Back in 1982 first night after the funeral at Helen's home who passed away from a car crash, there wasn't anyone to cheer Donna up.
She was to spend that night in her Mother's house alone because nobody was close to her Mother, Helen was considered as an emotionless and hostile person, but she was just shy and peaceful.
Helen's twin Brother Daniel got shocked and fell into coma, so his Wife Dorothy and the two sons Martin and Robert were staying at Kentfield San Francisco Hospital, besides that, Dorothy tried to talk to Donna on phone even if she was afraid that her beloved husband was close to death.
Helen's home was a black wooden house with too much mirrors inside, black was her favourite color! because her whole life was dark and that's where she found strength to live after she has been rapped.
She was rich even than her twin Daniel, but nobody realized it, she didn't want to show how rich she was. people were not nice to her, she was kinda different from her generation, so Dorothy and Daniel were only her closest friends.
Her daughter grew up in that situation, she never had friends till twenty years old.
Donna was scared, staying in the black wooden house alone, she was holding Family's picture frame while crying, she looked at her Mother;
Mommy, why did you raise me like this? no friend no pet and now you're gone, How Am i going to live like this? you tried to teach me how to find strength in the dark, right? i wasn't even stronger before, hope you will never cry over my cowardliness, i can't do it without you and now i don't know what to do, but all i want to say to you now is -sorry for ruining your life.-
Donna slept on the floor in the black dress while holding the picture, the next day, Friday morning, she received a call from Dorothy, she took a taxi without taking a shower and met with Dorothy at Tadich Grill restaurant,
But refused to drink or eat anything;
Donna, I'm begging you please, eat something, i just left Martin and Robert for taking care of you, tell me, what do you want me to do? i can do anything for you but please i want you to eat, don't think I stopped loving you because your Mother is gone, and i didn't love you because of your uncle.
"Okay 2nd Mommy, but I'm not going to eat too much."
so she ordered lettuce with sliced avocado salad, Dorothy ordered mixed greens salad, Donna tried to smile but when she started to smile, she bursted into tears, Dorothy didn't know what to do, except hugging her warmly.
She bursted into tears too;
I'm worried about you i was trying to cheer you up, i know i can't do better than Helen, and i know it's gonna be hard for you to live without her, but i promise i will try to be the best Mother to you, even if Daniel may leave us, i won't change.
Let's finish our salad, i need to go back to hospital, Martin and Robert might got mad, i guess they are starving, you need to go back home and rest enough, but promise me that you're not going to cry again. "Okay 2nd Mommy, i'll take a nap and make a research about classical dance schools.
Before Mommy passed away, i was planning to join a ballet dance school, i want to be competitive internationally." Dorothy went back to the hospital and Donna went back home, she took a nap.
Mom, where have you been? why did you leave us in this horrible situation? "boys you need to calm down, i know you're starving, but i brought something with me, guess what is it?" 'is it spaghetti?' "You're right love, i bought spaghetti and burgers, i met your cousin and we ate salad."
I wanted to cheer her up,
she's lonely and sad, i need to take care of her as my own daughter. any news from doctors? "No we've been boring, nothing new, i'm really worried about dad"
Robert was angry and quiet.
Love, aren't you going to eat? aren't you hungry? hope you didn't get mad at me okay? I'm sorry, i won't leave you again, okay? eat your favourite spaghetti.
Then Robert started to eat but didn't finish his food; Robert, what's matter? he started to cry; son are you alright? Does your stomach hurts? 'No, i miss my Father, why isn't he waking up? he's taking too long I'm scared.' love, don't worry much, all we need is to pray for your Father, he's still in shock of his twin's death, but he will wake soon.
On Saturday, Donna went on a field trip for ballet dance school research and spent all day searching but didn't get any result, she got tired, she went back home, before taking a nap, she received a call from Dorothy.
Donna, your Uncle is out of coma, we are very happy he remembers everything but, he want to visit your Mommy's grave, and he isn't allowed to go out of the hospital, he's sad! when are you coming? "maybe when he is happy, after he visited the grave."
Donna was happy, besides that, she was preparing to start a new life, living her dreams.
On Sunday, she went back on a field trip in different U.S.A cities and stayed in different hotels, She came back on Thursday, still didn't find anything, she made a plan B and started to train herself using television, but it wasn't easy for her, everytime she started to dance, all in her head was her Mother, she couldn't focus on her trainings,She went to visit her Mommy's grave;
Mom, I'm trying to follow my dreams but, i think i can't do it anymore, Here's your hopeless Donna, your Daughter, I'm sorry don't get mad at me, don't worry about me!