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This whole week I have been a little off. I mean, I had let Makai do 'that' while we were at the community pool. How could I have lost control like that and let that happen? I had enjoyed it, that wasn't in question here, but I shouldn't have done it. And, then there is the fact that Makai looked so pleased when he didn't have anything done to him.
Did I want to do something to Makai, though? I mean, I have never done that with a guy. Well, to be fair I hadn't done anything with a girl either. That night had been as close to sex with someone that I had ever gotten. It was exhilarating and really good. I didn't know just masturbating could be so good.
I think that, in truth, I wanted to see what things might be like with Makai. I want to try them more than I ever wanted to try them with the skank I used to be with. So, I mean, I guess that says a lot about me, and what I really want.
