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Ocean
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I had already had at least eighteen beers by the time that I realized Makai made me nervous. It was probably the alcohol calming me down that made it easier to think and understand it all.
That didn't mean that I knew what I was going to do about it though. I wanted to be able to swim at my best when the guy was around me but that wasn't likely to happen anytime soon. I wanted to be able to not hate when my team all sat together at lunch. I wanted to join in with them all when they laughed and joked. I wanted to get back to my happy and carefree life I used to have.
This was senior year for crying out loud. It's supposed to be the best time of my life. I was supposed to be having fun, making memories, going to parties. Instead here I was wallowing in my own self pity. This needed to stop as well. I needed to be a man about it and stop moping.
