Chapter 22
It was in third grader that I realize there's distance between us, I think it started when I was five years old, when mother gave me special training to carry on mother's technique, because of that our time together decreased as I busied myself to train.
It was only a small distance between us, but I surely felt it, the distance slowly but surely getting larger and larger.
It was in third grader too, that I started to feel irritated when I saw him playing with others, because he only played with other girl, that time I don't know that I only feel irritated when he played with other girls not with other boys
I don't understand this feeling, I don't understand the reason, I don't want to feel like this, but every time he played with other girls especially Alice and Claudia which is my friend too, I can't help but feel irritated
I think this feeling was not right, so I never told them about it, I buried it deep inside my heart, but no matter how many times it happens, I've never got used to it.
And that's why… I consult it with mother, I told her what I feel, when I feel like that, and that I've wanted some answer from her, but sadly mother too said that she can't explain it, at least she can't explain it now, but she will tell me about it in the future
Because it happens when he approached others and vice versa, I tell my mom about my idea "should I tied him and lock him inside the house?" that way I won't have that kind of feeling anymore, but sadly mother strongly rejected my brilliant idea
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And like that it continues even after two years had passed, I tried and tried to stand of my ground, to stop the slowly chipped place where I belong, but it's the same my place becoming smaller and smaller, as our distance becoming wider and wider
Then it happened, it was like the core of the place where I belong, but they tried to steal to chip that last place where I can stand, and something snapped inside of me
I blow up I shouted "I hated it" I pushed him which I thought the most precious of mine, and the others which I thought as my best friend
Why it came to this…, why it ended this way…, can I still fix this….
...
It was as my mother said, the real friend was the friends who won't betray you in any situation, I realized too they're someone I can trust, they're my friend
They did not abandon me, they even help me to identify the feeling which I can't identify alone for these years, it was… Love, that day I finally realized that I love him!
Right after I solved the problem inside me in these following years, another problem emerged now I can't face him anymore, every time we're face to face more than three seconds, my body started to heat up, my face becoming hotter and hotter, what happened if I can't talk to him anymore like this.
That's my naive thought, the next day after I confronted him the first time we fight, something changes with him, that time I cried to my friends I thought that he started to hate me
Till the news brought by my parents shocked me, It's was a very bad news about him.
I'll change the way how I look at him that's what I decided, but I didn't meet him at all…, even after two days he still did not show up in front of me.
If you don't come to me, then I come to you
And that time the first time I realized, the person who I admired who's like a superman excel in every way I know strong in everything, I realized that he too, a normal human when I saw how fragile he's looks, like one small touch can broke him to pieces and become unrepairable
And like an instinct, with a thought of "I don't want to lose him" my body moves on its own.
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After the deed has done, that I've realized I had said something crazy and embarrassing, but still I did not regret it, looking at him who's becoming better sleeping cutely on my lap, a smile naturally came out
it was me who's usually spoiled by him, but spoiling him like this feels good too.
I feel very happy as I stroked his head softly like how he usually stroked my head, and at that time he showed a sign that he waking up
I don't what to talk to him, it's very embarrassing and awkward for me, so I faked my sleep
Then something unexpected happened…
"since when you've become this beautiful"
"haa…, with this I can no longer see you as a family"
"this is your fault ok, i have a strong possessiveness, I'll never let you go"
When I got back to my room, after all that happened
Kyaaaaa!! what's this I'm so excited!!! My hearts feel so light now!! I jumped and screamed again and again in my room which show my very own excitement
What to do! What to do! I don't think my excitement can calm down anymore!! How can I face him tomorrow!?? When I tried to remember what he said… kyaaa!!!!!
A bonus small stories:
The Melancholy of Mothers
One day, in the Bentley residence, two adult woman sitting near each other with a small table between them, on top of table there's a several beer cans, and some small snacks
While the area around them filled with empty beer cans, the identity of those adult women are Layla and Misa
"Layla~~" Misa said with drunken voice "help me~~, I don't know what to do anymore, Lex never wanted to be spoiled by me~~ uwaaaa~~~" she cried
That's right Misa cried because her son is too mature so much that she craved spoiling her sons which chanced never come
"no~~" Layla denied it, she's too drunk by all the beer she drink "it should be Misa who's help me~~ because of Lex I can't spoiling my daughter too~~"
"do you know what she said when I tried to teach her how to read"
"my daughter like "oh, I know this thing, Lex told me about it" and like that he easily read all the letters"
"when I tried to teach her about numbers "oh I know this too, Lex told me about it" She even able to calculate, uwaaa~~~~ gave back my happinesss~~" and correct the both adult women cried their hearts out till their satisfied that day
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Another small story:
What happened to my daughter!?
"mom I got this brilliant idea" my daughter as cute as she looks said happily
"because I felt this strange feeling when I saw him playing with others, should I tied him and lock him inside the house? This way I don't have to feel that again"
It was like a 100000ton weight hammer, hammered to my head just what the … that I hear, she acts so cute but her words is so scary, and she didn't look like she joking at all, this is serious I don't know that my daughter had this kind of trait
What to do!?
Suuu haa
suuu haaa
calm down me calm down
That right let's reject her idea for now
Just what the hell Lex done to my daughter!?
I need to discuss this with my husband, ok let's call him now I don't care even if I bothering his works It's much more important than his jobs
And like that a very important small meeting between the Bentley Couple, the meeting goes on for one day one night, without being able to achieve any feasible solution