After he left me standing there on my own, i thought that maybe a drink can help me forget that I even have feelings for him. They heavier the drink the better you forget of the problems and things thats shitty in life.
By 11pm I'm wasted. Not realising my brother and the goons have been watching as I got drunk like anyone my age. Jason's eyes following me more than he would like to admit and for me to even notice. This was probably just in a brotherly way as that's what it always has been.
Dancing with a guy who's name I have forgotten, I look over to were Jason was standing. Talking to a girl. He's probably chatting her up so he can take her to bed. Feeling my heart ache and burn, wishing it was me standing with him. Turning back towards the guy im dancing with, I feel the urge to kiss him to get rid of him, the memories and all the girls he was with.
Taking a peak in his direction and seeing that he is doing the same, I crash my lips with the guy. The kiss lasting longer than I expected as the guy gets eager and wants to keep it up. Pulling away at last, he is smiling brightly. I'm feeling sick I thought to myself. Excusing myself from the guy and making my way to the bathroom as quickly as possible.
Opening the first bathroom expecting it to be empty, but finding two people nearly having sex. Up to the other bathroom. Take 2 steps at a time up the stairs. Opening the door and finding lucky no one. Closing the door behind me, and making my way towards the toilet ready to throw my guts up.
Hearing the door open and close, I think it's probably Allison or someone who thought the bathroom was empty. "M? Are you okay? Here let me help you." the voice of Jason said. Pulling my hair up so it isn't in the way and rubbing my back as in to comfort me. After the few embarrassing moments I'm sitting straight up and wiping my mouth. "What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be at Jake's side or banging a bimbo by now?" I asked him.
Looking me in the eyes, laughing lightly. "You sure are a peace of work M. And here I was thinking you'd be thanking me for the help." he said as he smirked. Not understanding what he is doing here, I frown and look away from him. "Mace, what's wrong?" worry filled in his tone. My vision is blurry with the tears daring to slip. I look up at him. "You tell me Jace. What do you think is wrong huh? Why are you even here. You should be out there having a blast, but you're here with me. Why did you guys come to the party were you all actually knew i would be? Are you guys following my every move or is it just me seeing things? "I nearly yelled at him.
" Macey, why are you being like this. You know Jake wants to protect you and that is what I'm trying to do. To protect you. Why can't you understand this? I'm in here with you, because I care, because I don't want to see you hurt of the fact that they guy you were dancing with is bleeding in the back of Allison's yard. He was trying to get in you're pants and he was going to follow you to this bathroom, cuz he thought he could get with you." he raised his voice at me.
Tears slipping down my cheeks. I dare to look him in the eyes." So I'm just a project to you. Jake's little sister that you have to protect, because he told you so, because I can't do it myself? Is that what you're trying to say, because to me it seems like that." i yelled back at him. Turning he raised his fist hitting the mirror to my side. Shattering into pieces, some cutting into my bare legs.
Scared for my life I move away from him. Maybe he would hit me like dad did years ago. He must have saw the fear in my eyes,because his eyes have grown big and his mouth open as if he was about to say something. He didn't, it close like a fish's mouth. The drunken state long gone and i was now sober enough too realize that I was now scared of Jason. "Mace, fuck I'm sorry. I.. I didn't mean to scare you. Please just believe me, I could never hurt you." he stuttered out. When he realized I was not responding, he started panicking, saying my name over and over and over again.
"Mace, come on. Please say something. Even if it is just too yell at me." he whispered to me. I looked him in the eyes and back to the floor. My tears had started to finally spill out my eyes. I grabbed onto Jase to stable myself. Memories of my dad flashing through my eyes. The tears didn't seem to stop, as I felt the glass in legs and the pain of my past. "Jason, please just make it stop. It hurts so bad. I.. Jase, please. We're is Jack. I.. I need Jake." I said through my hiccups.
He stood frozen for a few seconds, before he sprang ito action. " Yeah, yeah. Of course I go get him for you Mace. Just let me - "he tried to finish." No, no. Jase please just-just stay please. I don't wanna be alone right now. " I spoke softly to him. He just nodded his head, pulled out his phone and dailed Jake's number. After the second ring Jake picked up. Before he could get a word in Jason already told him what happened and were to find us. Tears still slipping out of my eyes, I look up into Jason's eyes, about to say something, but I didn't know what to say. Our eyes still locked, he leaned down towards me and kissed my lips. They felt so soft, warm and like home. The kiss was interrupted by Jake yelling my name asking if he could come in.