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Chapter 3 - chapter: 3 I have to control my feelings for him

Senior and me reached our classroom. One familiar voice called me and I see Sheeba is calling my name. " Bency, come here". I saw senior is speaking with his classmates and I went to my seat. I am just staring my cotton candy, suddenly a girl approached him and they are chit chatting about something. Which made my blood boil. I just look away and turn my head to the left side. Again it's Tom who is staring me. "Hey, Tom". "Hello Bency". I smiled at him and he did the same.

After few minutes, Seniors asked us to sit according to the group. Senior came to me and asked me to sit in the last bench. I did what he said. Now, Tom and me were silently sitting like coconut heads hoping for senior to come because everyone started to prepare for Freshers day function. Finally senior entered the class with that girl. She is so annoying and they two approached us. "So, guys let prepare for our program, hope you guys do good". He smiled at us after saying. I look at Tom he kept his pocker face so I just spoke. "Yes senior we will do our best". He nodded and smiled.

He said that we have to give speech and there will be also debate. After explaining everything and he asked us is there any doubt with it. I asked him something which make his face red due to anger. " senior, who is she? I saw you with her often". His reply make my heart broke into a million pieces. " she is my girlfriend and Ms.Bency is this is important here? Don't take over advantage because I won't be smooth like butter in every situation. Behave yourself, I need discipline in work got it". This words make me teary but I just nodded and apologize to him. Why this world is cruel to me? senior is committed, having beautiful girlfriend and me who is born unlucky. Eventhough I tried to control my tears, I lost in it. Tears slowly escaping from my eyes and it is noticed by Tom.

" Bency and Tom go to Library. Choose best books and come fast here. I will be waiting for you and I can't help you because it is order from our department but I can guide you. You guys may go now and come within twenty minutes."

we two quickly rushed to library. So, we have to prepare for a speech. Tom's speech is about Shakespeare and mine is about Samuel Coleridge. I took my book and I am waiting for Tom. "Bency help me there are more books which can I take, any suggestions?" I scanned those books and I preferred him one book. He just nodded and I walked to the exit door, but suddenly someone grabbed my wrist. I turn back to see who is it. It is Tom. " what's wrong with you let us go. senior is waiting for us".

"why you cried in our classroom?"

"me? no I didn't". " stop lying buffalo, don't act silly". " let's move Tom it's already late". I just keep on ignoring it and ended with saying the truth. " so, you are in love with him" I just nodded facing the ground. " Are you blind Bency, he is committed". " stop it Tom. Today only I come to know that he is committed". " Is just one day is enough for you to fall for him. How you can trust a man by seeing him, without knowing anything about him". I let him speak because he is correct. I am just coconut head who don't deserve his words. "Bency, don't shed tears for silly reasons, I am always with you, be free." I smiled at him and hugged him tightly without any hesitation because I got hurt more by senior. Tom's word are just comforting me. "Thank you Tom". He smiled at me and we exit the library and made our way to classroom. we are on our way to our classroom but thoughts are hitting in my mind. I just want to control my feelings for him. But how I can ? I am just loving him madly. No Bency don't overthink you can stop it. Don't lose yourself. keep fighting.

Chapter: 4

I am sorry Bency, please forgive me. please forgive your cold senior. I promise I won't repeat it again - to be continued.