SING FOR YOU
Chapter 1
Nilunod ko ang sarili ko sa alak. Hindi mabura bura sa utak ko kung paano niya iyakan ang lalakeng yon. That guy know nothing but to break her heart.
"Ano ba kasi talagang balak mo?" Tanong ni Kit. Sa totoo lang ay wala akong balak. I don't care if the same situation kept on happening. Wala akong pake kahit ilang beses pa akong paulit ulit na masaktan. Wala na rin akong pake kung mamatay na ako sa alak para lang kahit papaano ay mawala ang sakit sa tuwing nasasaktan ako sakanya.
I only care for that woman I don't care about anything or anyone else.
"I'll stay by her side, always." Sagot ko. Yun lang naman kasi ang magagawa ko, ang hindi umalis sa tabi niya. Sa mga panahong nahihirapan siya, ang damayan at alagaan siya ay naging trabaho ko na.
"I understand why you are so inlove with her, ang hindi ko maintindihan ay kung bakit ayaw mong kumilos." kung kikilos ba ako ay may mangyayari? I don't wanna ruin what we have, this is better than nothing. Sa ganitong paraan, sigurado akong hindi siya mawawala.
Uminom lang ako ng uminom hanggang sa hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang bote na ba ang naubos ko. This is always the set up, when she's in pain, expect me to drown myself until I lost control of what I am doing.
Tumayo ako nang may makita akong pamilyar na imahe. I am not mistaken, it's him. Without hesitation ay sinugod ko siya. The nerve of this guy. He can't just have fun when Allison is in her place, crying herself to sleep.
Inambangan ko siya ng suntok, he was quick to fight back but when he saw who am i, he automatically stop. "Ano ba?!" and I hate it more that he is acting innocent of my sudden attack.
"Didn't I told you that one tear cause this much?" Muli ay sinuntok ko siya. Hindi na siya lumaban but I didn't stop. Kung hindi lang dumating si kit at ang mga bouncer ay baka mapatay ko na siya.
Maybe i am really getting insane but i can kill anyone for her, if it is for her.
"Did sh-" But I didn't let him talk, bagkos ay sinipa ko siya gamit ang paa ko. Hindi ko maintindihan kung anong meron siya at nagagawa niyang saktan ng ganon si Allison.
"Tangina pare tama na." Sabi ni kit. I am not yet satisfied, i want more pero nag paawat na rin ako nang makitang bagsak na siya sa kalsada.
Nasapo ko ang ulo ko pag gising ko. Parang bibiyakin ang ulo ko sa sobrang sakit.
"Gumising ka na diyan darating na si Allison!" Rinig kong sigaw mula sa labas ng kwarto ko. Ilang minuto lang at tumayo na ako para maligo. Muntikan pa akong matumba dahil sa damit na naka kalat sa daan papunta sa banyo ng kwarto ko.
My head hurt so bad, shit.
Paglabas ko ay naabutan ko sila sa sala. "Ang aga niyo." Reklamo ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong naisipan ko at na-irekomenda ko pa ang unit ko.
"Balita ko nanuntok ka daw ha?" Tanong ni Enzo. I smirk when i remember how helpless he look last night, he deserve that. Every inch of every punch, the blood on the side of his lips, actually, he deserves more.
"Nadali mo ba?" sabay sabay kaming napatingin kay sky. Did he just asked that question? "What? Kayo lang ba ang pwedeng magalit?" he asked.
"He did, bagsak ang gago." Sabi naman ni kit. If they didnt stop me, i will do more, baka nasa ospitsl na yon.
Asher sigh, unlike everyone, seryoso ang mukha niya. "Aren't you scared? Panay ang pagsugod mo sa kanya. Paano kung sabihin ka niya kay Allison? Paano kung sabihin niya ang nararamdaman mo? Are you prepared? You can't even bring yourself to confess to her. "
Ilang ulit ko naring naisip yan. Ilang beses ko na ring sinabi sa sarili ko na kontrolin ko ang sarili ko dahil posibleng may sabihin siya kay Allison pero kapag nakikita ko siya ay hindi ko na mapigilan. Nawawalan ako ng kontrol kapag si Allison na ang usapan.
I put myself on a thin line when I suddenly revealed what I feel towards Allison to lucas and everyday, I feel scared. Baka bukas makalawa, may sabihin siya na pwedeng magpa bago ng kung paano kami ngayon ni allison.
"I don't know. If I have to pray everyday for him to shut his mouth then I will. Hindi ko kayang hayaan lang siya na magpakasaya habang si Allison ay paulit ulit na umiiyak." They all look at each other bago tumawa ng sabay sabay, even sky laugh with them. "Aren't you mad? Anong tinatawa tawa 'niyo diyan?"
"I am so close to thinking that you hate girls because you're gay pero ngayon tignan mo nga naman, you're in love." kit said. Binato ko sa kanya ang hawak kong throw pillow. I just confessed my feeling towards allison to them when they asked me why i beated lucas so bad, now look at them laughing at me, damn it.
Natahimik kaming lahat nang marinig namin na may bumubukas ng pintuan. Niluwa nito si Allison. She's now smiling, guess they're fine now, again.
"Grabe yung ngiti, mukhang maganda ang gising natin ha?" Sabi ni kit bago tumayo at hakbayan si Allison. Ngumiti ako nang magkita ang mga mata namin. I'm glad that she looks fine now.
I hate Lucas for breaking her heart but I can't deny the fact that he is also the person who can make her smile this way.
"Have you read the lyrics that i composed?" Tanong niya. Araw araw, nakikita ko ang mga dahilan kung bakit mas lalo ko siyang minamahal. Everyday, despite growing up with her, hindi ko parin mapigilang mamangha sa klase ng babaeng nagiging siya.
She's a wrok of art and she's creating art just by existing and doing what she loves.
"Ethan nabasa mo na daw ba?" Tanong ni Enzo na may nakakalokong tingin. These guys will really tease me as much as they can.
"Yes I did. Allison is really the lyrics genius among us. No one is stepping higher than her." sagot ko. Nakita ko kung paano ako tignan ni kit. I was with him last night, of course he know that I'm lying.
"That's too much but maybe I should start asking Ethan only. He always have the best answer." She said. Nakatingin lang ako sakanya, to see her smile like this, I will pay every prices. She's so beautiful and God knows how head over heal I am to this girl.
Pumosisyon na kami sa kanya kanyang mga pwesto namin. Allison and Ethan are in front, standing. Ako naman ay nasa gitna na nakaupo sa likod, sa magkabilang side ko sa harapan ay si sky at kit na hawak ang mga gitara nila habang si enzo ay nakaupo sa gilid upang tugtugin ang keyboard.
I am actually a vocalist as well. I love singing the way I love holding my sticks but no one knows how to play the drum set apart from me kaya pinili ko ito. Isa pa ay libre kong natititigan si Allison dito sa kahit anong gawin niya. I love how I can see her do what she love the most. Her passion is overflowing, it makes you wanna do better.
She started singing, feeling the song as she made different actions in front of Asher. I look like a fool smiling brightly, looking at her. She's really enjoying herself. Everyone could say that she's born to be on stage, she's born to shine holding any microphone on her hand.
Maybe it's because I don't care about anyone else but all my life, I've never seen any woman who is as amazing, beautiful and passionate as her.