Chapter One: I swear if you don't get up I won't make you coffee

"Nicky I swear if you don't get up, I won't make you coffee!" Screams my roommate and best friend Sage.

"I'm up!" I call out as I slowly get out my bed and walk in the living room. I see on our clock it's six in the morning. It's to early for this.

"It's too early for this shit Sage!" I call out as I walk into the kitchen and pour myself a cup of coffee. While I am pouring a cup of coffee my cats: Little Bit and Spike are all around me and begging me for their treats.

"You meow meows want some treats?" I ask them.

Little answers back with a whiny: "Meow!"

I get the needy cats their treats. I slowly walk in the living room with my cup of coffee in my hand. I sit on our leather couch that my parents bought us.

Sage is sitting across from me. She has her long blonde hair in a messy bun. She has an Ed Sheeran t-shirt on and Hello Kitty pj pants on.

"Ready for your first day as a sophomore in college?" She asks me as she takes a sip of her coffee.

"Yeah, just nervous." I sigh. I notice how my hand is shaking really bad. I try to take a deep breathe but I am still shaking. Shit anxiety.

"You are going to do great." She smiles at me.

"Did you eat breakfast?" Sage questioned me.

"Yes." I lied.

"Good." She smiles.

She believes me, for now.

"You ready for your first day at your new job and for college?" I ask her.

Sage works as a waitress by day but by night she is an actress. A pretty damn good one at that. She auditioned for the musical: "Alice In Wonderland," and she got the role of Alice. I am very proud of her. Sage is happy to but she just wishes she could be the star of a movie or tv show. But I encouraged her that doing plays will help me build up her career so she can get the roles in movies and tv shows.

"Yeah I am." She smiles back at me.

I smile back at her.

"Okay I am going to get ready." Sage gets up and walk to her room.

I get up and get dressed.

It's fall in Arkansas (like we have a fall in Arkansas, so it's still so fucking hot outside) so I decide to wear a short red dress with v-shape neckline. I put on a black belt on my waistline. I am wearing black flats that are comfy.

For my hair I brush and curl my long brown hair with bangs. For my makeup I go with foundation that hides my freckles, a black smokey eyeshadow, eyeliner, and light pink blush.

"How do I look Little and Spike?" I ask my cats.

"Worthless. Ugly. Fat. Pig." My thought race and I notice now my legs are shaking.

"Stop." I say out loud to try to stop my thoughts from racing.

"Let's do this."

I get in my Silver Ford Edge (aka car) and drive while listening to Ed Sheeran.

Time for a new semester in college!

Here goes nothing!

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