I don't understand how depression work. I never understand how a certain pain would be enough to kill somebody. How did I became iritated and tired of everything? I remember I told myselft that I will make myself happier when I reach the life of an adults,
Later that day, when I was 15 my smile had dissappear just as my shadow shield behind the sink. I cried in silence, that it hurt so much because the sounds that was kept inside.
I learn to cooperate with my own feelings, every time I speak, they never believe me, when I prefered lies since that the only thing that brings their attention, though sometimes I dwell a certain truth within,- they assumed they were jokes.
Do gossips and misery more appealing? They think of me as a nuisance when I said, I have two lives inside me, they entitled me attention seeker,- "are you telling me you're pregnant?"
so I never mention that I was sick, I was planning to suicide the day I die so that my body wouldn't trouble anyone.
How could my own family that cared, expolded the entire house to kill me? Annie Marie, a child they used to adored? when I will be die by my own 2 months afterwards? - Now I know money is lover to those pitiful humans.
"promise me we will die not because of ourselves, okay?" I still remember during spring, a close friend of mine video calling me through whatsapp, I really liked her smile although they were developed through despair, we're similar to each other that I made a joke telling her we might be a twin in the past, so now god directed a path for us to be together again.
I loved spring, yet she didn't, just like tinker bell and her sister- Donna grabbed my hand and stroke my fingertips with a bitterly expression,
"Can we just... go?" Then I looked at her curiously,
"what do you mean?" I prented not to understand. She did grasp my skin, but it was on my wrist, yes Donna once slit her own wrist to kill herself.
"It will be very quiet once I gone, you know what, they blamed me again," she started to cry without looking at me. I know she's in pain, so did I.
"what happened?" I asked Donna.
"you know my niece?" I nodded.
"My sister told me to keep an eye on her, I tried to. Annie my minds are scattering to much that I cannot breath, but I still do my best to do what I ask, It was a split second... my head hurts, shiled my eyes since the sun hurting my eyes" I lisetened to her carefully because I wanted to help, she was cold when I held her hand,
"you know I can't see clearly with to much sun right?" she paused.
"yes" I answered.
"she- I pulled her from a car that was about to hit her because she tried to run towards her mother which at the opposite road, Who fucking call their child when there's a fucking hell of cars on the road Annie?! she's at fault! basically she tried to blamed me for outrageous thing she wants! take the money I don't care she the heir why she do this to me Annie?" Donna burst into tear with cast on left arm, I didn't tell her one of my specialty to differ into someone's grief,
So I never told her how I know how she got hurt, "come-" Donna came into my arms, she was 3 years older than me but she was so sweet.
"let's die together" She begged.
"I don't want to" I laughed.
"But It hurt so much," Donna once said about something I really cannot get a hang to it,
"My soul won't leave me no matter how I try to leaf this world, I tried" There's odd thing about Donna, she seemed like a soft girl but I could sense the bloodthirst whenever I come near, she a menancing glance when we first met,
She isn't on the list in inheriting her parents fortune, but she can get what ever she wants while being jobless, I thought it was something a commoner like me will never know.
"I want to bring you to my world, But I'm afraid you won't be able to return" One night she video calling me, just to show how she would leave this world.
I saw her dying, I tapped on her residence bell while losing my mind, It was 2 in the morning.
No one dared to opened the gate, half an hour later, I saw her walked to the gates with bruised on her cheek, her cothes stained with blood,
I reached for her fingers between the gates shouting out for her name, shamely what I saw was a spirit.
I cried all night long only to find out she's still alive the next morning and inviting me to have a breakfast at McDonald.
"what?" I hugged her with no intentions of letting go.
"I can't die just yet" she said.
"so don't worry" Donna is my family, only if we are meant for each other, sisters or not, if she born as a man, I'll definitely married her.
"Sorry I left you" maybe this life given to me as opportunity to be happy, can I help those who needed help that nobody care for? Can I be the saviour that I wanted for myself when I was In my modern world? Donna thank you for those time we spend together.
"tell me your problem Russell, I will something in my power to help" Annie Climbed down the rock and tapped on Russell's back.
Katara and her father were speechless, so both didn't answer quickly.
"Sir!!" Katara stand up and grabbed his hands. Annie stroked her hair, this must be Donna's ancestor she's pretty.
"Owh I'm so happy for you to be here I, we never expected help from people like you. My father and I had tried everything to free us from this grief, we went to the capital but knights blocked our entry.. we asked for help from any nobles we saw, beggging for help they.. they" Katara fall on her kness shaking due to her wobbling knees. She still wouldn't let go of Annie's hand.
The villagers were rejoiced to hear his decision, every one of them rushed to hug him. But then, Russell reminded them something about the plague.
Therefore, they distancing themselves from Annie. But the smiles and hope still written on their faces.
It happened 8 months ago, the villagers were surprised by a sudden corpse of a young lady. At first they thought, the heinous act was due to her parents breaking off her enggement with a man who came from a far land.
They tried to find her lover to questioned him and to justify him for the crime since they didn't know whether he's the real criminal.
On the verge of capturing him, the man called Alexis was found death on the same place she died.
They found several notes which sew in every of his belonging. His actions was described to be scared of something that he left countless informations about the death girl's case. As if he knew he's going to die.
Every months, the same murder takes place on the same place and the same day. Just as they figured a way to catch the wrong doer and finding the cause,
It wasn't the outcome they expected for, it wasn't done by a single person, it was in a group. The hardest part was that, they never caught in the act,
Assuming the group did the killing just for fun, however Katara had encountered two people that believed to be one of them, they leaved her unharmed.
When Russell and his son reported this to the queen, she never made any move to help them.
The cause was, the villagers wasn't bound to her reign, even though they in the same region. Because Russell refused to perform a sacrifing ritual to pleased the queen,
"She asked for a stupid thing, how could we sacrifice our young generation for nothing? this land weren't barren at all how come she concluded the same solution for all regions?"
Russell was the one doing all the explanations.
While for Annie, she felt a bit released from the tension of being the queen they're talking about, Annie grabbed the mask on his hips.
Luckily, he wore a different outfit today.
"so you requested help from nobles thinking they would help you?" Russell nodded to Annie.
"well, it's a shame. The queen had left you, and your people, if you were them, would you bare the consequences in helping those angered the queen? This all is a part of business, the ritual as well" How childish the woman can be? Annie saught for the previous soul that lived inside this body, I bet she's a business woman in her other live, a tyrant one who will do anything for money? How old is she?
Do the previous souls had different genders? same ages? as far as I know all of us are girls, maybe they did a mistake with this body. Did he killed witnessing some crime?
Is this case related to Adam's village? "but, what does this have things to do with the stuff you do at the river? And your son what happened to him?" Russell told Annie that, it wasn't only his son who suffer from the sickness, all of the villagers are dying from anonymous plaque 2 months after the murdering takes place.
"the plague is caused by the corpes from the victims. We're the one whose buried them, it all start with a simple flue from those who did the burial, unfortunately they die as well,"
"But the sickness wasn't repelled?" Katara agreed to him.
"weird indeed, I did glimpse into this body memories but not all of it, I don't recalled her charging a group of murderers" He mumbled.