"so...do you want me to go and kick his ass?"
I knew that after hearing the whole story, Jenny will react in the same way.
"No, you don't have to," I told her by giving her a serious look."
"Then, how will you face everyone at your college? If you won't do anything to that cheater then everyone will think that you are a coward or you are nothing in front of him so you can't fight back. do you want that? huh?"
"I just want peace...I don't want any mess in my life from now on. I want to forget it just thinking that it was a very bad nightmare. Actually, yes! I am afraid to face him and I am afraid that he may give me a stupid excuse and I may again fall for him or I am afraid that he will officially break up with me in front of everyone and make fun of me if I meet him again..."
I don't know why but I wanted to cry again. My heart wasn't satisfied with last night. I started to cry.
"Then don't you want to make things clear between you two? Look, it is necessary to make things clear in life so that you won't regret them later on."
what jenny said was true but I don't want to make things clear. I want this thing to be unclear between us. I am afraid that I have to face the bitter truth if I will try to make things clear. I know that he is done with me. I noticed it before few months. There is nothing that has to be more clear than this.
"No! I don't want things to be clear and I want to move on. Take me with you. I won't go to school from today. I will repeat the same class next year."
Jenny was drinking water. she became shocked that she choked after hearing me.
"What did you say? you said a lot of things that I didn't hear you properly."
I left that room and went to the bathroom.
"Kaia, Kaia, I got a ticket for you. I have decided to take you with me. Is that cool? open the door."
I opened the door and was very touched that she is helping me without any hesitation. I hugged her and said," thanks, sister."
"ahh! don't tell me, sister. I already told you that I am not that older than you. I will cancel the ticket."
"ok...ok..."
I said to nana to have a break unless I am out of this place. Jenny talked with my school's chief about my dropout.
I went with her leaving everything behind. I love to start over, I love to travel or I am afraid to face the challenge in my life, or I love to run away rather than face difficulty in my life. I bought a new phone. I am ready to run away.
After one year...
"it's a new year, let's celebrate."
"jenny, you enjoy. I will be back."
I have moved on. It's not that I have forgotten everything but still, I feel no pain like before. Today is his birthday and it doesn't matter to me.
I can show you more proof that I have moved on.
" Jenny, I want to go back to my home."
"What? are you sure? Will you...be fine?"
"fine? I will be super fine and I am going to resume school as well. I don't want to be illiterate for my whole life."
"Okay, then I will come with you."
" no need to. I will go by myself and jenny I am thankful to you. you are a true friend."
" Will you make me cry now?"
"Stop it now, I have a flight tomorrow at noon, so let's say goodbye as I won't be able to meet you."
" it's okay, I will take a leave for tomorrow."
"no, I will be fine. Now leave this matter let's go and celebrate the new year."
"Okay."
I finally reached my home. I will go to school to fill up some documents needed for resuming my studies. I will be a year behind them and I think I can go to school now.
"Knock, knock... sir may I come in?"
"umm, it's you again. wanna resume?" the chief was looking at me and I could not see in his eyes. I was so embarrassed to say my reason to leave school. I was afraid as well, as I know that I am not on the good side of the chief.
I slowly said," yes chief."
"ok, from tomorrow our new session is starting so, join that."
I was so shocked that he didn't ask me any questions. He said me to join without an entrance exam. I think Ali said everything to him about the party...No, no, no, if he knew the reason then he will never let me join this school.
I already have all the required books.
I have notes of the previous year as well but I didn't give the final exam. I think this year I can score good marks. let's focus on a study from now on. I am ready for tomorrow.
Today is the first day of my school. I am happy to start again and a bit nervous. Thank God I am on time. I can see new faces. I feel like this is the first time I came to this school. Although I look a bit older than freshers. I am a bit embarrassed.
At our recess, I didn't go anywhere thinking that we may cross our path. After some months they will graduate. I will try to keep myself as far as possible from them. I am very hungry because I didn't have my lunch to avoid them.
I went out to eat by passing out my class. I went to the cafeteria. And I met him on my way. I am the actual example of an unlucky person. I avoided him for the whole day and in the end, he saw me very easily. Lina was with him. I acted like I didn't see them and turned around. I rushed towards my class. The teacher was shocked by looking me out of the class. I eventually managed to give him a lame excuse and entered the class.
It's a holiday and I remembered about my old days. I use to clean the classroom after the holiday. I was very happy at that time. Suddenly, Ali appeared in front of me.
"look at here girls, who is back...well I missed you so much."