There is a full breath held between us as Elian waits for my response and I look at him, scared to reply yet needing to.
"Elian."
"Tell me."
"I…" I let out a frustrated breath, "I can't."
Elian's face falls immediately upon hearing that.
"What? What do you mean by you can't?"
"I…I just can't. That's how it is. I am sorry."
"Why don't you want to make this work? I mean, you are already in. You can't possibly be pulling us into a marriage that's doomed to exist from the very beginning. Trust me, I didn't have hopes for it either but now, you make me think different. You make me think that that would be possible. Tell me, what do you say? We are going to have a baby together."
