I'm too focused on myself so that I don't care about the environment around me, even Liza who I say is my sister, I don't know her personal life at all.
It's pathetic to be friends with me, it's only natural that she gets angry because of me like this, because I'm too much to bother everyone, plus I'm too selfish.
Liza and the man who is still with the story? did she have an illicit relationship with someone's husband? why did she say it was still another story, but how could Liza be like that? she's a girl who pursues perfection, there's no way she's overstepping her bounds, let alone carrying the good name of her big family, but who is the man in Liza's heart?, everything is still in question, I also don't know how to pick it up.
"Hey Nez, daydreaming huh?" Arman greeted me while touching my cheek in my study.
"You know when did you come? I didn't see you coming here?" I ask around subconsciously
"That's why I'm waiting for you, don't come out, it's break time, let's have lunch I'm hungry, Arman asked while holding his stomach like someone acting hungry, "ah I'm sorry Arman, I really don't see you, don't see hours too, it seems that last night's effects were too exhausting and also lacked sleep, I became less focused" I explained as I tidy up my work files, so that I could immediately have lunch with him. As he passed along, holding hands while I still could.
while walking towards lunch, we talked about this morning my father was very angry because I didn't sleep at home, father even wanted to hit me because he was so irritated, but there was mother who always hugged me.
I? yes, crying naturally, hearing my father's long and wide chatter while shouting loudly, made me scared, asked me to promise to always sleep at home alone, especially in a precarious situation like this, if I violated again, my father said he would immediately marry me when it's also with my candidate. There is no mercy anymore, now I have to be careful, I still want to have a relationship with Arman while there is still time, if I am rash it will be fatal for my current relationship,
Arman who heard me immediately wiped my tears. usually he would kiss and hug me, but not possible for now, because many employees are still heroes, only holding my hand more firmly as a sign, he is with me. We chose this afternoon to go eat to Beny's stall, I still feel bored with the cafeteria food, also because it's not far from the office where we work, we have arrived at the shop, I saw some other work friends were also there, but there were outsiders who come too.
next to Beny's shop, but some distance away there is a large mango tree, Arman stopped my steps and immediately pulled me to stand behind the tree, without us knowing it actually Beny had realized my arrival with Arman from the beginning. Beny glanced at us from a distance, as if to question,
"what are we doing behind a tree? in his shop, his mouth gaping at me with Arman. Arman brought his lips closer to me, then kissed my lips, I closed my eyes, Beny's eyes grew bigger and he clearly saw us kissing behind the tree, he with his girly style covered his face with both his hands but while peeking curiously, while tearing his eyes and glaring again, while his lips pursed, and while babbling "Ow Auw" he hissed softly from inside his stall.
we are hiding behind this mango tree, enjoying kissing each other with crushing crushes that thrill each other's chests, already... we just kissed, this is in a public place that many may see, yes that's Benny one of them, without we know he recorded in his brain our activities there, Arman immediately hugged me tightly.
"I really love you Nez" he whispered still hugging me.
"I am the same as Arman, you know for yourself how I rebelled for the sake of our relationship" I replied to him.
After we let go of longing for a moment, we continued again to the shop,
"Bro, Ben ..." I shouted calling the name of the shop owner.
"I want the hodgepodge, please" I continued and Arman also ordered "I want 'rawon rice' Bebh, which is super spicy."
"Ooh, okay. My love, ahem-ahem. Inez is just stopping here, I'm afraid I'll tease her, huh? hihihi" Beny teased while deftly chopping up the hodgepodge ingredients.
"Hehehe, I miss Bang Ben's cooking, about Arman teasing me Bang, I think he is Also, do you like being teased by Bang Ben, do you always come here every day?" I laughed and teased too.
"Ah, what the heck Nez? I come here every day because his cooking is delicious and fits my pocket, again getting a bonus, it keeps getting more and more comfortable," Arman answered and we laughed together again.
"Obviously it's delicious, I cook with the spice of love and tatih shows deep in all my dishes, hihihihi" As he walked he also spoke, Beny came with Arman's order and nudged Arman's shoulder with his elbow, after he put the plate in front of Arman, he closed the tray on his lips and face as if whispering something to Arman,
"Ehm uhm, amazing, Bebh" while squinting and glancing at the mango tree, accompanied by a bent fist inward (as if the movement usually says "yess") then sticking out his tongue teasing Arman, I pretended I just don't know while eating crackers.
"The order is super spicy, ahai ahai ya Beibh, hihihihi" he teased with his typical laugh.
"Hahaha, what the hell Bebh, don't be like that, ah, I'm embarrassed" said Arman which I heard laughing, apparently he also knew that we were hiding kissing earlier, seen by Benny. hmmm... shame.
we enjoyed lunch together, me with my 'gado-gado' (regional specialties in Indonesia) Arman with his 'rawon' (regional specialties in Indonesia too) rice, Beny is still completing his service to his customers who are coming. I stole glances at Arman who ate his rice voraciously and with a mouth that hissed spicyly, while sweat was dripping, he occasionally wiped the sweat from his forehead, but would soon appear and reappear, again I daydream of him, shadows and memories of being kissed many times, really I will never be able to forget it, in my mind always floating scene after scene that I did with him yesterday and yesterday,
"Inez, let's eat, finish it! Are you even smiling to yourself?" said Arman who made me feel awkward, I immediately devoured my spoon which contained this hodgepodge, "Yes ... I see you are cute, eat spicy food until your lips are sweating like that, hehehe" I explained as I continued to eat my menu.