I am Twenty two now. Go to four years back. I am nineteenth years old. I am a little bit different from now.
No! I think I am fully different. Not actually by physical appearance rather manner and environmental experiences. I wouldn't go to that place before nineteen. But now I am used to go to these places regularly. Nobody knows the secrets of the past and present. But Mirror keeps a possibility. It knows all my deeds.
It is not my planned action. But the situation demands it. I am fed up with these stuffs. Everyday i birth and rebirth myself.
For peace!
Peace! Its a dream or desirable thing for me. I don't participate first rather he. And the situations pressure me to participate badly. Not even a soft participation. Life is void with toxic relationship. I need to write suicidal notes every week once at least. I need also to collect ropes, blades, sharp knives, and poison to stop my irregular breath. My lungs are not able to catch atmospheric oxygen. My heart doesn't participate in pumping. Even my brain doesn't response properly. To save me, to love me, I have taken the discission. I couldn't permit anymore to suck my blood. I am trying to save my tear for me.
Then!
Yes! I enable myself to stop his sucking of my white blood cell. My blood is unable to stop the increasing number of white blood cell in blood. I am in a hurry to kill the Monster who always fall me in trap. Then I am able to clott its blood of the full body. Its a big Monster with a big heart and containing a big blood pumping mechine.
But I am not damn sure about anybody else who might know about my silent success which may tell about the hidden lines of the unuttered background of prohibation.
Maybe the Mirror knows!
No way to deny the Mirror. Never possible!
Whatever! I Don't want to repeat the story in my mind. I don't want my eyes would take the pressure to recall the horrible scenes of clotting blood of the Monster. Thats sure the Monster wouldn't hate me rather I. My initial journey is smooth and normal. Aslo serene and enjoyable. Mainly remarkable Childhood. But nineteen makes me unlucky. Where I beat the luck and gain success. The story is like-
Within this week 1600ml blood has been washed in this washroom. Don't know whats going on with these four young ladies. Why they are washing blood! And with care and scare!
A teen age girl is not egar to wash it. But luck doesn't support her. Sometimes she feels boring. Her names Sumpa. She has just pssed her twelve class. Waiting for admission test. Her body is getting worsen. Look at her lips. Always dry! and she doesn't like normal drinking water. She demands nutritious liquids. It might be fruits juice, milk, or other stuffs. But its like a dream. She needs to eat the tasteless foods. Vegetable curry without proper spices, oil, and salt. Her mother is not with her. Its her bad luck. She is actually in a mess house. The house is full of young girls. They need to cook themselves. They need to shop their grocery items and other necessary things. They need to pass That Place.
Sumpa!
Yes, Sister. I am coming. Wait only 2seconds.
Sumpa is going to Super market and library. And Nilu is making company with her. Nilu is a University student. She is passing her Literary study from a famous university. And its located in this city, At the last point of the city. After buying book, they need to attend the Career club. As a lady you need to be career oriented. Otherwise you have to wash blood. Not to throw. Even the bad luck.
Hey Sumpa! Would you like to stay at this library Only for half an hour!.
Okay. But where would you go!
No worries. This library isn't harmful to you.
Shahid uncle! O uncle! Take care of her. I am coming soon.
Where would the girl go, isn't acknowledged to Sumpa. Its such a hot day. Sun isn't scorching rather heating intentionally with agony. Does the Sun hate me! A petite! A financial shocked lady with destitute dress! Having no good shoes or good fitted out look! Does the world also justify me like the sun! The whole Universe!
Hello Pretty! Do you need any drinks!
No thanks!
Never mind. If you feel thirsty tell me! I will let you drink me! Nutritious liquid!
I am nit getting you.
I know. But you may sit near the table fan. Would you!
No. I am okay here.
Okay then. Can you help me knowing an information?
Sure.
How you know the girl! I mean with whom you have reached here now.
She is my roommate. But why!
No. Just asking. She is my regular customer here. In my library. I am a regular customer at her library.
But I Don't know about her Library!
Where is her library? Where located!
Inside herself. You wouldn't get it. Wiuld you read any book!
I have bought my textbooks. Is there any story boks available NOW!
Yes. But its about a romantic couple. Would you like to read it?
Whats the theme here?
About Brothel house.
What does it mean?
Nothing. Its better you sit near the fan!
No i said once before.
Okay. Then relax. Bye.
Would you follow her now?
If follow!
I am asking you Only.
Its better enjoy yourself sitting here. Bye.
Its true. Today is very hot. The weather is ferocious now.
Rojina! Stop here. I say stop here. Not a single more step!
Don't frighten me! I am not your slave. I say don't follow me. Never contact me! Are you getting me!
Okay! Let's sit and discuss properly.
I say, Don't follow me. You are making my life Hell. Don't make the pit of hell more bigger.
Rojina! I say lets sit in a private place like before.
It was my mistake to sit with you. I have paid my debts. Why you are now making my daily life such horrible! I am urging you!
Look! Its since five years. Today you can't finish it. Rather lets be together again.
Enough is enough! If need to sit, then fixed a day. I need to back my room today.
Whats wrong with today!
I have taken my roommate today and she is a junior. I can't make her wait for me such long time!
Okay. Its not a major issue. Tell her to go. I am sending my friend to pick her off.
You are always a bullshit. Just goodbye you!
Stop Rujina! Or I will tell everyone about your double name!
You rubbish. Motherfucker!
Sumpa and Nilu are now at the room. Both are tired. The room is very small and sun heat is hugging them tightly. The window is locked permanently. And the main door is not in a good situation to open it. As the kitchen is infront of it. The pill of the vegetables are rotten and spreading the odd smells.
Nilu Sis!
Yes, Sumpa. Are you angry with me!
Oo no! But the library cashier is not a good man I think.
I am not sure. What happened!
His words are very filthy!
Doesn't matter. I will see it. You better change your dress, get fresh, and have your lunch.
But!
Okay take meal with me today! You need not to cook now.
Thank you.
Its okay. But my recipe is Cat fish today with carrot and cucumber. Do you like it?
Yes. That much!
Good. Please take then.
What about you?
I am going to buy some toiletries. I forgot to buy. See you soon.
Its evening now. The holy Muslim prayer is done. The whole city wears a new mask now. But the coffee shop is opened now. It may continue since midnight.
Hey Rujina! I know you would come. Love you!
I am not here to love you! You know that.
Yes, but I.
Nonsense. You are expired. Don't you know this!
Its to you. But I want my Baby.
I see!
Yes. You can't abort it. Got me!
I will.
Shut up!
Its only 25days now. Before 30, i should kill it.
I will kill you!
Then easily it will be killed! Great! Kill me now.
Fuck this!
Fuck you Man. I am not anymore with you! I should hate you. Otherwise, I would be a culprit. A witch to that invalid embroy.
You are just crossing the level. If you hate me, why would call me in every single necessary stuff!
That time I needed YOUR assistance. You also got benefits from me. Not!
You said, " I hate you". You never told me you loved me. But staying with me since 4.5 years. Only six months you loved me. But I love you every single moment. It can't be my fault.
Its your fault! You can't hate me! Of Course, its a fault of you!
Stop Please!
You Know the story!
Which?
How I met him! And then what I did.
You Did Nothing. Its your plan to keep me away! Whats the benefits!
At least I would be able to relax myself. Your face is a vemon to my Heart. I don't want to drink it! Leave me.
What the hell you are talking!
Otherwise I will kill your Seed! Would you like it then!
Oo no! You are always a bitch! A witch!
Hush! No sound. You are such a weak that you love a bitch. Unable!
Rujina Listen! I have helped you a lot. Who else helped you like me! They just passed time! But you gave priority over them. Did they do That what I!
I will tear your Tongue!
I am able. I have given you the satisfaction first! You cried!
I say stop! You fucked your Mother! Didn't you!
Hey! Just control your words.
Motherfucker! Bugger!
The moon is so soft! So beautiful! So calm! How a creation can be such perfect! Is the moon Happy! Or sad!
Ruji sis! Are you crying?
No Mrinali. I am not crying. You haven't slept yet!
No. Tomorrow is my term test. But i am not ready. So thinking to drop.
Never do this. Its such problematic. Sleep and at morning attend it.
Not sure. Where did you and Sumpa go today?
At the library. And you such early!
To a friend.
Boy!
No!
Then!
Girl.
I see. Who is that! And when you left the side!
That day, when i got cheated.
I am scared now.
Don't worry. You and Sumpa are free from my touch! I promise.
Sure!
Yes. But we can shift Sumpa to that junior group. She doesn't deserve the hard situation here.
I am also thinking that. She is such a kid.
Okay. Then next month is okay I think.
Another room is also okay for her. But going there she would start to hate us.
Whatever!
True. She would in safe zone.
That means she is going to be shifted to Punno's room!
Absolutely.
That would really be better for her. But we need to talk to her.
No need. She has no roommate now. So anyone can take a seat there.
Thats great.
But...
You catch it. I need to take Her here!
My God. Don't do this. It would really be horrible!
I will pull curtain. And only oral. Nothing sexual! Trust me.
I Don't know anything. Believe me!