Previous chapter : After dreaming about his father and wandering about his dreams, Ryan suddenly black outs.People at the funeral helps him but Ryan was totally senseless and numb who gets lost in his dark world.
This is what happened to me after I passed out :
I wake up in a strange place . Opening my eyes, all I see is white colour all surrounded. Everything was white. I try to stand up but I couldn't. A heavy weight try to push me down every time I try to stand. Then at sudden, I hear a voice calling me. A male high pitch voice calling my name "Ryan , Are you hearing me. My name is white. "
Ryan : Yes, Who are you? Where am I? Why am I here? I was in funeral. How did I reached here.
White : I am white. I am the god. You are dead. Now ,you belong to me.
Ryan(Shivering in fear): What ? What do you mean I am dead? I have to go . I cannot die this soon. You are lying.
White: Yes , you are dead.
Ryan tries to talk but he can't . Everytime he tries to talk he felt like something is controlling him and stopping him to open his mouth.
White: You can't talk until I give you permission. Now, listen me. I am god of everything. You believe that red is your god but it isn't. I am the god. You should follow me. Keep faith in me. But you didn't. You always followed red. If you had followed me I could have took you to the heaven. But you don't deserve it. You always followed red as your god. So, hell is the only place you belong. You will be sent in a brutal place where you will face your punishment and later you will be faded like you are nothing but a devil. If you had followed me in your life , heven would have been opened for you.Tell me what you want to say. I will give you a little time. Then you will be sent to hell soon.
Ryan crying out loudly(This time he could open his mouth): No. No . Noooo . This can't be.You are god . Ok I believe you.
White: You cannot give your reasons now. You should have followed me when you got that life. Now you're dead. This is place for me to judge your life.
Ryan(Full of fear): But I always believed in red. I was born in country of red. I heard about he whites. But what can I do , I cannot change my decision. If I was born in red family. If I was born I red country, how could I follow white. Why was I born in red country if the real god is white. I that all my life I believed in red was worthless. Did I followed red, that red god that never existed. Was I fooled by my country. I believed in red, kept my faith in red . Was that all meaningless. Our life in the world is for realization of god. And all I did was believing a fake god. That means many people born in our world are believing in fake gods except the white ones. Please forgive me god. I will be your best. Please give me a chance of showing my faith in you. I will belive in white from today. To be born in my religion is not my fault. Now, I see who the real god is. Now I realize god's true image.Please let me be in heaven with you. I always prayed to red for this day but from now I will believe to white. I worked very hard for red colour but now I will do everything for you . I don' t want to get punished. I am full of fear now . Please forgive all my sins that I did by following that red color. Now ,I realize that I should have tried to find the true god insted of following that fake gods in my life. That 20 years of God believing fake God was nothing . Now I have infinity of life to that I will be punished in hell. I am still so small and feel that I cannot face hell. I am so scared,I don't know what to do. Now, I know that my life, I always wanted happiness. But what is the point of happiness if you don't believe in right god. I could be happy for only some years. But I now realize that after my death I will have infinity years that I should now face in hell. God, please forgive me, god. And......
I try to talk but again something tries to stop me.
White : Yes you know who is the real one.Many people like you waste their time and end up like you. Hell is the only playe for people like you. You all think that life is easy and live trusting blindly to anyone. You don't try to find yourself and what is the reality. Only the true ones will find me and come with me in heaven. Now its too late Ryan. You will live your infinite life in hell struggling for what you did. Death is the end of your life. You lived for 20 years and didn't even thought about that infinite life after your death. I don't know about your any complaints and now I will send you to hell.
Ryan gets wet with flood of sweat. Something circle dark door opens behind him and pulls him towards it .
Ryan full of fear like worst of everything
Opens his eyes . Wakes up in his bed with his mother in front of him.
Rayan : Was it all dream after that funeral. This dream was dreadful. But there are many questions that I should find. I cannot trust anyone from now. Just before in the funeral I realized my responsibilities to my religion and my mother. Now I am confused,
He said to himself slowly "World is a very big place where it is very easy to trust someone but I have a very small soul that gets easily broken."