I went forward though it was a nerve wrecking. I guess crushes do affect us one way or another. Claire was smiling sheepishly and I wanted to slap off that smile of hers, what a bad friend I am, it's not her fault I know that, but i can't help feeling turmoil inside. I wanted to ask what are they smiling ear to ear but I couldn't. I reached there I said "hi" to Gabriel, wanting to sound normal and unaffected as possible but it was easier said than done. He replied calmly "Hi". It's wasn't like I was expecting something else rather than a "Hello" thing but I was unexpected hurt. I sat down put my earphone on and play a loud music as possible so as I can calm down and not eavesdropping to their conversations. My friend Claire tapped my shoulder, "hey" she said. "Mmmmh" I replied. "Why is the music so loud, Are you really, like really okay?" I managed to only replied "Oooh😲 am okay" I said. Then don't want to be portrayed as a weirdo, I reduces the voice to somehow minimal which was also comfortable by my side. To what felt like an eternity, Gabriel bid a goodbye and walked away like he wasn't there to begin with. And I released the sigh which I didn't know I was holding. Claire just stared at me dumbfolded and "said you know you acting strange today or is not what am thinking it is, right?" I asked back "what so strange?" she shrugged and said "I will find out just don't worry" but I couldn't care less after all. I didn't want piles of other worries while I had enough to worry about.
We countinued with our timetable without a hinch and I praised Lord for that. No more crush drama for a day. I had fucking enough after all. "Awwww the day is finally over, am so tired. I just hope we do our university exam and byebye second year for good." I said. We walk out of class meeting friends here and there chitchat with them for a minute or more then move on to our business. The day was like any other days but with unexpected events. But that's life I guess.
I reached hostel already parting ways with Claire. But remembering Claire said something weird that I can't actually put a finger on it. what did she meant? That "something will happen to me?" Is it a good thing? or a bad one😔? Who knows? Guess time will tell. I did my everyday routine and I slept without bothering to care what will happen today in few minutes or hours especially.