Monday, June 14
11:20 pm
I'm standing in my balcony and watching the city lights a far. A cold breeze brush over my body. It's relaxing yet so lonely. Didn't I always want this? Having a break from everything and being alone? Being isolated somewhere far from the city and everyone else...
It has come true now. Then why am I so sad? Didn't I always want to run away being annoyed by the people around me? Then why....why am I feeling this loneliness? I always wanted to be alone by myself and having my mom besides me. Then why am I now craving for someone...a friend... Why? Pathetic!
I get inside to my room and sit on my bed. Tears rolling down to my cheeks.
I'm crying? It's so rare. I don't cry that easily. The last time I cried in this year was when I left him. Him....
I really don't deserve to be anyone's friend. I squeeze my eyes shut and bury my head into the bed. My shoulders begin to shake as the sobs I've been trying to contain violently break out of me. With one swift movement, I grab the pillows off the bed and throw them at the reflection in the mirror of the girl I no longer know. I watch as the girl in the mirror stares back at me, sobbing pathetically. UGLY!
How did things turned into like these? Wasn't I living a happy life with my friends? Everything was fine back then...then..how..How things became like these? Why am I alone now?