Commitment Shy... That's been the story of my life for years now not that I don't meet beautiful, intelligent and industrious ladies but I've not been able to commit. Why? The answer is just one name KATRINA. The start and so far the end of my relationship journey. Oh I forgot to tell you my name I'm Alex, 25years old young man with no clue how to overcome the fear of commitment.
It all started with a beautiful girl,a lollipop and a cute baby boy. The first time I saw her I should have known to run the other way, simply because it was just not normal to lose airflow at the sight of another human being...like who does that for Christ sake. She walked in to the room in a lavender coloured gown that was skimming her knees, her gait was so elegant head up back straight walking with the confidence of a queen sharp eyes skimming the room and it landed on me. I knew I was done for the moment she walked right straight to me and said "please can I use the chair beside you." Well that was it for me....Love at first sight, been hearing of that concept for eons and thought it was just pure foolhardiness: obviously you don't know some things until they staring at you right in the face. So lost in my fantasy i just kept staring at the angel in front of me don't forget my airflow was gone, i blinked a couple of times and finally managed a nod, couldn't talk my brain just lost all the vocabulary I had taught it for years. And then she walked past me and her smell like roses in the spring did it I was in love and I didn't even know the name of the object of my fantasy.
It's been an hour I've been stealing glances her way I think she has noticed me staring,I can see the subtle smile forming on her lips it only makes matters worse and out of the blues a cute toddler walks up to me with cute puffy brown eyes looks at the angel beside me "I'm not surprised you can't help your emotions around her too young man" I thought. She finally looked at the small man smiled a full real smile and spread her hands help me unwrap my lollipop he said and she said here, took the lollipop and in the process of untying the cover stole a cut and looked at me directly!!! With a conspiratory glance. I found my voice, I guess the glance helped boost my confidence " you are a cheat" I said in defence of the cute toddler,she smiled and replied "he's my brother our youngest gets all the lollipop an elder sister can't help but steal a few bites I guess. what's your name" she asked, " Alex" I replied and she just nodded, "won't you tell me yours?" I asked "you didn't ask so I guess you didn't need it" and she faced the tutor like she just didn't turn my world upside down. Ten minutes later I asked what's your name she turned to me and looked at me with a piercing knowing look like she was trying to search my heart and said "KATRINA" and thus my fate was sealed.