I was frustrated and almost suicidal when I found out that the woman, the Astral who killed my father, was inside me. She made me Tuhoaja just for her fun. I am always haunted by feelings of guilt for the mistakes that I have made, making Hitagi's friends. Because of her, I suffer even more.
"You can't die! Stay alive, live according to my will."
After saying that, she laughed, so happy that it made me lose my mind.
Looking in the mirror, I saw my other self grinning at me.
No matter how many times I look at my reflection it won't change anything, I'm still a killer.
I was on the verge of frustration and wanted to end my life, but I couldn't control my hands properly, as if my body wasn't mine. My body and soul have fused with the Astral, allowing it to do anything to me.
She always prevented me from committing suicide. She was afraid that if I died, she would die too. Because of that, she always controlled my body and mind.
