is becoming more transparent and to make matters worse it is becoming increasingly difficult to keep my memories sealed"
"ha ha ha, I guess my time in this space is running out huh"
The young man only smiled, shaking his head helplessly, although he knew that nothing was eternal and that in the end this day would come, he did not expect it to be this way.
"On second thought, the only thing I've done so far is sleep, so an ending like this isn't bad."
"Besides, I still have to see my last memories, well, I decided, the day that disappears completely will be the day that I will see those last memories and release the rest that I have sealed, it will be an epic way to leave this place"
Having made his decision, the young man did not worry anymore, and decided to face what had to come without any doubt, also something good about this matter was that the pains that afflicted him had almost disappeared, so entering meditation was relatively easy.
Thus a week passed, and the young man in meditation suddenly opened his eyes and murmured:
"It's time"
Suddenly the young man concentrated on his memories, first he began to lift the seal of the memory of his death, which upon seeing him, even after experiencing his life over and over again and with his great mental state, he was still speechless, not knowing whether to laugh or cry.
On his birthday, to change his routine a bit (in addition to the fact that he lived alone), he went for a run on a road that a colleague had recommended that he use as it was a long journey and widely used by other people, for What was arranged starting at 4 in the morning, and it was not until almost the end of the route in a somewhat desolate area, that he heard shootings, the young man decided that approaching to see what happened was a good cliché so he did the On the contrary and continued on his way, when a girl his age appeared from the bushes, she was quite disheveled, and had a pale complexion, the young man barely managed to get a good look at her when a bald guy with a gun appeared out of nowhere and pointed at the A girl who apparently hadn't even noticed, the young man didn't even have time to think when his body reacted and came between the bald man and the girl.
The memory ended there, with the sound of a gunshot and the scream of a girl.
"What a" heroic "way to die, ha ha ha, I always lived a quiet life, in one direction, and to think that only a small change in routine would end like this"
"Well, I don't have much time left, it's time to open the rest of the seals with my memories and additional information, in addition to my mental state"
And just like that, the young man prepared to open the rest of the seals, but what the young man did not realize was the fact that for each seal he opened, a certain place of the space in which he was illuminated, and the ground where he was sitting was cracking little by little, and the moment he opened the last seal, his body was illuminated with a holy light, free from the filth of mortals, but the next moment, cracks appeared all over his body, it seems, his soul could not take any more.
Pain overwhelmed him, but that did not bother him, for him, he had already achieved something that perhaps no one would expect, and in that moment, he had a flash of inspiration:
"It does not matter how you have lived, if at the end of the cycle you face it without regrets, then that is enough."
Thus, with this new thought, his soul finished cracking and like specks of light, they disappeared into endless space, a space that, by the way, without him knowing, had been destroyed leaving a huge circle with strange marks, which had been illuminated with a powerful light….