Come on now Anand, Open your books.
Start Completing today's targets said, Mrs. Andrea.
I said, ok and started studying.
I completed almost the whole syllabus. I studied the whole year in just a month!. Isn't that a miracle! Of course, I didn't study everything. I have studied only the important questions, and that was enough for passing these exams.
Nowadays, I'm sitting in the kitchen itself and studying. So, that it would be easy for both of us.
After some time, I asked her, "don't you feel alone"?
She smiled and said, 'no'.
I asked her, But you live all alone in the house. Why don't you live with your parents?
Well, I just want to live my life alone. Although my parent's house isn't too far from here. When I feel alone I just go to their house and spend some time with them.
I just want to be an independent woman. After some years I might be going back to my husband's house. Then, I can't live my life on my conditions right!.
That's why I live alone and also, I love to be alone.
(I studied a bit and got bored)
So, I was chopping vegetables, but Mrs. Andrea noticed me that, I was not chopping them in the right way.
She smiled, held my hand, and taught me, how to chop them.
(That was the first time, Mrs. Andrea touched my hand. My pulses raised the moment she touched. I could feel those, soft wet hands on me. The hairs on my hand started raising.)
later, She went near the stove and started cooking vegetables.
I stood beside her. Slowly, I started moving closer to her. There were only a few inches of gap between us. I took one more step and moved closer to her. That's how our arms greeted each other. I wasn't knowing whether she wants to continue or not. I wasn't getting any hints from her. Also, she is not stepping aside too. I pressed a little bit harder this time. She did not utter a word. She was standing quietly and stirring the soup. I thought, her silence like, it was a yes and telling me to go on.
I slowly started touching her palms.
I've held her hand.
Still, she did not stop me. She was standing like a statue.
I thought her senses stopped working. she behaved like nothing was happening with her hands.
I touched her chin and turned her towards me.
For few seconds we were staring into each other's eyes. I went furthermore near to her and kissed her lips.
I don't know, whether she wanted this or no. I paused for a second so that she would slap me and throw me out of the house.
Unfortunately, she did not do that. She was closing her eyes. Her lips were half opened with slight shivering.
It seems like she wanted more and I couldn't resist and we kissed again, but this time harder!
We tightly held each other's bodies and kissed deeply. For the next five minutes, we only did this. I was expecting that we will enter into the next level. But she stopped me and said, "Anand please go back to your home" now.
(I did not expect something like this, she would tell!)
I ask her why? And started holding her hands.
She pushed me back and shouted, 'leave me alone.
I got terrified and went back to my home.
I couldn't sleep the whole night. I was only thinking about her. All stupid thoughts were coming into my mind.
Didn't she like me?
Did I go too fast?
Did I force here?
Did I take any advantage of her?
If, she doesn't like me when I touched her hand. She would have told me to stop! But she didn't say anything like that
No, I did not go too fast. I paused for a second after I kissed her. So, that she would react to the action. But she didn't!
No, I didn't force her. If I have forced her, she would have tried to push me. But she didn't!
I didn't take any advantage of her. Although, I took the first step but later it was a mutual one.
I was cross-checking the incident which took place between us.
No, where I felt guilty. I didn't feel regret too. but,
What happens when my father knows about this!?
That question made my pulse increase. I started panicking.
He could tolerate small mischievous things, but this isn't something small!
What will happen when the whole school knows about this!
These all questions didn't let me sleep the whole night.
My alarm started buzzing.
It was 7 in the morning. My eyes were burning a bit. I thought of, not going to school and request my father that, 'I will study in the home itself'. But, I know my father would never allow me because only a week was left for my boards to occur.
I reached my school. Everything was normal, but I wasn't. I am frightened inside but trying to cover that with a smile on my face. I couldn't find Mrs. Andrea in the staff room. I have searched everywhere but I couldn't find her. I went back to class and sat. I was very tensed. All my friends started asking me, 'whether I was fine or no'. I just smiled. I was very calm, I was never like this before. I used to make nuisance daily. But I didn't do it that day. I was embarrassed seeing myself!
Already 10 minutes passed, still our science teacher didn't show up. It was her period
Everyone in the class was enjoying it, but I couldn't.
The period was over. she didn't show up. I was upset and miserable.
The school was over after the long day. I entered the house with a great amount of tension in me. I thought Mrs. Andrea was waiting for me in my house. Luckily, she didn't come to my home. I changed my clothes without even getting dressed up properly. I started travelling to Mrs. Andrea's house.
I rang her doorbell.
I could hear some noises from inside, but no one was opening the door.
I rang the bang 3 more times.
Finally, the door was opened.
But it was not Mrs. Andrea who opened the door.