PREVIOUSLY ON "POWER OF MANIPULATION IN TDG" (~˘▾˘) ~
Thousands of doors painted in different colours were present just before me. There were doors and doors as far as the eyes could see. Are all my memories and powers existing inside me hidden on the other side of these doors??
Just one fucking hour, How will I know what part of me exists behind which door? Even if I know how will I even collect them?
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Am I the only they get to throw in these messes again and again, multiple times? What should I do now? Firstly, I should change back into my humanoid form, right? It's really uncomfortable and awkward to stay being a monster.
"Change me back." I command in my mind.
After changing back again I look around at the uncountable number of doors. Fuck it. How will I ever know what memories I will have to pick up and which of them are behind which door?
I strive forward to stand in front of the nearest door which is red in colour. "Open" I command in my mind. The door opens slowly with a cracking sound. I put my head inside the room while holding edges of the door tightly. Who knows what is inside? It's best to first gape the situation inside the room.
A boy with exquisite features was sitting alone inside a wide classroom with a lot of students scrutinizing around him. The boy tried to avoid their gazes by concentrating on the book in front of him. The boy didn't look like he was enjoying the unwanted attention.
"Is that me?" Well, it's quite easy to figure out that it's me. Unending effort by boys and girls indifferent, to gain my favour irrespective of my own opinion. Gazing at me like a pervert. I was quite famous in my college because of my looks, but it was only because of my looks. My regular habit of inconsistently ignoring their gazes made me look like an arrogant and mean looking person in the whole campus. But it's not like I intentionally enjoyed ignoring them. I gave a fair chance to everyone but, it looked like my behaviour, habits and policies of life were not as great as my looks. Every girl I dated broke up with me in just a few weeks. First, I thought that it was just my fault. There was something I did wrong, no? But it was no use. So, I tried to find contentment by dating boys. But it was a totally wrong decision. In their eyes I was just a philander that readily or frequently enters into a relationship with anyone that gives a little attention. They just took me like some libido. It was like they were using a very beautiful sex toy for their satisfaction. Once they are done with it, it's no longer interesting right? It's best to throw and get over it at the right moment. It was the worst decision I took in my life and I don't even remember how many times I had criticized myself over it. Those who were jealous or didn't get my attention previously tried to make my life hell by spreading gossips and humours, making people disgust me and treat me like a social maniac or some kind of alien. In an instant I became alone, depressed and dejected. I didn't tell my family as I thought that it would only cause more problems and endured it all alone. Now, that I think whether it would have been better if I would have told my family about it but......…Well, it's best to not remember those things at the moment. My college life was in a few words, not very good.
I don't want Nie Li to see these things about me. He should and would never know about these all things. I won't ever let these memories and my dark past come into light again ever. These things won't happen again in my life. These kinds of people if come in my way again, will pay a very humongous price. My memories, my past, my thoughts and plans will have to be remain hidden as long as I want them to. No one will ever know my reality. I came here to live a new life and I will do so. I was too good in my previous life but that won't happen this time. One who will cause me or my loved one's pain will suffer till eternity. Even death will be considered a beloved gift.
I didn't notice at all that thinking about all these negative thoughts caused an emotional breakdown in my mind and a black substance started to materialize from my body at a very huge rate. It was like I was not able to think about anything at all. The quantity of manifestation of the substance coming out of my body was increasing with every second at a very high rate. My head was a total mess. I just kept mumbling hither and thither wishing for those people's misery just like they caused mine. They destroyed my life and right now they must be drinking somewhere enjoying and gossiping about my miserable death. I just kept cursing them for the pain I went through like a maniac. In just a few minutes the whole space was filled with my black aura.
When I looked back at the prospect, I realized what horrendous spectacle I had caused. But it was already too late, I wasn't able to control my emotions. I lost control over my powers. My head was hurting very bad. I just sat down on the ground closing my eyes, holding my head with my both hands, the manifestation of the black substance didn't stop and in just a few moments I wasn't able to see anything at all. Everything was covered in a total black. All the miserable memories of my past life were running just in front of my eyes. Those all people, who lead me to my anguish were again in front of my eyes. It was like they were laughing at my current situation. I didn't know what to do. Tears start to flow my eyes. I started to panic.
"Help!!! Please help me!!!!"
I just kept shouting for help even after knowing that no one will be there. Even after knowing that nothing is going to happen, nothing is going is change, I just kept hoping for it. Maybe...someone.....
Just then I felt something extraordinary, something different. It was a felling I never felt in my life before.
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THE AUTHOR HAS SOMETHING TO SAY-
This is the first time I am seeing you suffering so much. (ಥ﹏ಥ) I didn't know at all that you suffered so much in your life. Will you be alright? ಠ_ಠ
MC- don't worry everything will be alright. But were you worried about me? You were worried about me right, right? (¬‿¬)
Who is worried about you, you evil devil? ƪ(˘⌣˘)ʃ I know your true personality? You will be back in your evil form in no time at all. Hymph. (ʘ‿ʘ)
You will be right? ಠ_ಠ