Chapter 84 - 84. Helpless

"I never had aspirations to marry actually. When I was young, the place where I am from, they didn't allow me to marry who I like. So I let go of all thoughts to attaining a happily ever after. Can you believe it? I am married now. Can you? And my mother didn't believe in my orientation. She thought I would go back to the straight path but hey the straight path is boring, isn't it? It has been trudged on my millions of dirty feet and wait, I don't mean that mine are not dirty. I just want to put my dirty feet in the right place before I leave a mark. Marks left by people in this world are conventional and it's hard to stand out in such saturation but I had hoped for only a little. That even if it's just my mother recognizing me and accepting of who I am, I believe I wouldn't have run away. Maybe I wouldn't have dated someone like Liam and ended up in this situation, do you get me? It's hard, I know that sometimes but I know I just have to power through it with my will."