Rosa Willheimer 5 years old: the day the abuse started. I don't really remember anything before I was five, but I know that I had a biological mother. And she kept hitting me and causing me pain. I didn't understand why this kept happening. Rosa Willheimer 7 years: I get hit like this over and over belt buckle after belt buckle. I just want it to end. It never ends and I want to get out, but I can't. I started school a year ago. I have one friend at school. Her name is Olivia, and she is so strong. When I am being bullied for being frail, she stands up for me as my ray of hope. Also, this bullied or talked about for being brown. I never asked what happened to my father at home, but I know that he is no longer in my life, and if he is still alive, he doesn't deserve to be in my life. I'm all alone in this world. This was the revelation I had at just ten years old. Olivia is constantly telling me to be more open about my feelings and my life but I'm not nearly as brave as her, I am very afraid she will leave me if I open up to her. Maybe she will think I'm gross because I am poor. One day Olivia kept pestering me about her upcoming sleepover birthday party and I finally said I was coming to the sleepover.
Today is July 15, 2010, the day life got worse. Today I was thrown out of bed with a THUMP and hurt my head terribly as usual. My mom doesn't even look at me In the eyes but I'm not going to let today be a bad day
And as I walked in there, I didn't know what was going on. Why did it smell pleasant? Was there no one waiting to beat Olivia or me up? As her parents welcomed me in, I flinched. I can't let any grown-ups too close. They will beat me. But they never did. They just looked at me strangely. Like I WAS ABNORMAL, but as I sat down, I realized they weren't looking at me strangely. They were looking at the bruises, the scars, all the things from my mom. They looked at my overgrown hair that was only washed but never taken care of. And they paused. And just looked with pity after that we ate cake and had fun! And I had a good night's sleep for the first time. I woke up, but not to another head injury and a sore back. But the sweet smell of ... what is that smell?
I walked over to the kitchen. M, and Olivia's parents were cooking pancakes! I had seen them on tv before but never got to smell or taste them. Olivia's father looked over and said, early riser, aren't you I quietly said yes? When the rest of Olivia's family got upI got to eat pancakes and I started crying. I was crying tears of joy? For the first time, I ate breakfast and not just free meals at the school and ramen for dinner. "What's wrong"? Olivia's parents said "nothing nothing at all". After that, I went home to a cracked floor with no breakfast, and a person waiting to beat me. When I got in, Mother said, "where were you? I depend on you for child support from your father"! As she kicked me on the ground, I coughed and got back up. "I was at my friend Olivia's house for a sleepover"!
After the worst beating of my life, I had scars and bruises all over the place, but not where anyone could see.. My mother locked me up in my room for two days with nothing but water as "punishment" it was torture I just wanted someone to help me get out of here and be free. Scratch that, I will forever be alone in this world. I can only help myself. Karen Willheimer 13 years old: life has just been getting harder and harder. Mother beats me day after day after day. I am bullied at this new school and even from time to time. I can't do anything but help myself get through this torture I call life. There is nothing to live for. Maybe I should just end it all 16 years old: I have never had a boyfriend nor have I ever had the first kiss my mother locks me out of the house when I am later than 4:30 pm getting home and I just need to help myself. No one else will. I am walking home from another day of being bullied outright embarrassed. Where are the teachers you might be? Ask They are just sitting there watching me be tortured at school day in and day out. Then I found a ray of hope in a person who talked and looked at me as if I was a normal person he approached me at lunch she noticed I was all alone and I just sat there wondering what kind of pain would I be put through this time would I be embarrassed would she pour her tray over me? But she walked over despite my expectations and said hi my name is Carrie. What's yours?
"Rosa," I said in my usually quiet voice. This girl was quite loud and energetic but soon enough she kept coming over during lunch and during breaks and over those 2 months we bonded and eventually, she became my one and only friend and I decided to confide in her and tell her about how I was poor and needed financial help. And I looked down at her hand and she was recording with her phone. She then posted it on her other friend's group chat and they screenshotted it and shared it, and that's when. They called me stinky and poor and disgusting and now it wasn't just my class bullying and torturing me... it was the whole school.
Rosa Willheimer, 24 years old: I moved out 6 years ago! Life is somewhat better I have a small 3 room apartment a bathroom a bedroom and a kitchen I have a boyfriend now we have only been dating for a few 4 months. Today since it is the anniversary of my moving away from my mother, I decided to go to the movies with my boyfriend and we watched scarface. but on my way back from the movies with my boyfriend heading to the hotel all of a sudden he stopped the car and said. "Sorry, babe, I have to pay off my debt. " Another car pulled up to where we are and two men stepped out. And grabbed me from the car. "STOP"! "STOP" "STOP" as they lifted my feet in the car I kicked one of them and ran out into the street and that is when... To be continued
The people on the side of the road that were trying to kidnap me got in the car SCREEE THUMP. Everything went black. Oh, maybe not so black. There is a light. Hum, what exactly is that light kinda in a diamond? Shape, oh oh, I'm. moving wait... how am I moving? I thought I was dead then all of a sudden I hear a voice the most annoying voice I have ever heard yelled in my brain "Congrats on your second life this is only reserved for people with the top 1 billion worst lives on earth you should probably hurry up and ask for something from me you're being born"."Okay Okay so right to the point", "Ummm" I said then that annoying voice said "OH MY HURRY UP I DO NOT WANT TO BE HERE ALL DAY I HAVE OTHER THINGS TO DO" "I will just grant you your only wish since you're so slow " The annoying voice said. " Wait, isn't this important SLOW DOWN? " And then he was gone. As the diamond-like shape came closer, it got brighter and brighter. Then cold air hit me. My eyes felt terrible as I had just seen the light. Who is this lady?? where am I? Okay calm down Karen. First, he said you were being born, so I must have gotten reincarnated after I died. "
Wait, how did I die right? The boyfriend scratch that tried to hand me over and those guys tried to kidnap me and as I ran into the street, I got hit by the car my boyfriend was driving." Am I being held by that lady? I can't turn my head. Why? and what is all that gibberish this lady is speaking? It doesn't sound like a language keeps thinking, Rosa, I must be in a different world because something's up, but I don't know what. Amelia selain (Rosa's new mother):,"What is going on"!?,"why isn't she crying? I heard that means their windpipe is blocked or something"! I said, as I am very worried about my firstborn child.,"She is fine, ma'am," the doctor said. She used her healing power to examine my little girl's body.
Rosa Willheimer (reincarnated): Breath in and out, Rosa in and out my I need to collect my thoughts. BUT HOLY DID SHE JUST USE A SUPERPOWER. "yes but no" "oh my god, what was that voice" I thought it was a female voice that sounded quiet, just like me back when I was much younger. 'I know what I am. I am just an accumulation of you over the years. (inner dialogue will not have the mysterious voice in quotations due to the fact they are speaking in Rosa's mind) 'Oh well, that was incredibly vague, so am I hallucinating? I said'. 'No, you aren't let me give you a more accurate description of what I am the voice said 'I am the wish that you made every time you were being beaten by your mother or being bullied at school that you wish you weren't so alone. SO from your memories, I came to fruition when you were reincarnated. 'Oh, yeah, that's right. That annoying voice said he would fulfill my only wish. 'But I'm only just now realizing how lonely my life is, as if my only wish was to not be so alone'. ' Where is she taking me? I'm confused about what's going on? 'I don't know. I am as clueless as you to what's going on the voice said as the lady grabbed something from the table. I noticed it was scissors, and she cut the string from my belly and right then I cried. I am stressed and that hurt quite a lot. Then she bundles me up and hands me over to my mother. Then I heard a man's voice saying,
"Such beautiful bright blue eyes". Amelia selain (Rosa's new mother) I finally was holding my sweet baby. She had the sweetest, most beautiful bright blue eyes but something was off, it was almost as if she was staring into my soul. Rosa Willheimer (reincarnated): The woman I was looking at was beautiful and had the warmest smile on her face I could not help but just stare. No person had ever looked at me like that before with unconditional Love but what is love? I can't remember. 'More like you never knew what it was in the first place. Whatever you call love is twisted. Your boyfriend never showed you unconditional. Love, he was just using you since you didn't know the correct definition'. (all of these conversations with the voice are never going on for any more than 5 seconds) ' So how would you know what it is? You're just the accumulation of my wishes and my memories'.' Actually I am more than that