Gavin woke up in a hospital bed with his mom sleeping beside him holding his hand. Suddenly the scene of his best friend flashes in front of his eyes.
"Chris!!!" he yelled His mom woke up as she saw Gavin was crying and yelling Chris's name.
"Gavin… son, mom is here… listen, baby …." She tried to calm him down by holding him in a hug.
"Mom ….Chris…. Chris... He…he ..." Gavin was trying to say something but the tears and pain in his heart were making it hard.
"It's ok baby …. Everything will be alright… calm down baby calm down…"
Gavin's mother kept on holding her son close to her till he stopped crying and fell asleep.
It took 3 days for Gavin to come back to reality and accepting that his best friend is gone. Gavin was blaming himself for Chris's death but later Gavin's mom told him the truth behind why actually Chris committed suicide.
Actually, Chris was struggling for the last few days but he never told anybody… not even his best friend Gavin.
After Chris's mom left when he was 8, he never understood the reason why she left?. He blamed his father, who kept his distance from him and never talked to him all these years but a month back he found his mother. he found a letter in his dad's closet with his mother's contact number on it.
Chris contacted her to get some answers and hoping that he will get motherly love but instead, he found that his mother is with someone else. He learned the truth; she was having affair with a rich guy and she wanted to be with him. so she left. She never wanted Chris to be born in the first place just because she didn't want to ruin her figure. She was a selfish woman, who just wanted money. she married Chris's father just because of his money but when his dad lost his business and lost money. her behavior changed and she left to found a richer man than his father. Chris's mother was selfish, self-centered. A few days ago, Chris met her she insulted Chris and his father. She told him that she never wanted him and he ruined her life. Chris was depressed. He didn't tell Gavin about this because he never understands his own feeling towards the whole situation, he was embarrassed and he was struggling but kept on smiling. But as his emotions kept on piling up his depression become bigger that led him to this.
After hearing all this Gavin blamed himself more remembering their last conversation, he realized maybe this is wanting he wanted to tell him. Maybe if he had listened to his friend… maybe this would have never happened.
Chris was 14 and gone Gavin was blaming himself for his friend's death.
Gavin's parents got divorced at the worst time ever in Gavin's life. It was decided he was going to live with his mom. Gavin's mom (Ava) owned a fashion designing company and a magazine company under the brand name 'G Ava urbans' or 'GAU'. After the divorce his mom got busy but she never forgot to check on his baby.
It's been 6 months since Chris's death. Gavin has been hard time dealing with it.
He sees Chris everywhere. Gavin was having nightmares of the day he last saw Chris. He was not able to sleep through the night and in the day he kept on spacing out. His friends tried everything to get Gavin out of this mourning zone but Gavin was silent.
Gavin's mother first decides to give him some space and heal with time but After seeing his son suffering so much, she decided to break her silence and stop giving him more time to cope. She sits beside his son, who is sitting in the terrace garden looking at the sky emptily "Gavin"
Gavin turns his attention to her mom "mom... when you come?"
"Just now" taking a deep breath she said "baby I want to say something to you"
"Yes, mom I am listening. What is it mom?" now Gavin was looking at her mom with concern.
"Gavin baby it's been 6 months, I know you are blaming yourself. But baby it's not your fault" Gavin's mom patted his shoulder lightly.
tears surface in his eyes "Mom... it is my fault…he came to me that day… wanting to tell me something but I turned him down and even yelled at him …. i..."
Ava interrupted him "but you didn't know …. He never told you from the beginning. He was struggling by himself it was his choice not to tell you"
"But mom he tried to tell me … but I brushed him off... I was not a good friend to him…"
Sighing his mom "baby you are a good person and a good friend, don't say things like that…."
"But mom…he…"
"Honey! listen to me." Ava interrupted him. "You are not going to get answers to your maybes and mourning is not going to bring him back and you not living your life is definitely not going to help anyone. Chris was depressed and not telling you about his depression was his own choice we will never know why he chooses this but Baby he is gone and you sitting here and blaming yourself is not going to change anything. You need to pass this and do something live your life."
Gavin kept silent for a minute thinking about what her mom Is saying is actually bitter truth and he needs to do something so that this won't happen again and he needs to help people like Chris who are struggling themselves. Maybe he will find why Chris choose not to tell him about his pain. Maybe he will find answers.
Gavin finally speaks "mom I know what I want to do. I want to help people who are suffering as Chris". Ava's eyes widened on his son's sudden blurred-out thought. "Are you sure Gavin?"
"Yes mom, I have decided I want to do something even if I was not able to help Chris but I want to redeem myself. i want to help out people who are suffering just like chris."
Seeing Gavin's determination Ava's eyes got teary "baby, I am with you I support you in any decision. I am always by your side. But I need just one promise that you live your life don't close yourself off to study and career you need to live your life to the fullest and be happy".
Gavin hugged her mom and said, "I promise mom. I promise I'll be happy". ' but more than that, I will find answers to my question' Gavin thought to himself.