Life has many things stored for us, I am sure you have heard this statement various times but indeed it is right. We can not predict our future but our future always takes a turn according to what we have gone through in past and what are we are facing in the present. Life is no that simple especially if we are grown between guns and sounds.
Hey, my name is Laila which means Beauty of darkness. As my name suggests my father gave me this name because he is ruling king of the darkness, everything that happens in this city or even in this house is according to him. But soon after I was born, he made me his world, of course, I was the first child in this family and he dared to love me till the end of the earth. In past, My granddad was a Godfather, and after his death, my dad has announced as one. Before all of this thing of becoming in the mafia, he was pursuing law and was managing property business all around the globe. But soon after granddad, was given no choice rather than to attain power and manage from where my grandpa left.
So since childhood, I didn't have a normal girl routine, for me, it was always sick.
I remember one time when I was 2, I got kidnapped by those who did not like my father and want him dead but trees talk honey at least with him, he was able to find me within an hour, and then something happened.
I was sent to another continent, another county to my mother's home alone to my grandparents so that I could be safe and away from these near-death experiences where I learned about my mother and how did she fell in love, and how her family supported her decision even when my dad was 13 years older than her.
Soon after when I turned 3+ I was in school already, for most of what I have remembered I spent nice joyful childhood but my memory still got blocked with the occurrence of those events.
It was a summer night, all blackout, and my homies and I were playing hide and seek.
We used to hide in the staircases of the houses.
And I was hiding on one of my friend's stairs he was the one who has to find out everyone.
Suddenly his dad appeared and asked me what am I doing? I told him and he sat by saying I'll let you know whenever he will come nearby. I was happy knowing that uncle is on my side. Eventually, I was the winner because he wasn't able to find me but in between this when I was about to move out of the gate, uncle called me and I went to him asking what happened? But instead of getting an answer he pulled me in and put his ear on my lower abdomen and start touching me alongside complimenting me how beautiful am I and how beautiful I would look with no clothes on.
I ran out pushing him aside, silently crying missing my dad, wishing if he was here with me this wouldn't happen.
But my luck, he was waiting for me in the house, he came to give me a surprise when I was busy playing, he didn't want to disturb me. So as soon as I saw him I stand next to him not having the courage to tell him what happened to me. when he pulled me close to hug I restraint and then he knew something was wrong, he asked me but I knew if I would tell him my friend will lose his father and I don't wish this to happen with him.
So I kept quiet smiling saying, nothing dad, it's just the stomach ache. I know he didn't buy it at that time but later that night he came into my room knocking seeing whether I am asleep or not. He came and sat next to me, rubbing his hand on my head.
He clearly said which I remember,
Never permit anyone to come inside your aura. Mark the circle around you, let no one in.
The next morning when I woke up he was gone, I waited for his call and was happy to finally understand his words. I thought he left for Italy but no later on I got to know he was in the hospital and the doctor told my mother he was suffering from various diseases. I lost my calm shouting that I wanna go see him, my grandmother told me that he will come back here, he is no more going to Italy. I was so happy listening to it but sad at the same time praying God nothing serious should have happened to him.
Seeing him back at home, I hugged him right asked about his health and his business.
He very well claimed that he was doing alright and will manage his business from here! I was so so happy because I knew if he was there nothing bad will ever happen to me.
As the days started passing I remember saying to myself that I don't want to remain this beautiful. Blaming god that why did he gave me birth as a boy and then it hit me, I could still be the one, then and there itself I chose to be a tomboy .