We snuck out of the big house when they were looking at the card M gave them.
We are heading back to headquarters. It's almost 4 in the moring. We have been on this mission for 3 months now. We are after the biggest drug lord and pedophile in the world, Marco. It's our mission to find the 12 year old girl that he kidnaped. When we find her then we have to terminate Marco. I just want to end it now...but we have to find the kid first.
I keep trying to figure out why M showed herself to that Toby kid.
J joked about M being on her period, but we know....we know that cant happen. The Order took that from her when she was 11. The Order forced her to have a hysterectomy. I know she wonders what it would what it would be like if she could get pregnant. I see her looking at pregnant women all the time. But that's how it it in The Order. If your the best of the best female agent you lose more then just yor life. It's only the "weak" women that are aloud to have babies. It's about the for the men only the "weak" men gets a forced vasectomy. J and myself didn't have that done.
The Order thinks J and I can give them strong and healthy children for them to corrupt and mold them into what they want. But when you are born and raised there, that's all you know. People may think that were nuts. Truth be told we are. The Order will start there experiments on you when you are 2 years old. You will be taken away from your mother and are raised by a "doctor". Really you are being trained to have nothing, not even emotions. We are to live, breathe, and die for The Order, nothing more.
But we don't listen that much any more. We do our missions and that's it. we stopped reporting to the higher ups. Well J killed one of them. We have been doing this for 8 years now. It's sat to think we are all 18 years old and all ready...have nothing to live for.