my friend Alice

I wanna talk about having a friend having a best friend, Friend you always thought that you could count on, A friend you would tell you secret too and a friend who would always be there with you. I had one of those and it was nice ...we always used to do everything to together , From going to the bathroom Together to sleep over at each other's houses to eat each other's food or doing Nothing else that we always love to do. My best friend name was Alice she was perfect she was nice she was everything that I ever wanted in a friend, We had known each other for many years I think we started to know each other when I was 5, She was the one who came to me 1st if she wouldn't have came to me I would have never known her since I've always In a shy kid. She had blonde long curly hair green Beautiful shiny eyes she had freckles and she had a beautiful smile , It may sound that I loved her but I didn't I loved her as a friend not as a girlfriend if you're getting the wrong Vibes, I myself was a shy little girl with Brown short hair and golden eyes I never liked the way I looked but Alice told me different, She always said that she loved my eyes and the way I smiled She said to me every single time I wished I had your eyes they're golden and they're shining so beautifully in the sun, It was weird but I kind of liked it the thought of my friend liking the way I look made me feel proud, I always showered Alice with sweet kind words as from what she was wearing and how she looked how amazed there was on her hair and so on she always laughed and hugged me whenever gave her such compliments, We were such a good friends even from the start even if I didn't know her I knew that I could trust her I knew that she would be my very best friend. Never did I thought that she would leave me that I would be all alone never in my entire little brain would I thought that she would leave me, And no we didn't end up separating when we Got older, Alice actually sadly passed away when she was 16. It was so heartbreaking the day she died, She died from cancer that horrible stupid Disease , But before she died we always had a great time together we would always talk to eachatter planning our future ahead saying to each other such as moving in together having a life together As friends, I always like the idea to live with Alice and will always made my heart smile Not only did it make me smile but I also got a comfort for not being alone in the future. Like I said I was a shy kid so I was having hard time to getting new friends I had other friends than Alice yes but none of them was enough for me to feel comfortable for sharing other things Alice was the only one for me you want for me, I could still think of the days where I've told Alice our future had how many pets we would have how much have funny things we would do at our work together we always wanted to work at the same place if not at least work at places that was closed each other so we could always visit each one, Before Alice got Sick from cancer I've always liked the idea of spending time with her I knew I had out of friends to hang out with and Alice had hers but I never really like the thought of being alone with other of my friends, I always wanted Alice to be with me even though I had my other friends it sounds weird but all Alice made me calmShe made me relax whenever I almost got a panic attack or felt anxious about something, My other friends couldn't calm me down and they couldn't help me whenever I got a panic attack which was why I always wanted to have Alice, But when Alice started to get Sick at the age of 12 I slowly more and more started to not making Alice come with me because she always obviously hadn't the power and the energy to go with me every single where, It was tough I needed Alice I wanted Alice Bewitched me every single time I did anything but I had to learn to be on my own so all this could get better, Never did I think that Alice would actually get worse and she would eventually die I always thought that she would beat the cancer and that she would go back to her true Self, But after the age of 12 and slowly going up Alice only got worse and worse every day. I tried my very best to make Alice feel normal always to make sure that she didn't feel alone or she felt different than others, Wish try to make her smile always try to make her happy I bought her a lot of stuff so she would always be entertained at the hospital , I spend so much time with her whenever school ended I barely solve my other friends but they understood they knew that I really liked Alas because we were so close so they understood that I didn't want to hang out with them so much since Alice was so sick, I always talked to Alice always making sure that she was fine but it was hard to talk to her because she wasn't fine she wasn't OK she tried to smile but whenever she tried she immediately started to cry right afterwards she was tired she had was in pain I could see it all in her eyes