\"I feel horrible." I had just woken up to a Brian sitting there staring at the door "Yeah, that's nice but slightly less horrible, right?" Brian said as if he was negotiating with me I nodded my head. He still looked very sad, but he was still talking. "Brian, you've got a terrible glare on your face is that going to stay there or what?" I asked him. "What glare?" He said, turning to look at me. "Go look in the mirror you've got a glare sitting right there on your face." Then I remembered, "We can't walk, remember, so how am I supposed to see this glare on my face?" "Good question." I turned to look at nurse joy who was silently typing on her computer "Nurse Joy do I have a glare on my face?" Brian asked. Nurse joy stopped typing for a moment and looked at both of us. "You both have glares on your faces." She looked at us with a frown. The glares were most likely a side product of last night's events. It was about noon right now we had gotten no sleep last night so we slept for a while, even more so because of our injuries. I touched my face "I have a glare on my face?" "Now that I look at you, you have a glare on your face I'm not the only one." "Piss off." I could tell he was a tiny bit happy he wasn't the only one with a glare on his face. But he quickly returned to his aloof face, but his face remained tense and unhappy. He was probably thinking about Kyla… The one I no, we failed. I had an aloof look on my face wondering if it would be the right decision to close my heart off on my past life my heart was too open to be broken and betrayed. But I had people by my side now. Would that really be the right choice?
Time passed, so I started meditating on my core. I had made some significant progress from my last battle. I was at 13.5 so I started meditating I barely made progress at all at this point, I could only make progress through battles and I didn't want to risk my life in every battle like the last one. So I must get more fighting experience I can't let my emotions take me over like the last time I fought. I looked around the room silently remembering Kyla's dead body sitting there with a cover over her face I felt a pain in my chest just thinking about it. It hurt more than I could imagine. I broke into a cold sweat I couldn't breathe. My heart was in pain I knew I deserved. "Phire Sapphire! Sapphire!" I snapped back to reality from the pain that was deep set in my heart. Nurse joy was shaking my shoulders. "Eh I'm fine just some pain." I waved it off. Nurse joy looked at me with a frown. "Tell me what it really was now."
Nurse joy said in a very serious voice that I had never heard from her before. "I don't know," I said it was a lie it was most definitely a panic attack. She looked at me with suspicion and doubt etched on her face. I went back to meditating but every time I closed my eyes I remembered carrying her damaged limp body all the way to the infirmary. An infinitesimal amount of guilt clung to my chest making my breathing panicked and ragged. I could barely breathe I started to scratch the inside of my nail just to get my mind in something I scratched and scratched eventually the bandage covering my whole arm had droplets of blood on it. Nurse Joy looked at me with an even deeper frown so did Brian. "Are you sure there is nothing going on?" Nurse joy asked me "No everything is fine." I lied still scratching the skin off of my fingers I closed my eyes trying to get some rest but the scene played over and over in my head 'Olivia?'
I called out to her. But then I heard her in her corner crying out. I quickly lost consciousness so I could interact with her. In the twisted space of my mind, I saw Olivia in a corner crying more importantly it was a 10-year-old version of my earth self. "Olivia!" I called out to her once again she responded by getting up sniffling in this dream world her tears couldn't just run out. I walked over to her and crisscrossed on her bed. "What's wrong?" I asked her softly "You-you're so so sad…" Her response shocked me. Do I really look so sad from her perspective? "Well, I'm fine now so you can stop," I said trying to push out the slightest smirk and failed. "NO! NO! No you're not!" "What do you mean?" "Before this happened even if you couldn't smile on the outside you always smiled on the inside when you saw your parents or Brian when you were curious about something hell even when you saw nurse Joy!" "But now you don't now you're just glaring and grasping at the broken shards of you're happiness!"
I was shocked beyond belief at her word but I knew she was right about everything she said. "Now you can't even sleep with terrible fatigue! Because you're not okay!!!" But I can't admit it. "But I am okay." I'm not okay. "I really am okay..." "And even if I wasn't what am I supposed to do bring her back to life?!!!" What am I supposed to do what! WHAT! WHAT! "You need to talk to somebody about your pain! Sometimes you're the all-powerful Sapphire that can beat anybody in battle but right now you're just a GIRL." "They wouldn't understand there is nobody for me to lean on my only friend is broken!" "Just like you!!!" "I am okay!" "No you're NOT!!! I can feel your never-ending guilt and pain you need to make it stop!!!" "I deserve it." "No, you don't!!!" I left out of the corner. I looked around at them the arguing had gone on for 10 minutes but it felt like hours. I felt warm drops of water coming down my face "I'm okay right?" "Of course you are." Brain said trying to comfort me. He stoppeded breathing clutching his chest sweat formed around his body he started hyperventilating.
A memory…
I fixed some things on the crescent moon mask chapter if you are reading this on August 18 or you read that chapter on the release date, please go back and check again!
It was time for lunch once again it had been 2 weeks since Brian and Kyla first met and it was becoming apparent they both liked each other but Sapphire wasn't the type to meddle in foolish endeavors so she let herself be the third wheel. But one day she finally asked, "So do you two like each other or what?" She asked insensitively they both blushed violently Kyla started waving her hands in front of her face trying to disappear and Brian just looked downwards "Oh, I'm sorry, lovebirds continue." Sapphire said while making the fakest pouting face ever. "Why why would you ask that?" Brian said in a trembling voice from his embarrassment. "I don't really understand why don't you just ask her out?" I whispered, "Because I'm afraid my family won't approve or that she's just after my money and looks." "I could tell you right now." But they were suddenly interrupted when they felt Kyla's eyes drilling holes in the sides of their faces. Oops, that's the thought Sapphire and Brian had in the same moment they quickly turned their heads away from each other and kept on eating and talking like nothing happened sapphire let out a sad sigh getting nowhere in trying to understand why they had such feelings for each other…
I started to panic my heart was racing and sweat was building up as I watched my friend have a panic attack. I still couldn't get out of bed, so it was up to Nurse joy to help him. "AAAGH!" He screamed while clutching his heart with his undamaged hand. I wish I could comfort him. Nurse joy held his face in her hands and hugged him slowly, relaxing he calmed down. "W- What was that?" Brian asked with a trembling voice, "A panic attack. What did you kids do?" I and Brian shared a look. He spoke first "We can't tell you or rather we won't." Brian said his voice was still weak and his chest still gasping in all the air he could get. "Difficulty breathing. Chest pain. Nausea." "Tell me now." "NO," I said seriously. "I know you went out for revenge, but against who? and I can tell from your wounds they seriously tried killing you." "So you must've had to kill them." "Yeah, and what if we went to kill them? What's your endgame?" I asked with an even more of a glare on my face. "You really don't trust anybody, do you?" She asked curiously "No it's gotten me this far and I won't lift it ever." "But let me ask you both. Did you kill them?"
We both shook our heads. "We retreated we're still alive, are we not?" Brian said, trying to muster up a smile of confidence like he used to but failed miserably. Just then the door creaked open and a dirty girl with green eyes and strawberry blonde hair with clear bruises limped in with a severe frown on her face, almost matching mine and Brian's. "Looks like we're not the only one having a terrible day," I commented with an aloof, uncaring voice. She shot us an icy glare and sat down. "Leona, I suspect they followed you to the bathroom this time?" Nurse Joy turned her chair around again. I remember getting the shit beat out of me in the bathroom in my past life. I cringed "What the fuck are you glaring at?" She said so feistily, she's got some fire in her spirit. "Leave them alone, they are having an unbelievably bad day." Nurse joy said truthfully we really were having a terrible day.
Leona…: They pushed me into a pile of unflushed crap those I'll kill them one day now I smell like feces! I was having some very violent thoughts walking in a stinking uniform. They bashed my head against the toilet and teamed up on me. I was a frequent visitor to this room. As a commoner with a PR of 11, I was almost the bottom of the barrel. I finally got inside the infirmary and looked at two people that were really injured: one beautiful girl and a handsome boy if they weren't so utterly beat up and tired, that's what I would've thought. "Loo The girl said as I was limping across the room the girl looked at me and cringed both of them with a perpetual glare on their faces "What are are you looking at?" "Leave them alone they are having an unbelievably bad day." Nurse joy said with a saddened sigh. I walked behind the curtains and Nurse Joy followed me through. The curtains were soundproof and all. So I took this opportunity to ask what happened to them. And why they looked so depressed no more than that they looked broken. "So what happened to those two?" I asked her as she sat down firmly. Nurse Joy's usually bright and happy eyes were bloodshot and tired. She put on a thinking face. After ten seconds, she finally answered. "Their friend died." I was flabbergasted how did I not hear of this? That was very serious and Nurse joy was right they were having an unbelievably bad day then.
Then Nurse joy pointed to the handsome boy. "You see him? He loved the girl who died, and she died in the worst way possible." My eyes were wide open in horror and shock, my mouth opened wide. "Then how did they get so injured?" I asked quickly, returning my glare. "I've been trying to figure that out myself." She said with a sigh. I took off my rank-smelling clothes and Nurse Joy studied my body. "Yeah, this is pretty bad you have a severe concussion it's a wonder how you're still standing right now. You also have multiple mediocre bruises around your torso and other places you cannot go back to class I'll write a note." She started healing me the procedure for my head took an hour and I was feeling very nauseous and plenty of pain after I understood why she told me I can't go back to class. I walked out to see the pair lying in the beds in a depressing silence. I had changed into a hospital gown and sat on my bed and meditated to distract myself from the pain. But before I even was a minute through I had to ask a question. "Why aren't you two meditating this is a perfect time to do so." "They both shifted their heads and glared at me. "We have our reasons." They said at the same time they didn't even react to the fact they said it perfectly. "Okay so why are you here?" I was hoping to get more of an answer out of them. "We got our asses beat."
The blonde one said deadpan the girl with blue eyes slightly turned over and cursed "Yeah but do you remember the other people we beat their asses even more." He slightly turned over and cursed too "Yeah but that wasn't the question." He said, "I was just saying." the girl said he basically shrugged with her voice. They were quite a strange pair. "Are you two a couple or something?" I asked curiously nurse Joy practically reeled in her chair with a strained face when I said that. Suddenly the atmosphere turned grim. The boy's face darkened like he was ready to kill someone. "No, we are not." The girl's face darkened so deep it felt like she was ready to choke the life out of me. What is wrong with those two. Nurse Joy got up quickly and grabbed my arm. I was practically dragged to the soundproof curtain. I was confused as to why they were so serious all of a sudden. "Why did you do that?" I asked shaking her arm off of me.