All she became knowing is darkness, she fell inside the black, you see her like she's a tree standing without leaves in the cold last days of December, you can see only the branches. In her world there is no youtube blogger or a movie star to imagine herself building her little cute imaginary life with, such swimming in the depth of ocean having the ability of breathing under water like forever, dance all the way from the stars straight to the moon or fly high in the sky holding their hands and cuddling. No! The dark side of her life is that there is no bright side that gives her an inch of hope to stay alive.
" Was I only a joke for him? did he use me to pass time or just to flirt? was I a puppet?"
Questions, questions, questions without a solution. in one sentence: he left her for another one. He was her only reason to smile, he went his way and left the snow falling inside her house, however her heart was getting burnt in a hell of emotions.
" Give me 2 bags of coca! "
" Take! 100$ "
" What! it was 80$ only yesteday"
" You give me 100$ or you're no longer here "
" Take asshole! This is the last time to buy here "
" Don't come back, and you know what happens if you do something wrong, you just know! get the hell away "
She was a kind girl living in a quiet place, her inhale was happiness, her exhale was pain.. now she's no longer knowing that inhale, but only the exhale, because she is flying in a space of misery instead of drifting beneath the dreams.
" Where is my capsule, I want to travel.. straight to Neptune where I don't find people anymore "
This was her feeling during a whole year of being heartbroken, doing nothing, no appetite to eat and no life to live.
To be continued ...