It been a few days since the secret was out and I confessed everything. Papa has been quite upset with me I guess. I have tried talking to him , but our conversations has lead us to arguments. Mama has also been quite worried about me and everything thats been happening. I can understand them. I know it's hard to send their daughter to a foreign country to work. In an unknown place and between unknown people. They won't even be able to meet me physically. Mama tries not to show it but her face says it all . There was one time when we both started crying after talking about all this.
You see here in India , people are very conservative. We don't even go to sleep over at a friend's house , let alone working in a foreign place. As I have never been apart of my parents , it's hard for me too.
My siblings will soon be going to college and with our current situation, we can never afford to send them both.
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All the necessary preparations for the visa have been done. But it's gonna take some time before I can finally get it.
I have researched and did my home work about all the other necessary things that needs to be done. The apartments that I'll be staying at. Where it's situated and where the company is. About our contrat and all those things.
Recently , I have made some friends who have been the winner along side myself. One of them is Akansha. Akansha will also be joining me to Korea as a translator too. But unlike me , she's going there for experience and because her family wanted her to be independent. But Akansha says the reason why she's going there is because she's a fan of some actor or idol and that she has always wanted to work in Korea.
She says it's her dream to go and meet her idol and there's no better opportunity than this.
By our conversations and chats so far , I know how big of a fan she is and how much she loves Korea. It not just about celebrity but also the culture, the food , the cloths and last but not least , the drama and music.
She has made me learn and discover about alot of things. I must say having a Bubbly and a sweet friend like her , makes me feel fortune and grateful .
She has helped me alot. Since she knows about my situation , she helps me to lift my mood when I m down and provides me suggestions about alot of things.
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It's was evening time and I was preparing snacks and tea for my parents. After thinking about everything , I didn't know just how I can bring up the topic again.
After preparing the tea , I placed everything on a tray went over to my parents. They were seated at the balcony while enjoying the beautiful view. The kept the tea on the table and stood between them both. No body said anything. It suddenly started to feel heavy. I was nervous , but I knew I had to do it now. So I started -
" Papa , I know it'll be difficult and it's a tough decision to send your eldest daughter to a foreign place. I understand that you both are worried about me. I know many people will oppose the idea when they learn the fact that I m going to work outside. But papa , till when will this continue? We all know how things have been lately. It won't be long before Janvi and Shourya will start college. And it's impossible to send them both. And not only that, if we don't do anything soon , the loan that we took will be too difficult to pay. I don't want to be a burden and just sit and see everyone of my family suffering"
With that tears started flowing out of my eyes. I just couldn't control myself . Suddenly my father turned to myself and started wipeing my tears aways. I also noticed that my father's eyes had trace of tears left .
" You'll never be a burden to me Avni. More than you I m actually ashamed at myself. If not for my useless legs. You didn't have to go through all this beta (child).
If only I could do something for the family and I'd my business had left has with that loan , who would have had a beautiful future. You didn't have to worry about all this. I'm sorry beta. I couldn't stand as a good father to you. Because of me , you have to go through so much".
I didn't know this was the reason why my father was not talking to me. I guess while blaming himself for everything, he was not able to face me.
" No papa , it's not your fault and will never be. I know much you have did for the family and how much sacrifices you have made for all of us. There's no reason for you to blame yourself papa. You have always been the pillar of this family. Helping us all when we need you and hearing the burden of everything on your shoulders. But papa , you cannot be the only one handling everything alone. It's time that I to do something for us. Didn't you used to say that I'm the bravest of them all? Let your brave daughter handle this papa ".
With all that, the three of us were crying by the end. Even though papa was pretending he didn't cry , but you know? The papa thing!
I'm happy that finally I have the approval of both of my parents. And that everything have ended well. Now it's only a matter of time.