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Ben
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Ocean and Kai had bought me and Ryan a trip for the weekend. We had one night at the house where we were alone. That had been when Kai's parents left for the trial for Brittney. They told us when they were leaving, but they didn't tell us when they were coming back.
That night, we were alone. Only we didn't do anything to take advantage of that time that it was just the two of us. I think that we were both just too nervous as well. Neither of us knew how to be alone together in that way.
I wanted to be alone with Ryan. I wanted to be with him in that way. I have wanted it for a long time. I have been in love with him for so long that it was all that I thought about for the longest time. Now, though, neither of us knew how to be together. Neither of us have been with another man before. Hell, we hadn't even been with a woman before. And that, right there, was causing half of the problem.
