Crushed and melted is all I have. My mother tried to calm me down so I could relax and go through the procession properly.
"Don't cry now, how will your face be seen by everyone. Inez... Don't make your father angry, quickly clean your face. You will soon be put on make up, I will always be by your side," answered Mother supporting me.
When I'm focused on preparing for my event later. My mind drifted to those far away, at this hour Arman would have boarded the bus to attend my event tonight. Since this morning I did not dare to contact him or just chat, I was afraid that I was crying myself even worse and he must also be very, very hurt by the burden I felt and then I put it on him. I can't stand that. Let there be silence for a moment for him and for me. Even though from this morning the tears have almost drained away. I have to stay strong so Arman is strong too. That's the message.
