Though I spent the whole catastrophic month of May with tears, pain and hardship, never really thought that there was something more to look at.
In the first week of June, NB ended up visiting us again. I was afraid to face him as I was guilty of having an open-announced crush on him. How would that feel when you love someone knowing he's single but he turns out to be in the same relationship again?
No matter how nonchalant I acted in front of NB, he was still trying to talk to me. But that time I wasn't interested but even in having a general chat with him. I was really upset. I can forgive everything but betrayal. I wasn't able to gulp that my first true love betrayed me. He didn't cheat but yet he was a betrayer in my eyes.
One day, I was lazing around the living room with insecure thoughts and NB came in and sat. As soon as I saw him coming in, I commenced on leaving that place immediately. I didn't want to face him as I knew that I might fall for him again knowing that he had cheated on me indirectly. I guess he felt something wrong because of my strange behaviour. But little did I know that no sooner I was about to leave the living room, NB clutched my arms with his hands and dragged me to a corner. He pinned me to the wall with his hands and kissed me. He made me fall for him again.
No wonder my eyes brimmed with tears. Though he was the one all I wanted, I was devastated thinking about his cheat until I got to know the fact. I was never so sure about anything in life. I've always been very indecisive and paranoid all my life because of the broken atmosphere at my home since childhood. I judge something very hastily.
When I started crying, My Mr Man In Black draped his arms around my shoulders and narrated all that happened. I guess he knew why I was acting like that. He accepted that his wife came to him for wooing and also had stayed at his house. But he had the same mentality I have. NB reassured, "Look, she came to me with a proposal to get everything settled down and marry again. But do I look like a fool or something? I know that if one can betray once, they can betray again a thousand times. So I cleared everything to her that all was over between me and her." He added, "And yes, she stayed at my house but just to pack her bags and luggage." I didn't stop sobbing yet. And he then snapped on me, "Who in the world told you the incomplete truth? And why in the damn world did you believe and started hurting yourself?" I smiled and the tears of pain turned into the blessings of happiness.
Well, NB hugged me and we both got everything official and I didn't tell Molly about it. Also, our family members didn't know too. You know, our family is no less than the BBC.