She was a normal working girl till then and the journey to her started suddenly with her instant yet deep awareness of the real world and the reality of her existence and value which came to surface all of the sudden without warning. It started with getting news from her family that she has to leave her regular work and the city for some reason where she came with all her dreams and desire âŠ.
The time she knew that she has to leave her job and move to her permanent resident something major happened within her that was completely new along with intense feelings and thoughts ; a tower moment for her. It shook and hit her so hard with a realization that yesterday she came with all her dreams and desires and today it is no more.
Today If she see herself than it is worth experiencing all those shit but at that time it was completely different and confusing.
Actual journey started when she came back to her permanent residence and was regretting all her decisions and expectation that become full of vail of an illusion to her. So if she look at her now than she is thankful for all those events and circumstances because it made her more stronger and authentic , responsible and wiser. But that she was struggling those each and every moment, be waking at the middle of the night with so many regrets and worries about future , feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness, many more ...
She was uncertain about one major event that brought out so many things to the surface one after another : shocking yet surprising experience to her and changed her life upside down. One after another experience and lessons that she was going through was hell lot for a 20 years girl like her .
So it started like this,
She was once awaken to the moon at the middle of the night and the first thing she saw in the moon was a person and it was shocking to her. Another strange thing was: that person she saw in the moon was a person from her work place.
He was not working there but was a son of her main boss at job. So it was annoying to her that why all of the sudden this guy whom she haven't talked yet appeared in this moon and the picture was so clear to her like a big bright moon.
And this continue to happen with her so many times and was wondering every time but why him. Now not only the picture but many things was reminding her of him like his image, personality, his thought would come randomly at the middle of she doing something , his name popping suddenly , everything was revolving around him. During this time had a bunch of questions regarding this things she was going through:
Am I having a crush on him or had a crush on him?
Am I going mad or what?
Is he missing me the way I am ?
Does he even know me ?
Why would he miss me?
Am I having a false fixed belief someway delusion?
Till this time she did believe in god strongly but one question made her seek the cause behind all these things happening at a same time and was new to her .
The question was why she is not been able to get him out of her mind for so long?
So from here she thought of searching it in a google or youtube. And guess what. She typed her question and entered it ; she got an answer to it and it was the major breakthrough moment for her.
Story to be continued...