I hardly kept a smile on my face after Mr Black leaving me emotionally bruised. He left me with a rollercoaster of emotions. If one moment I missed him, the other moment I cried or the other, I smiled remembering the times we spent. I guess, this variety of emotions were the spices that triggered me to go on writing more songs.
There you go, from there, I went on threading up the letters, rhyming the words, sewing the sentences, humming different tunes and so on. My most favourite part of the whole songwriting process is naming those songs. I usually name the songs after completing the writing. So it feels very relieved and satisfying to name them after finishing the whole. Look, it just feels like giving birth to a baby, doing its upbringing and celebrating its naming ceremony. These songs are born out of the thoughts of the father and words of the mother. That is, thoughts are the inspiration and words are the lyrics. And yes, I'm their mum. I do honestly love them as my babies. I build the upbringing of my originals strong keeping the lyrics, tune and name powerful, meaningful and heart-touching. So that they don't need any interpretation when I sing them. Ensuring these elements as a must, I grow the songs up. I mean, elaborate adding lyrics. Then I do my favourite naming ceremony of those. Well, there's actually no fixed starting point for writing a song. A feeling, a word or a single melodious tune can be its start! People write songs for many purposes. I simply write songs to be stress-free, to let out all of my feelings(even those which I can't express to others), and to keep myself productive. You can say, it's my heart's mother tongue. My songs are the only thing that makes me feel proud of myself. The songs, written from personal experience, always turn out to be the best. 'Cause, everything written from the heart is always pure and precious; nothing speaks as true as the heart does.
Don't know how 4 months flew away with the memories of NB...and I kept on writing songs until the time I realized that I had done writing 11 songs letting out almost all of my emotional swings and teenage angst. And hence it took just a second to name the FIRST album of my life, "11." Not only this, 11 is actually quite a lucky number for me. Feels like I have an unusual relationship with this number as I observed in many cases. The album was made up of 11 songs but only 1 inspiration. Yeah, lucky guess, the inspiration was none other than, my love, Mr Man In Black. I even have a track named Mr Man In Black!
**Note: 4 months passed on, at last, I could tell that Mr Man In Black was my love, true first love, not just a crush of 4 months. 'Cause I had still been feeling for him and I cared a lot for him. No matter what others said!