Day 35
I plunged my toilet today and I think I finally did it. Luckily I haven't had to shit. It flushes like the ocean or something poetic.
They gave me potato chips. I ate a bag of salty lays and for the first time somebody else came to the cells. Two people or things dragged a tanned man in and his head was hung downward with defeat.
They put him three cells away from me. "Y'all not giving me a friend? I could use a fuck buddy. Or you could throw a dildo in here, anything really; like a doorknob or somethin'"
They ignored me and a wrote another tally. I've been in her for nearly 40 days, and it's 365 days in a year so 365 days minus 40 is half a year. Because, 40 is ten away from 50 which is the indication thereof. Making it the sum of a full half year.
"Hello...?" They brought that boy yesterday. he's been passed out for a long time. I go to the bars, "Hello?" I feel so stupid. "Your in prison!"
"Why!"
"I don't know. Do you know Tori?"
"No..."
I start thinking to myself. What if...? "Is... Is your name Vijay?"
"I did you know that?" he says. "So it is?"
"Who told you?"
I... "Do you remember?"
"What the fuck!"
"Cedrica! Jay, it's me. Do you remmeber Tori?"
"Cedrica...?"
I'm yelling through the bars. I'm surprised the guards didn't come. "Cece?"
"Vijay!"
"I thought... you were dead."
"Well don't say it like that..." he sounds so resentful. "So, that man wasn't your father?"
"What?" I shake my head. "Vijay, please listen. Tori has like... these zombies, and they brought me here. Something about the Antichrist."
I hear a breath. "You really aren't doing anything?"
"No, Vijay!"
"Chale..."
"Charlie?"
"It's hindi..." he goarns. "I knew a boy named Charlie." I say.
"Unwin."
"What?"
"Do rememebr those house across the street and that little white boy ran away from home?"
I had to think. Did grandma go to jail or... "It was like four police cars outside."
"Because he was dead, and they were looking for the woman that did it. You remember I went missing?"
"I don't..."
"Guess the liar can't crawl here." he says.
"What liar? I bet it's Tori."
"No... the snake. If Eldrich Gods and the bible made sense. That's it."
"You sound sad..." I pout. "I can't see you..."
"I'm in a cell. I have a sink and a toilet and a bunk bed."
"I have a single bed. One time my toilet was clogged, they feed me."
"What?"
"Leftovers?" I'm starving. "So she keeps us in cells and turning people into imps?"
"I'm so happy you hear though." I'm smiling. I'm mot alone. "Are you retarded?"
Well damn. "We are trapped. What have you been doing to get out?"
"Meditation..." I grimace. "I sit on the floor and do that thing you use to."
"Really?" Now he sounds kind? "Yeah... I'm getting my memory together. I don't know who Tori's dad is."
"Jesus..."
"What?"
"Jesus Montgomery... I cant remember his last name. He's Henri's kid."
"I don't Henri..."
"How long you been in here?"
"Thirty five days... inclding today."
"Really?" he sighs. "I haven't seen you in a long time."
"Well I got two feet..."
"Heh..."
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Day 36
Chale and I didn't do anything. Today they gave us corn and water. I drunk water and ate a can of sweet corn. I just sat it with my other cans.
To bad I don't have string. We could improve our communication skills.
He wasn't talkative either.
I sat on my bed and put my back against the wall. I don't know what time it is.
Oh yeah, I'm supposed to die in a while. "Hey Chale?
"Yeah?"
"I won't be here forever."
"What you mean?"
"Well, they said I was facing execution." I shrug. "Are you serious! For What?"
"I don't know!"
"Do that they you used to."
"Thing? What thing?"
"Mediatate! Alexis, please, just sit still. D-Do a mantra!"
Oh... that's what I'm missing. I've been thinking about trees. I sit and relax and try to go into a deep state of consciousness.
I hear the bars rattle. "Are you sleep?"
I look to the side and gasp. It's a green man with piercing red lights. The jail opens. "You're not sleep."
"What the fuck I do? I'm already dying!"
"I know..." he walks in and the jail closes. "Cedrica! Is that the warren? Cedrica!"
I'm looking at him, and he stares at me with read beams. He comes to my bed and his fist meets my cheek. He grabs me by my hair and throws me to the floor. I'm kicked in the neck and stabbed in the back. I know, I'm yelling but Chale can't hear me.
I'm lifted up and swung into he sink where I break my nose. HE stomps on my head and cracks my nose and eye with a baton. I can't breath as he punts me in the stomach. "CEDRICA! Why aren't you answering me?"
He pulls my hair to the point my hair breaks off. I'm punched in the head and he kicks the back of head forcing it to the floor. I see my own blood. It's a pain so life taking, I don't remember anything else except the electric bolt that shot through my chest.
I couldn't see because of tears and I couldn't move my fingers because my arm was broken.
When the imp left the cell, I heard a burst of my own screams and the jail shut.
The jail opens again and I do hear Chale, but I also know he can't do anything for me.
Bolt fly through my body. My throat hurts and I'm silenced again. The weird sensation is knowing I'm bleeding and probably pissing myself.
I feel the breeze against my ass and pray what is happening isn't about to happen, but it does.
It's something cold inside of me, and it's indescribable. I'm kicked in the face and that take my vision. I can't move, I can't squeeze and all I hear... just barely is Chale repeating my name.
I'm in pain and that's all I really know.
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Day 40
I have brain damage and can't nobody tell me otherwise. I haven't been able to see good and most of the time I just lay on my side. When I can't do that. I just lay on my back and thank god I can do it.
My knife wound isn't bleeding much. I can't move, but I had a theory and one day I did go to the hospital and ask about stem cells.
So, as I was bleeding from murder. I started thinking, stem cells is in the blood. That's plasma, which is good. The way stem works is that it replaces damage tissue. A positive! So, when pregnant women start having menstruation, shouldn't that heal them? But they stitch it.
So, with my genius, I've been bleeding. But it's my blood and that should have stem in it. So, I've just been soaking my back in blood.
It makes sense. I don't know and probably have an infection.
"Cedrica... please talk to me." I don't want to. All I hear after is whimpering.
Day 41
My back still hurts, but it's a zap of pain. I actually use to heal my wounds, that doesn't happen like it use to.
I got kicked in my throat. I just don't want to move. I lost track of the days.
I've been resting and at some point I passed out. Don't remember when that was.
"When we was kids. I thought you was the cutest."
I smile. That's nice. "Tori put her hand in my pants." WE FLEW OUT THE WINDOW. What the fuck!" She put her hand in my pants and asked me for ten dollars so she could go to the store. I went missing after dad got killed... I just knew, I was going up for adoption and..."
Well continue. He sighs, "They would have sent me back to India. I don't have family beside my dad. But he's gone. So, I ran away. I can hear your soul a little bit."
Use the force! What happened to your mother! MAKE IT!
"My mama died, she got shot in India."
VIJAY I'M SO SORRY!
"I had an uncle, and he died from illness. He couldn't breathe. Of course my grandparents are dead, because that's how life works. I don't really have family."
Oh no, I'm crying! "V..."
"What did they do to you?"
I'm dying in 21 days.
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Day 42
I moved my big toe today. I did it two times and I didn't do it again because pain.
I started thinking about pain. It's spelled, P-A-I-N. The p stands for personal, A stands for activity. And I, means IN THE. N stands for Now.
I wiggled my fingers.
Two guards came into the jail ward. One opens my cage and he has a needle. "It's heroin." he says. I don't want it. That's what I say but alas, it runs through my veins.
Drugs have an effect on the soul. It makes it shrink. That's what learned from Cooly. Drugs hurt the soul and the obayifo is a ball of light. You can't live forever, but the soul is forever. So, if the obayifo did drugs constantly, he could die twice. There is no spirit.
I ain't gon' lie, I feel happy and I wiggled my feet just see the effect.
"You'll get another dose tonight and tomorrow."
"Why?" I say with a hoarse voice. "Because Tori says you need it. Your whole family is a bunch of crack heads. You should have took care of her." he leaves. I'm so baffled, and I can't even ask why this is a thing.
Tori is younger than me but with everything passing my mind. We are not related. So the question stands, who the fuck is she?
"Cedrica?" I hear Vijay. "Yes?"
"Tori is adopted. Her mother used to be on drugs, but the baby daddy died or the uncle kidnapped her."
Really? "Montgomery Greer. Aka, Jesus... Dareion isn't your dad."
How does he know? "Are you high? I'm a little floaty."
Oh please, the crack ain't that fast. "Yahoska has a business of her own but then Jesus shot her. If you wondering how I know... I went to Amalaric."
I robbed it. "Jesus himself, like from the bible isn't evil. Unless it's the antichrist and you know he died because of accusation. Well, Dareion had liver cancer. So, he had liver cancer and he like fetizing death. His father got into a car addicent and started going to church. So then, Aleigha aka..." he sighs. "Lucious Banks. He got outted for being a vampire and gay..."
Wow...
"Lucious is a vampire and his family goes way back. Shikki," he sighs again. "Nikkia... and he had like three or two more sons. Coochie man is one of his sons. We can't find the others."
I cough and end up hacking. "Cedrica?"
"Why?"
"The hood rebuilt the Church that was owned my Growden. Shikki was visiting, she attended with her family and she found that there was a strange order from the church. She found the basement full of bones. At least fifteen bodies were found. Some say it was 33 bones down there including the old Mayor that used to sit in office."
"The mayor."
"Nobody knew he went missing because somebody. A woman got plastic surgery to look like a man who was Growden's 5th wife."
I cannot believe what I'm hearing. "Then other shit came up and The Growden Clan, by the way, they are literally all named Growden. Because they are 'Growing' like a fucking threat." says Vijay, Chale, "Are you serious?"
"Yes! There are such books called False Books and the Growdens... love... the bible. Shikki was little when she said she wrote a book about the Blackest People, he dubbed it as prejudice and said Black People don't have a God. The Ghetto Gods were named MUM, SHUSH, And NONE."
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Day 43
MUM, SHUSH, and NONE? I got my dose of heroin. I didn't sleep, I feel like something in my body is trying to escape me.
I hear yawning and Vijay speaks. "Cedrica? Good morning..."
"Morning," I grab my throat. "I wish I could get over there. Sore?"
"Yes..." that came out easier than I expected. "So, I think I should tell you about the manifestation. MUM, SHUSH, and NONE are three separate Gods. They were made from Mud, Stone, and Eyes."
"Eyes?"
"NOT in the literal sense..." he says. "NONE cannot be seen. MUM is two people, a crackhead and another crackhead, a man and a woman. They dob't actually have names and mainly refered to as Mom and Dad or, you know, pa. Pa beats Mom but Growden has his own spin on things. The False Books say what goes and not Shikki. She's Princess os the Ghetto coming from Lucious, who is King."
"Why?"
"He's a rapper. And Shikki's smart, it came to her." I hear a thug in the cells. "She's kind of Mokiri's cousin. This is random. Like, a lot of us was at church and I rememebr... before, I saw you in front and I couldn't say anything. Aleigha, Lucious, was there because Mable had kidnapped her and Growden broke her out of jail. So it happened again. And she died... they literally made a vampire fetch his child in the woods."
I don't remember anything like that.
"Shut up!" I go stiff. "Time for another dose."
"You imps are some niggers..."
"Amen." says the guard chuckling My jail cell opens, and I receive my dosage. There's a smell to it, it smells like poison. "You might have a heart attack in your sleep. We don't care. I didn't give you heroin either."
"What is it?"
"Liquid crack." he walks out.