' Subconsciously avoid it?' Su Wan had never once tried to avoid the matter of having a child that was what she always thought but now that Lin Yan was saying the same thing. Su Wan couldn't help but think back to what she has been doing till now, did she really avoid the topic altogether? Maybe she did because she had no confidence that she would be able to raise a child sensibly. Her mother's suicide had left a very deep scar and even if she knew that she was nothing like that woman what if she became like her? After all, in the beginning, her mother was also a kind and loving mother.