CHAPTER 1
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Rosie pov,
As the sun set, the darkness began to obscure the brightness of the sky.. I got new project to work as a designer due to my constant effort and hardwork for the past one and a half years.. Suddenly today afternoon MD informed me to present my work infront of investors...After presenting the project, i left office quite lately..
As I was walking, I pulled my sweater over my chest and hugged myself to avoid shivering which is caused due to heavy cold..Even cold make me freeze still i love it..thatswhy i choose to come ooty..Actually its my dream to stay ooty with varun..I always dreamed to have family with varun..We all know that our dreams are not going to come true yet we don't stop dreaming..Because it give us happiness and hope to live our life.. Even it is fake, still its give reason for us to live..
After 15 minutes of walking, I reached near my hostel..Thatswhere I am staying now, leaving my family and friends..
I don't want see anyone from my past life especially my friends, it only remind him..I don't want him to know about my whereabouts..I wish not see him upto my last breath..My presence only make him to lose his happiness..I only gave him pain..Not only for him, No one lived happily because of me.. I made everyone suffer..Maybe God has made me live alone for the sin I have committed.. I deserve to be alone.. I only deserve pain..
"It means your not going to see him again, then why your stalking his Instagram and Facebook.." My mind asked me..
Yes..I can't even pass single minute without thinking or seeing him thatswhy I stalked his Instagram and Facebook account to know about his life..My phone gallery is filled with his picture..My day start and end after viewing his picture..I love him madly, thatswhy I did everything..Even after knowing, it will hurt my family..
"Are you regretting now" My mind asked me again..
No, I don't regret it..
I did it for my love..
For my love, I forcibly married him ..
On the way to my hostel room, I heard priya voice who is calling me by my name..
"Rose..Rose.."
By hearing her voice, I turned and saw her who is running towards me..She came near me and extend her hand with our room key and told me,
"Here keep this key..I am going out with my friends.."
I nodded and took the key from her hand.. I heard her voice again when I turned to go to my room..
"Are you coming with me ??"
I looked at her in amazement that no matter how hard I talk to her, still she was talking friendly with me..She is my roomate..we both are sharing same room..Actually she is good and friendly type girl..Always try to talk with me friendly..but I only reply her with one word..because I don't want to mingle with anyone..I was born to live alone because of my selfishness..
"Oyee..Again gone to dreamworld ".. Priya asked me in a teasing tone...
"No..I am not coming".. I replied her in plain tone and gone to my hostel room without waiting for her reply..
After cleaning my face, I planned to take little nap before dinner..
Ring..Ring..
Hearing the ringtone of my mobile, I got up from the bed and attented the phone call while thinking who it is.. Call coming from private number..No one from my past life know this number..
"Hello..who is this??" I spoke
"Come outside, i want to talk you"..I heard reply from other side of phone..
No..It can't be him..How he got my number ??..What he want to talk now??..Already I signed divorce paper then what he want to discuss now ??..Without waiting for my reply, he cut the call..
May be his marriage is fixed so he came to invite me for his wedding..
"Idiot..He hate you then why he have to invite you for his wedding..Did you forget that how much he hate you ??"..my mind mocked me
Yes..thats correct, he hate me.. then why he came here..
After closing my room door.. I start to go outside to see him..As I walking on the corridor, Bhami akka called me by my name..
"Rosie..Rosie"..
"Yeah..why you called me" I asked her little rudely because I don't like her..
"Today I went to hospital, again they told me to reduce my weight..You know, Already i am looking slim, still doctor advising me to reduce some more weight to conceive child..Even for me this situation means think about you??.. You looking very fat, try to reduce your weight then only you will get chance to marry" she said and went inside her room without waiting my reply..
Whats her problem if I'm looking fat means..yeah..what your thinking is correct.. I'm a fat girl.. Overweight girl with 80kg weight and fair skin tone..May be thatswhy, Varun don't like me..Here i am looking like ugly duckling but he look like an model who came out from magazine...When compare to him, i am zero..
Ring..Ring..
Again that same private number..It means him.. Let go and see why he came here..
After reaching near hostel gate, I searched for him.. Where is he??.. Except watchman no one is here..May be its some frank call.. I misunderstood it as him..Why should he want to meet me !!..Again I start to dream like a fool..Anyway, lets go back to the room ..
With these thoughts, I turned to go back hostel, Suddenly someone held my hand and pulled me towards to them..Due to sudden impact, my back landed on that person chest..I was taken aback and shuddered by sensing his fragrance..Its him..My varun..My love..He made me to face him and asked in a harsh tone..
"Where are you going??"
Due to our closeness, I can feel his hot breath on my face..Why he was standing too closely ??..I know he hate my presence .. I heard his voice again as I was thinking that Is I'm dreaming or what..
" Where are you going ??"..
"ho..ho..hostel" I replied him with Stutter..
"Oh!!..but..Who told you to back to hostel ??.. Didn't I ask you to come outside ?? ..Anyway, Come.. Lets go.."
After saying it, he start to walk while dragging me with him.. I tried to remove my hand from his grip..but no use..He held my hand tightly in his grip.. Where he was taking me??.. This time, i did nothing..After 2 year, now only I'm seeing him directly then what did i do now ??.. I have to ask him..Yeah, Ask rosie..
"Va..va..varun".. I called him with hesitation ..
But he keeps walking regardless of my calling..What he is doing??.. Can't he hear that i am calling him !!..
"VARUN"..this time I called him little loudly..
He stopped walking and turned my side and asked with irritation,
"What..??"
"Where are you taking me.??" I asked him in a low tone
"My home"...he answered in a hard tone..
His home ah ??..but why ??..Already his family hate me then why he is taking me there ??..
"Hello madam..Don't start to dream..First tell me what's your name"..he asked in formal tone..
I was shocked why he was asking my name..Does he don't even remember my name ??.. I was consfused..what's happening here!!
"Hello.. I am asking you..what's your name?"he again asked without patience..
"Ro..Rosie".. I answered with hesitation
"You mean Mrs.Rosie Varun"..he asked me with a smrik..
"What !!..No.. We are divorced.. So my name is rosie" I replied him with swither..
"Who told you that we are divorced"..he asked me with same smrik..
"But i signed divorce paper before coming here, then how can we not be divorced now..Don't you submit it to the court ??".. I told and asked him with confusion..
"DON'T DARE TO ASK ME THIS QUESTION GUNDU (fatty)".. Suddenly he raised his voice and start to shout in harsh tone.."WHAT YOU ARE THINKING ??.. I AM HERE TO TALK YOU LOVELY..DON'T EVEN DREAM ABOUT IT..I JUST HATE YOU..WHENEVER I SEE YOU, I JUST WISH TO KILL YOU.. YOU SPOILED MY LIFE..JUST BECAUSE OF THAT STUPID DIVORCE, I AM HERE..BEFORE GETTING DIVORCE WE HAVE TO LIVE IN SAME HOUSE FOR 6MONTH..THEN ONLY WE CAN GET DIVORCE..DON'T YOU KNOW THAT ??..JUST COME WITH ME..STAY IN MY HOUSE LIKE A DUST FOR 6 MONTH..DO YOU UNDERSTAND it??
"Ye..Yesss"..I replied him with a stutter..
Again..Again.. his words ringing in my ears..GUNDU..GUNDU
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CHAPTER 2
Rosie pov,
"Lets go" He said and start to walk..
After reaching his car, he opened the front door of car and made me to sit on the passenger seat of car forcibly..
Ugh !!.. My bag... Its in my hostel room.. Nothing much in that bag, just some my old clothes which I taken with me when I came to ooty..
I saw him got into the car through driver seat.. Ask rosie.. Ask him about bag.. Rosie, Be confident and ask him boldly.. I motivated myself and called him..
"Va.. Varun"..
"What" He asked me with irritation..
"My bag is in the hostel.. My dresses are in that bag.. May I go and pick it up ??" I asked him in a soft tone..
He thinked for some time and replied in hard tone,
" Yeah go and bring it soon.. I don't want to spend my money for useless thing like you"..
It would be a complete lie If I say his words didn't hurt me.. Its hurt a lot.. Unknowingly, my tears start to flow.. He shouldn't see my tears, therefore I tried hard to control my tears.. More I tried to control my tears, more it starts to flow constantly.. I have to get down from this damn car..
I got out from his car and start to go hostel to get my bag while wiping my tears.. All this time, I don't even look at his side.. If i look at him, then surely i will break down more.. Anyway, my tears don't going to change his heart which is already overflowed with hate for me..
After entering inside the hostel room, I start to pack my dress and other necessary things.. Within 5 minutes, I packed everything.. I took the bag in my hand and walk out of the hostel room and locked the hostel room..
When I was about to walk out of hostel, I remember that I have to handover room key to hostel warden.. Therefore, I went to see hostel warden and informed her that i am vacating and also handovered hostel key to her..
After finishing hostel vacating formalities, I reached near his car and heard his voice who talking with his mother on the phone..
"Yes mom.. I understand.. I know you guys also hate her but what can I do.. To obtain divorce, I have to do this.. Yeah.. Don't worry mom.. I know how to handle her.. Yeah, after 6month we don't need see her useless ugly face.. Mm.. okay Mom.. bye"..
After listening his word, I don't have strength to walk anymore.. I sat on the pavement of road and start to cry as much I want.. Its okay rosie.. Its okay rosie.. Don't cry.. Be confident.. You already know he hate you, then why you are taking his words seriously.. Leave it.. You are going to stay with him just for a 6 month.. After that, you can come back here.. Stand up.. Try to smile rosie.. After controlling my emotions and tears, I went near his car and got into the car through back seat and stared outside because I don't want to see him.. Its not mean that I hate him.. I just don't want to see his hate..
As I was immersed in my inner thoughts, I heard his voice..
" Gundu come and sit front"
Whenever he call me gundu, it hurt me so much.. Anyway, I knew very well that he is using the word "gundu" just to hurt me..
"N..no...Its okay, I will sit here".. I replied him..
After giving me "one angry look", he got out of car and came and sit near me on the back seat of car.. Why he is sitting in back seat of car !!.. Then who will drive the car !!..
While I'm thinking busily who will drive the car, I felt his hand around on my waist.. He pulled me to his side before I could react or look back at him..
I tried to move out from his grip but his grip around my waist was very strong.. While I was trying to get out of his grip, Suddenly he lifted my chin and kissed my lips and tried to enter his tongue inside my lips but I didn't open my lips.. I was totally shocked by his unexpected move.. I was sitting there like an statue..
He roamed his hands over my neck, bosoms and wherever his hand touching.. I shivered in his slow yet killing touch.. I gasp when he pinched my waist.. He used it as an opportunity and enter his tongue inside my lip and kissed me roughly.. I felt like it was a punishment not a kiss.. I don't kissed him back.. I sit there like an statue.. Let him do, whatever he want to do.. I began feel to suffocate due to lack of oxygen, after noticing my difficulty in breathing, he left my lips..
He stared at me with a smrik while rubbing his thumb on my shivering lower lip and said,
"Come and sit in the front seat.. Otherwise, I don't know what will I do.. You know what I meant it.. If i start it now then I don't stop it until you beg me"..
ENOUGH.. I can't listen it anymore..
"Stop.. Stop.. I will come".. I replied him and hurriedly settled in the front seat..
I stared outside and thinked why he kissed me.. I knew it very well that he hate me, then why he suddenly kissed me.. Its our first kiss.. In college time whenever we made love, I have tried to kiss him but he never let me do it..
Oneday I asked him " Why he is not kissing me while we are doing it"
For that, he replied in harsh tone "he will kiss only his real wife not some ugly bit*h like me"
After hearing his words, I understood that he is just using me to fullful his lust and at the same time he is punishing me in the sexual way for the mistake I had made..
After that, I don't expect anything from him.. Whenever he call me, I will go to his room and allow him to fullfull his lust.. For me, my husband making love to me.. But for him, I am bit*h who he is using to release his lust..
Again same doubt arised in my mind.. Why he kissed me today all of sudden !!.. Don't rise your hope rosie.. Atlast you only get hurt.. While thinking about all this, sleepiness covered my eyes.. As a result, I fell asleep.. Only sleep can make you forget everything.. So I love to sleep, it make me to forget every pain which I am going through in my life..
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CHAPTER 3
Rosie pov,
"Hey Gundu.. Get up.. Hey gundu.. Get up"
I hear someone voice near me.. Who is that ??.. It sounds like varun voice.. Why he is distrubing my sweet sleep !!..
"HEY GUNDU.. GET UP NOW"..
After hearing shouting, I opened my eyes and looked around me in shock while wiping my drool... Why I'm in the car??.. Whose car is this ??.. As I was wondering where I'm now, I saw his face.. My love.. My varun who is hovering his face over mine.. He pecked my lips and told me in a soft tone,
"Come inside quickly.."
And then he went inside his house without waiting for me..
That's when reality banged on my mind.. My mind rewind all the memories whatever happened 3 hours ago.. May be this is his home.. Its a beautiful home included with garden.. I like his home.. I miss my home and family.. Sorry appa(father),amma(mother) and anna(brother).. Forgive this stupid..
After taking my bag from car, I begin to go his home.. As I was walking, only thought eroded my mind constantly.. Will his mother allow me to enter their home or tell me to sleep outside??..
By shooking my head, I pushed away my thoughts and reached near front door.. I was waiting someone to call me inside but no one is there.. I don't see anyone inside or outside the house.. Can I enter the house without asking permission!!.. What if they chase me out..Oh my god!!.. What to do now ??.. Lets wait outside.. Yes.. Let's wait..
As I was waiting outside, the night time cold breeze constantly brushing and passing me smoothly.. And at the same time the fragrance of flowers which are waiting to bloom spread happiness in my heart.. Past one hour, I was waiting outside by sitting in his house front steps while admiring his garden.. One hour has passed, Yet no one asked me to come inside the house.. Is he staying alone in his house ??.. What to do!!.. Let's go back to Ooty.. But what will i say him If he asks me why I left his house without informing him.. I know very well about his anger If I go from here without informing him, then surely he will kill me.. Yeah.. Thats sure.. Its better to wait here than die in his hand..
All of Sudden, all the light went off and darkness enveloped around me.. God!!.. Why the suddenly ligts are turned off power ??..I searched my mobile in darkness with a fear.. As I was searching my mobile around me in darkness, I heard a voice near me..
"What are doing here??"
"Ahaa!!.. God!!.. Save me"
I shouted and placed my hand on my chest and closed my eyes tightly in the fear.. Did he bring me to ghost house to kill me ??.. I tightly closed my eyes and start to murmur myseld
"Jesus save me.. Jesus save me"
As I was praying in fear, I heard laughing sound near me.. While hearing laughing sound, I opened my eye halfly and saw the light come back on.. I opened my eyes fully and turned to see who.. Its Varun..
Noticing my stare, he looked at me with teasing smile and asked,
"What are you doing here??"
Before hearing my reply, he told me again,
"Anyway, come.. Lets go"..
He held my hand and dragged me to his home.. Actually its two storey building.. Ground floor had hall, 2 bedroom,dinning hall and kitchen.. And first floor had one bedroom and hall.. Before seeing his house fully, we reached inside his room.. Wow.. His bedroom looking beautiful with fantastic interior design.. His room looking beautifully as how I like.. His bedroom contain queen size bed with nightstand on both side , a sofa set, a vanity set, three layer wardrode and also the study table near to the door.. I really like his room a lot..
"Can you tell me single things which you don't like in him" My mind whispered me..
My varun is perfect in everything.. If we truly love someone then none of their flaws are visible to our eyes.. Even their flaws look beautiful for us..
Anyway, Why I am in his bedroom ??.. Is he not going to give me a separate bedroom??.. What will i do??..Where will I sleep ??.. Ofcourse he don't allow me to sleep in his bed.. And also its a queen size bed, So it will be difficult for both of us to sleep comfortably without touching..
After thinking for a few minutes I came to a conclusion.. Let's sleep in the floor.. Yepp!!.. Let ask him just a bedsheet and pillow!!.. After 6 month, I can sleep in bed.. Yeah!!.. Its perfect idea.. Let's ask him.. But, where is he ??..
That's when I saw him who is already laying in the bed and looking at me with smrik..
"Va.. Varun" I called him in soft tone..
"Yeah" He replied casually..
"Can you give me a bedsheet and pillow" I request him with a smile..
After thinking few seconds, he said with grin..
"Okay.. Close the door and come here.. I will give it to you"..
"Okay" I replied with smile..
After keeping my bag near to the sofa, I went to close the door.. After locking the door, I went near to him.. He just looked at me with some unknown emotions..
"Whatever it, you just get bedsheet and go to sleep".. my mind reminded me
"Varun.. Bedsheet" I asked him
"Yeah..I forgot..Here take it" he extend his hand to give me bedsheet, I went little close to him to get it..
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Instead of giving me bedsheet, he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him.. Due to sudden spasm, I landed on him.. In a swift second, he made me lay on the bed and hovered me..
I was under his body by the time I thought about what happened here.. I tried to get up but he was not ready to move even an inch..
"Varun.. Leave me what are you doing??" I asked him as I tried to get up..
"What I am doing??.. You will know and feel when I am doing it".. He replied in husky voice..
Suddenly he kissed my lips passionately.. Its was sweet yet alluring kiss.. I felt like he was conveying his love through kiss.. I also kissed back him with same passion.. Within second, he removed my clothes and his.. Before processing anything, he entered inside me and stay still without moving and hugged me tightly in the way there is no gap between us.. He stroked my hair and tenderly kissed me and whispered in my ears " I miss you Gundu.. I miss your lovely body"..
When I heard his words, I felt alive again.. I felt like I got reasons to live my life again.. I felt my heart beating faster again after tired of so many disappointments.. I carved so much for his love.. I carved for his smile.. I carved to see his glare.. I carved to see this smirk.. I carved for his touch.. I carved to hug him tightly.. Now i got it.. I got his love after so many hurt,insult and pain.. Again, I am ready to endure all pain for his love
I felt like I want shout and tell whole world my varun missed me.. Yeah.. May be my varun is in love with me.. Varun love Rosie.. Its enough for me.. His love is enough for me..
As I was moaning his name again and again, he continued his attack on my body.. In his each thrust, I felt my toes curled up in pleasure.. After our first round, he increased his speed.. Slowly pleasure begin fade and pain start to rule over my body.. I felt unbearable pain due to his each violent thrust.. So i tried move away from his grip but he locked me under his body by his tight grips on my both hips.. He continued his pace further without minding my pain..
"Varun.. Please slow down.. Its paining"... I said with whimper..
"What its paining!!.. What you did to me is more painfull than this" He said in a angry tone..
Thats it.. Again he broke my heart.. How many time, he will broke my heart.. He just trying to hurt me using this.. Thatsall.. No love.. Nothing.. Its his way of giving punishment.. After that i don't tried to stop him.. I cried silently for my stupidity.. Let him do whatever he want.. But, suddenly he slow down his pace and moved slowly with care.. He leaned towards my face and kissed all over my face and also he kissed my tears and said in a soft tone,
"Don't cry Gundu"..
I know.. Again he was trying to break my heart by giving little hope.. So I don't replied him.. Just cried silently. .After few rounds, he left my body and lay beside me.. Everything was over.. I tried to get up from the bed but he hugged me tightly and snuggled his face on nape of my neck and told me in a hard tone..
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"You have to sleep in this bed with me for 6 month.. Its your punishment for destroying my life.. Do you understand it gundu ??".. I nodded and cried silently..
After few minutes, I fell asleep in the exhaustion.. Before falling into deep slumper, I heard his voice,
"Love you pondati (wife)"
And I felt kiss on my forehead.. Again I'm thinking something stupidly may be its some dream..
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CHAPTER 4
Rosie pov,
Ring... Ring..
Hearing my phone ringtone, I wake up and tried to get up from the bed.. Because of body pain, I get up from bed with difficulty..
Varun.. Is he animal ??.. What he done to my body.. Everywhere full of his bite marks..what to do with him ??.. Why he was behaving like this ??.. He hate me na ??.. Then why he is touching me ??.. Even forcing me to sleep in this small bed.. Damn bed.. I couldn't even able turn while sleeping...Everything is confusing as hell.. Let's leave that topic and attend the phone call.. Call from office.. What will I tell them ??
After picking up the call, I answered
"Hello sir.. Good morning"
"Good morning dear.. Why u don't came office.. Is everything okay ??" Sir asked me from other side of phone..
"Sir.. Actually due to some problem i came to my hometown.. Can you give me 6 month leave after that I will come.. Please sir its urgent"..
As I was talking on the phone, unexpectedly varun snatched phone from my hand.. He is standing infront of me only wearing towel around his waist.. Water droplets are still in his hair and body.. oh!!.. Is he came directly from bathroom after his bath without even drying his body!!.. I blushed like a fool after seeing him in towel.. Even we did it many times, still I can't control redness which is spreading around my cheek
"Rosie.. Don't drool over him.. Control"... My mind remind me..
Yes.. I should control myself..What he is talking with sir??.. With these thinking, I start to focus on his talking..
"Yeah uncle, everything is fine.. No.. She don't come back.. Yeah.. I will send her resign letter through mail.. Okay uncle.. Bye"...
After speaking all this, he cut the call without minding my protest..
I was hell shocked..When sir became this uncle??.. Why he is doing this??.. Where will i get another job ??.. What will I do after 6 month ??.. Without job, how will I pay my hostel rent??.. After facing so many struggles, I got this job.. While thinking about all the problem I faced in last 2 years.. I got angry.. Who give rights to him to do this !!...
"VARUN.. WHY YOU DID THIS??.. AFTER 6 MONTH WHAT WILL I DO??.. HOW AND WHERE I WILL GET ANOTHER JOB EVEN WITHOUT DEGREE ??.. DO KNOW HOW I GET THIS JOB AFTER FACING SO MUCH STRUGGLES ??.. I LOVED YOU TRULY FOR THAT I DID MANY MISTAKE.. I KNOW WHAT I DID IS WRONG.. BUT I DID IT FOR MY LOVE..PLEASE FORGIVE ME.. I WILL NOT BE A BURDEN IN YOUR LIFE ANYMORE.. AFTER GETTING DIVORCE, I WILL GO FROM HERE.. PLEASE DON'T BREAK ME ANYMORE.. PLEASE"..I shouted furiously and cried ..
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While looking directly at eyes, he start to walk towards me and sat in the bed near to me..
Is I over reacted??.. Is he going beat me??.. I look down and gulped the thump formed on my throat..
He held my chin and made me to look at him.. Then he pulled my chin towards his face and told in playfull tone,
"Lets see how much you love me"..
Before processing his word, he removed bedsheet which is covering my body and pushed me on bed.. l lie down on the bed nakedly due to his push.. Even we had sex many time, still he don't seen me naked..I don't want to see disgust in his eyes, So I closed my eyes.. I loath myself.. I know he will mock me after seeing my body.. I felt his touch on my thighs.. He separate my thighs using his and extend it widely..
I know what he is planning to do.. What i told him??.. What he is doing now??.. Is he pshyco??.. Why he was behaving like this??
Then suddenly he pulled me towards him, keeping one hand my back and other hand on back side of my neck.. In the shock, I opened my eyes and saw our position.. I was sitting on his lap and my legs were placed around his hip.. He pulled me up little and entered inside me in a swift motion.. I gasped and bite my lower lip to control my moan.. Abruptly he told me,
" Hug me tightly gundu.. I want to feel your warmth very close to me"..
I hugged him like he told and placed my head on his chest.. He also hugged me tightly and bited on my shoulder and told,
"Rosie.. Remember this always... Your mine.. Only mine.. Your body, Your soul, Your love, Your everything is only belong to me.."
After saying it, he start to move roughly.. And at the same time, he constantly kissed and licked my shoulder where he bited a while ago.. After three rounds, he laid above me and hugged me tightly while staying inside me.. At that moment, I was trying to catch my breath hustlingly.. Is he planning to kill me??..
"Gundu.. Gundu" He called me in a soft tone..
I don't replied him anything and shifted my glance to other side to avoid his stare.. Why still he is not moving away from my body !!.. Is he thinking to do it again!!
Out of the blue, he called me "Mrs.varun"..
Hearing his acknowledge about our relation, I was totally stunned and glanced at his eyes with my tear filled eyes.. But he pecked my lips and kissed my wedding chain (which is lying around my neck) asked me in a soft tone,
" For the last 2 years, you believed that we are divorced.. Then, why you are still wearing mangalyam( wedding chain) ??"..
I don't know, what to reply him..After knowing, we are divorced, I couldn't able to took off my wedding chain because its my identity as a married women.. Only thing which I have as his memories is my wedding chain.. How can I remove it ??.. My thoughts are pushed away by his voice again,
"Gundu.. You are Christian.. Then, Why you select hindus type wedding chain??.. Anyway, we are going to divorce in 6 months.. So, what's the use of wearing it anymore.. Quickly remove it and give me"..
Without having patience to listen my words, he tried to remove my wedding chain..
"Varun.. Please stop.. Please don't remove it.. I'm begging you, let me wear it.. Please".. I told him with tear filled eyes and tried to remove his hand from my wedding chain..
How can i remove it ??.. Its only thing which connecting him with me.. Its mine.. I will wear it upto my last breath.. He can't take it away from me.. Yes.. I was born and brought up in Christian family.. But i fall in love with varun who is from hindu family.. So i brought my wedding chain and get married to him in hindus way because I don't want him to change.. I want him as the way how he was.. But, he is thinking my love is my selfishness and foolishness.. According to him, I did everything due to my possessiveness and stubbornness..
"Ssh.. Ssh.. Gundu.. Don't cry.. Okay.. I'm not removing it.. Okay".. He told and removed his hand from wedding chain..
I just nodded and tried to control my tears..
"Gundu.. listen me you have to follow some rules here" He told in a strict tone..
Rules ah!!.. What it may be ??.. Anyway he was finding some more excuses to punish me further..
"When I'm talking with you, look at my eyes .. Don't bow your head like a child.. Okay"..
Aftet saying it, he just laughed and kissed my lips and told me with a smile,
"Your looking cute"..
I blushed hardly and stared at him like Aww... Is it true!!.. He called me cute.. Woah!!.. Am i dreaming!!.. My thoughts cut away by his voice..
"1. You have to call me sir.. Mainly in front of my parents..
2. You have to do all the household chores like Cooking, Cleaning..
3. You have to respect my parents.. And if they ask you to do something then you have to do without complaining.. Mainly call my parents as madam and sir..
4. If anyone ask, who are you...Why are you staying here, just tell them you are maid who is going to working here for 6 month..
5.Mainly before night 10 clock you have to come our room after finishing all work and you have wake up before 6 clock in morning and do all the household works..
6. Don't forget to take pill whenever we do sex.. I don't want to carry any other responsibility now...
Do you understand.. If you to dare disobey any rules then your punishment will be severe"
I just nodded as to reply him..
After hearing all this, I just want to cry.. I want to be alone.. I want to go far away from him.. I don't want be unwanted thing in his home.. He was planning to treat me like maid.. Why again again he is breaking my heart ??.. After whatever happened in morning, I thought may be he is trying to give chance to our relation.. But, What I thinked is wrong... He is again and again thinking how to punish me..
Knock..knock..
All of sudden, we heard knocking sound.. After hearing knocking sound, I laid on the bed numbly with the thought what will I do if anyone see us like this.. Therefore I tried to push him away and whispered,
" Varun, leave me"..
"Gundu don't move, see again you make me hard" he whispered back and start his move slowly.. I was bitting my lower lip hardly to control my moan..
"Anna (Brother).. .Come and have breakfast.. Amma (mother) called you" Someone shouted from outside.. Its manju voice.. His sister..
"Okay.. You go.. I will come..".. He shouted back while continuing his torture on my body.. With one last thrust, he left my body forcibly.. I stared at him with widened eyes.. He look at me with a smrik and get up from bed nakedly.. Without having little bit of shame, he start to dress up infront of me.. I blushed and moved my glance other side..
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"Blushing.. After hearing all his rules also your still blushing like fool.. Idiot.. He is thinking you as a maid.. I can't believe it.." my mind mocked me
"Gundu.. Get ready soon and come downstairs and don't forget to hide those hickeys" He told me with a wink and start to go downstairs..
Oh God!!... How i am going get up from this bed !!.. My whole body are paining like a hell.. I can't even able to move leg.. While biting my lower lip, I tried get up..
As I was trying to get up, In a flash second, I was in air..How!!.. Then only I noticed varun carrying me to bathroom.. How he was carrying me coolly like this.. oh god.. I will break his hand..
So I told him in low voice,
"Leave me, I can walk"..
He don't replied anything just carried me to bathroom.. After making me stand near the shower, he told me in normal tone..
" Take bath in warm water and come downstairs soon"..
I only nodded..
After taking bath in warm water, I felt little relaxed and my body pain start to subside.. Now I can walk without winching in pain..But why he carried me..?? Anyway I have to thank him.. I would not have reach bathroom with this pain if he not helped me..
"Did you forget it ??.. He only caused you this pain".. My mind mocked me
I blushed as I remembered our intimacy which happened in last night and this morning.. After suppressing my emotions, I got of bathroom and got ready to go downstairs..
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CHAPTER 5
Rosie pov,
After dressing up in Saree , I start to go downstairs.. As I about to reach last step, I heard his mom voice..
"Where is she ??.. Still sleeping ??.. What she is thinking ??.. I know how those type girl are ??.. Characterless girl ??.. Is her parents don't teach any good thing, thatswhy she did all those things to my son.. Because of her mannerless behaviour, I could not able to hold a wedding for you.. Many good family's are asking your hand for their very educated and beautiful daughters.. Still I couldn't able to do anything.. All this happening because of her.. Varun.. Speak with advocate once again.. Try to get divorce as soon as possible, I don't want to keep characterless girl like her in my home"
Varun nodded and replied like an obedient boy..
"Okay mom.. I will do as you say.. Don't get angry.. I will manage everything.. You don't need to worry about her "
Oh !!.. That's what they are thinking about me.. CHARACTERLESS GIRL.. How lowly his mom thinking about me, even he is not ready to support me.. Just listening his mom words silently..
"Why should he support you.. Don't you know he hate you" my mind remind me..
Yeah.. How can i forget it, he hate me.. He only bring me here to get divorce and to fullful his lust.. Again.. Again.. He proving me that how much he hate my presence.. Its okay Rosie.. Cheer up.. You have to manage everything for only 6 month.. Then u can go from here..
Sometime everything we do for our love end up as mistake in others point of view.. We will not stop doing it even if we know it is wrong in front of others point of view because we are doing for it for our love.. My thoughts pushed away due to his father voice..
"Malar don't talk like this.. She is also like our daughter.. Don't hate her for the small mistake she made"..
While hearing it, fresh tears slipped out from my eyes.. My father also like him.. Will always support me and would say to mom "Don't scold me"..
That day also he believed me and told everyone confidently..
"My daughter would never do anything like that"
And he asked me to tell everyone that they all misunderstood me.. But I stood there like statue while bowing my head because everything they said is true, I did it..
How can I say to my father that I did everything for my love ??.. How can I tell my father and make him understand my love when Varun, who knows the depth and intensity of my love, is not ready to accept me ??.. I did everything for varun.. After that, my father never spoke to me.. He even don't even scold me but he just stood there silently without saying anything.. That was the last day, I saw my father.. My thoughts break away by manju voice,
"Amma (mother).. What appa (father) telling is correct.. Don't scold anni.." Manju told her mother..
"MANJU.. DON'T DARE TO S.."
Before his mother could finish the whole sentence, manju noticed my presence and told me with a smile
"Anni (sister in law) come and sit, lets have a breakfast.. Today mom has made upuma.."
I wiped away my tears before anyone could notice and smiled while looking at manju and went near to dinning table.. Manju moved chair beside her and gesture me to sit in it..
When I was about to sit, I heard his mother voice..
"YA PUSANIKA (Pumpkin).. DON'T DARE TO SIT IN OUR FAMILY DINNING TABLE.. ITS ONLY FOR OUR FAMILY MEMBERS NOT FOR SOME UNWANTED CHARACTERLESS GIRL LIKE YOU.. Here take this plate, go and have your breakfast in kitchen.. DON'T DARE TO COME NEAR DINNING TABLE.. JUST GO AWAY.. I HATE TO SEE YOUR FACE A.."
Before his mother could complete the whole sentence ..
Suddenly varun laugh out loudly and told his mother..
"Mom.. Seriously you called her pumpkin.. haha.. haha.. Actually its suite her.. She is looking like an exact copy of pumpkin.. We can her call her kula pusanika( short pumpkin).. Kula pusanika is a perfect nickname for her.."
Hearing his word, his mother also start to laugh.. Only his sister and father looked at varun with a disappointment..
After listening his word.. I can't stand there..I feel difficult to breath there.. Therefore I ran to kitchen.. I cried thinking of his word..Why he is doing this??.. I have never asked him anything but at least can't he treat me respectfully infront of others !! .. He even teases my height.. I know I'm little short but still 5'2" is not that much short... Why they are insulting me using my physical appearance??.. Is i am looking so ugly??.. May be, thatswhy they are treating me like this.. If I had been beautiful, he would have loved me..
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CHAPTER 6
Rosie pov,
Suddenly someone touched my shoulder, I turned to look... Its manju.. She wiped my tears and told me in soft tone,
"Don't cry anni( sister in law).. Everything will be alright.. Believe me.. Now have your breakfast"..
After saying it, she extend her hand to give me breakfast plate.. Before I could reply her or get a plate from her hand, We heard his mother voice from dinning hall..
"Manju.. Tell her to eat little.. May be its will help her to reduce weight "
After telling it, Varun and his mother continued their laughing section.. After hearing their laugh, loud cry ripped right through my heart.. I cried loudly.. Manju hugged me and patted my back and told me repeatedly,
"Everything will be alright anni"..
Manju released me from her hug after my cries dried down and told me,
"Here have this food anni ( sister in law)"
"No.. I will have it later.. Your getting late for college.. So now you go and get ready to go college.." I replied her in assuring tone..
She nodded with a sigh and went to her room..
After keeping food in hotbox.. I went backside of kitchen and sat in square shape stone.. We don't understand the beauty of our parents love when we are with them, We will understand the beauty of their love after leaving them.. My mom would always tell me to eat more.. For that I would always reply her with frown,
"Mom i am already looking fat, still you are telling to eat more"..
My mom caress my cheek lovingly and reply in fake angry tone
"Rosie.. Stop saying you are fat.. You are looking healthy and beautiful" and then she would kiss my cheek lovingly..
Again fresh tears start to pour out from my eyes while remembering them.. I miss them.. I wish to see them again.. I wish to sleep in my mom lap again.. I wish to held my father hand again.. I wish to put silly fight with my brother again.. I wish to hear my mother scold again.. I wish to eat my mother prepared food again... I wish to go back my home.. My real home.. But I don't dare to do it.. Always I have seen love and proudness in their eyes for me, now I don't have strength to see disappointment and shame in their eyes.. I broke their trust.. My stupidity make my family humiliated before everyone..
After wiping my tears, I decided to search job.. Even low pay job means also okay..I can't eat their food freely.. Atleast I can give them money for food and rent.. Now i don't have much money.. After paying hostel fees for this month, I only have 20,000 in my bank account.. From that money I can give 10,000 rupee to varun for rent and food for 2 month..
For that, first i have to know, is there any bank near this area.. Let ask manju about bank details.. I have her number in my phone.. Where is my phone ??.. Yup, Its in his bedroom..
After deciding it, I enter into his home through kitchen door to go his room.. On the way, I saw his mom.. She told me to cook food for afternoon.. oh god!!.. How will I tell her that I don't know cooking..
Think rosie.. Think rosie.. Yup!!..First, somehow I have to go to bank and withdraw money from there.. After that, I can think about cooking.. Its good idea.. First to go bank, I have to get her permission to go outside.. Therefore I asked her in low tone,
"Madam.. Can U go market.. I need to buy something"
"Okay.. Go but have to come within one hour" She told me in ordering tone
"Okay madam".. I replied and went to his room upstairs..
After entering his room.. I searched for him but he is not in the room.. Where is he??..
"May be he went to office.. Even after breakfast incident, still you are expecting him to inform you about his whereabouts.. Don't forget that you are just a maid for him" My mind mocked me..
Yeah, How can I forget it.. Anyway, let's call manju..
"Okay.. Thank you for your help manju.. Yeah.. I will manage.." After talking with her on the phone, I cut the call.
Then, I took purse from the bag and went to bank and withdrawn 10,000 rupees from my account.. On the way back to home, I saw medical shop.. When I saw the medical shop, I remembered his words,
"Don't forget take pill"..
Anyway, I can't get pregnant.. Then whats the use of taking pill !!
"Sorry Mrs.Rosie Varun.. You can't get pregnant again"..
While remembering doctor word, tear slipped from my eye.. I placed my hand on my stomach over the saree and looked up at the sky.. I remembered all those memories which I buried deeply in my heart.. Still its hurting like a fresh wound.. Sorry baby, I couldn't able save you.. Please forgive your stupid mother.. After restraining my emotions, I reached his home..
After entering his home, I saw his mother sitting in sofa and watching tv.. Before she would noticing me, I tried to go his room but my bad luck.. I heard her voice as I walk behind her slowly..
"Hey girl.. Wait.."
I stopped walking and turned and looked at her.. Regardless of my look, She was staring at me from top to bottom with some kind of thoughts.. I could not figure out what she was thinking.. I stood in front of her hesitatedly.. After few seconds, she asked me,
" What's your name..??"
Why everyone are asking my name.. Yesterday her son asked and today she is asking..
"Rosie Madam".. I replied her
"Okay rosie.. Go and cook something for lunch.. For dinner, cook chappathi with egg gravy.. And one more thing you can call me aunty.. Now go and do your work.."
I nodded as to reply her and went kitchen to prepare the food..
Main problem is, I don't know how to cook.. What to do ??.. Think rosie.. Think.. Wow!!.. I got a fantastic idea.. I can cook with the help of youtube.. Wohoo rosie !!. Super idea.. You are great.. Let's cook..
After 2 hour, I prepared vegetable pulao with chicken gravy.. After cleaning all the mess which i created while cooking.. I planned to go his room to take some rest due to tiredness..
Therefore, I start to clean kitchen speedily but before completing it.. His mother came and ordered me to clean the whole house.. I feel like crying after hearing her next order.. But what to do.. I can't do anything against her right !!.. As per varun order.. Therefore I just agreed with her..
From past 15 mintues, I was cleaning his house.. Oh god!!.. I think i am going to die today.. Morning itself her son try to kill me.. Because of him, I still feel soreness between my leg and my body full are paining.. Now his mother trying to kill me by giving all those work.. Jesus, how I am going to live here for 6 month..
As I was lamenting to god, abruptly I heard voice behind me.. I was startled due to sudden voice and turned to see who.. It was his father who is standing in front of me and trying to control his laugh.. Is he heared everything!!.. I was embarrassed to face him.. So I bowed my head and looked at the floor to hide my embarrassed face..
"Oh.. sss.. sir.. I was cleaning.." I told while bowing my head down..
"I can see it marumagala ( daughter in law)" He said in teasing tone and continued,
"By the way, you can call me mama (father in law).. After cleaning this, go and take rest.. I will inform malar.."
"Okay sir.. But, varun sir told me to call you as sir.." I replied with hesitation
" Don't worry.. I will talk him about it.. You should call me Mama( father in law).. Its my order.. Okay.. You also like my daughter" His father.. Oops !!.. I mean.. Mama told me with a smile..
"Okay mama" I replied him back with a smile..
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CHAPTER 7
Rosie pov,
After cleaning whole house, I took little rest in his room..
Evening his mom called me and told me to prepare evening snacks and dinner..
Therefore, I went downstairs to prepare it.
After preparing food, I arranged dishes in dinning table and went back to kitchen to wash vessels..
After few minutes, As I was washing vessels, his mother came and informed me that everyone had their food and also asked me to have my food..
After replying her okay, I resumed to do my duty as a maid.. Almost I wind up all the work in kitchen.. Yet have some more dish to wash.. I haven't eaten anything since last night.. I feel so tried because of my constant fasting.. My tummy is pleading me to have food.. Even though, I decided to skip dinner again while rembering their morning insult..
Few more minutes Rosie.. After that, you can sleep.. I boosted up myself.. The smile spread across my lips while remembering about sleep.. I love to sleep..
I wrapped up all work and left kitchen.. Its was quite late at night.. After switching off the hall light, I went to his room..
As I entering his room, I saw him working something in his laptop seriously.. Therefore, I don't distrubed him.. I noted in my mind to give him money after freshening up.. After taking my night wear from my bag, I went into the bathroom..
After changing into night wear, I washed my face in wash basin and looked at my figure in mirror.. I'm imperfect in every way.. My eyes are small, My eyebrows are thick, My nose are little big.. I have full lips with pink colour, chubby cheek, short black neck, plumb and chubby body, big bosoms but varun would always say me " It perfectly made for his hand"..
I blushed and shook my head to push away unwanted thoughts.. Ugly fat body with full of flaws.. In college time, I tried to reduce my weight.. Therefore, I did several exercise and dieting but it don't worked out for me.. As a result, I lost hope and stopped doing all those exercise and dieting.. What's the use of thinking it now!!.. Lets go and sleep..
After exiting from bathroom, I saw varun who sitting in the bed and doing in his work in the lap without noticing my presence..
I have to give him money.. When will he complete his work !!.. Should I wait until he finishes his work or Should I call him now and give it !!.. I'm aready feeling sleepy.. Hence, I decided to call him now and give him the money, Then I can to go sleep without any worries..
"Va.."
As I began to call him, My mind reminded me,
"Oh..no.. Rosie, did you forget what he told in morning.. Call him sir"..
Yes... I totally forget it.. Thank god, At correct time you remind me.. Otherwise again he would have start to shout..
"Sir".. I called him
He keeps doing his work without even moving his glance from laptop regardless of my call..
Once again try rosie.. Yes .. Let's try once again.. I told myself and called him again,
"Sir"..
This time he turned his stare from laptop and asked me "what" by raising his eyes ..
"Sir.. Now I have only 10 thousand rupees.. So now keep this money for the food and rent.. As soon as I got the job, I will pay the rest of the money to stay here".. I told him and extend my hand to give him money..
Without saying anything, he took it from my hand.. After wishing him goodnight, I went to other side of bed to sleep..
After arranging pillow and comforter, I laid on bed as my back facing him..
"Lets sleep rosie".. I told myself and got ready to sleep..
Few minutes later, I heard him calling me.. I turned his side and looked at him with puzzle look and asked him,
" What ??.."
Silently, I waited for his reply but he looked at me without even blinking his eyes.. I was confused by his intense look.. Is there anything on my face !!.. With confusion, I tried to touch my face.. But unexpectedly, he moved closely towards me and hugged me while keeping his face on my neck.. He let out long sigh and kissed my neck and snuggled in it.. I feel tickling sensation when his moustache touched my neck.. So i tried to move away from him but he held me tightly..
Is he planning to do it??.. If he planning to do it means then surely I will die today.. Still, I feel aches there because of his constant torture.. Today I have to say him strictly to don't touch me..
"Will he listen you".. My mind asked me
But to my suprise, I hear his snore.. Is he fell asleep like this.. What happened to him !!.. Why he didn't tell meanything today !!.. Even he received money from me silently without scolding me.. I thought he will insult me.. Anyway, let's try move him..
Oh god !!.. Past 15 minutes, I was trying to move him from my body using different techniques.. Still, no use, he is not ready to move even little bit.. After trying some more time, I also fell asleep..
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CHAPTER 8
Rosie pov,
There is the famous line "The one thing that never changes is change ".. Last 2 year, I have always believed that I would never see varun again.. But, everything has changed.. I met him again and currently I'm living in his house.. I always dreamed to live with varun in his house.. Now my dream has come true.. Even its for 6 month, Its enough for me.. I will cherish this memories in my heart deeply.. At some point in our life, something unexpected will happen.. That can make our life upside down, but if we trust in ourself then we can move forward in our life with happiness..My thoughts are cut away by aunty voice..
"Rosie.. We are going marriage function, so you don't need to prepare lunch and dinner for us".. Aunty informed me with smile and went to get ready for marriage function..
Two months passed since I came to varun house.. Many things changed.. After that night, aunty didn't comment or insult me, she just tell me to do household works.. If i do something wrongly, she would teach me patiently how to do it.. As usual, I cook and do all the household work, Sometime aunty would help me.. Nowadays aunty talk with me casually, Sometime she would gossip with me about her neighbours..
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About varun, I only see him at night, morning he will go office and will return before 7.. Most of the day, he will have sex with me roughly and mark my body with his bite marks.. Some time seeing his bite marks I blush like fool.. But, sometime I cry because I know that he doing it to punish me and show how much he hates me.. He only talk with me while doing sex.. It is better to say that he will order than spoke.. His orders are "hug me tightly, kiss me back, look into my eyes, open your eyes, keep your legs around my waist, lay top on me,".. Sometime I feel like bit*h.. He was like a beast in the bed and I was his prey..
One night, I was taking a shower in the bathroom, usually I won't bath at night, that day while carrying water from outside, i slipped and fell down because of it my dress became dirty.. So after informing aunty, I came to his room to take bath.. After taking dress from my bag, I entered inside the bathroom.
After removing my wet dress, I turn on shower and stand below the shower.. Fresh and cold water dropping my body make feel relaxed and refresh.. All of sudden, I heard knock on the bathroom door.. I stopped shower and asked
"Who??"..
Then I heard varun voice,
"Open door, I have to take soap"..
I told him to wait and tied towel around me.. After taking soap in my hand, I opened bathroom door.. He caught my wrist and placed it around his neck because of it soap slipped from my hand.. Within second he removed my towel and carried me towards shower keeping my both leg around his waist.. I asked him in shock tone,
"What are your doing sir"..
He replied me with kiss on my lips fiercely and entered inside me without any foreplay.. I jerked due to pain and the tear slipped from corner of my eyes and mixed with water.. He started to move roughly inside me.. Many thoughts were running in my mind as I was enduring his torture.. When he turned on shower !!.. Is he came naked inside bathroom !!..
Out of the blue, I heard his husky voice..
"Gundu see down"..
I looked down and saw the shameless thing we are doing in the bathroom.. Due to his violent action, I bit my lower lip hard in pain and looked at him with tear filled eyes.. Without minding my tears and pain, he moved lips towards my ear and whispered in hateful tone,
"See how I'm taking you, for this only you married me forcefully.. Now I am doing it for you.. Then why your crying.. You should feel happy.. Do you think anyone will sleep with you after seeing your ugly face.. No one.. I know thatswhy you married me forcefully.. To get good fuck from me "..
Hearing his words, I felt shame.. My heart broked into uncountable piece and shattering all around me..
"Please varun.. Stop it... Please.. Don't talk like this..., I married you ...because I loved you...not for this....i wish to live with you...as your... wife...thatswhy.. I married you.. not for this...." i replied him in between my sobs..
"Oh.. You want to live as my wife.. Don't you know good wife will fullfill her husband needs??"
After saying it, he carried me to his room and laid down me on his bed.. He hovered and entered inside me again and told me in soft tone,
"Sleep gundu"..
I was confused how can I sleep like this, so i told him shyly
"Sir please remove it from my body"...
"No.. I wish to sleep like this today.. So, I don't want to hear any word from your mouth.. If you speak a word I will fuck you till morning"..
After that, I don't replied him anything.. But, suddenly he left my body and made me lie above him and told me with a warm smile
"Now sleep gundu "..
I nodded my head and fell asleep on his chest.. Next day morning, again he had sex with me..
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After that night, I confirmed that he is a sex addict.. If I tell anyone varun is beast in bed, no one will believe it, because for others, he is soft spoken and good boy.. Only I know his real face.. One day I hear his conversation with his mother..
"Mom.. Is she having food correctly".
After hearing it, I smiled like a fool whole day, even his mom asked me,
"Why I am smiling"..
"Nothing aunty" I replied and showed all my teeth widely to her..
Sometime I feel like, now I'm living my life as housewife like other married women.. But, Reality is different.. After 4 month, I have to go from here..
Anyway, today I have to go outside to search job.. Already 2 month passed, I have to pay for food and rent for remaining months.. But, problem is aunty not allowing me to go outside.. Many time, I asked her permission to go outside.. Everytime she would deny it and told me to ask varun about it.. After that, I tried to talk with varun many time.. Everytime, he would avoid me by saying some silly excuses..
I know he don't like me but atleast he can try to listen what I am going to tell.. After trying lot of times, I leaved the idea to ask his permission..
After that, I was waiting for a perfect time to go outside without anyone noticing.. But, my bad luck.. Everyday aunty and mama will be in home..
I think, today is perfect day to go outside.. Already aunty and mama went to marriage function, manju went to her friend house for group study, morning itself varun went to office.. So no problem.. No one will came to know that I went out if I reach home before evening 5..
After getting ready, I hired auto and went to the town which is near to varun house.. Already I note down some construction company address using google..
After paying auto, I went inside one construction company with confidence...
Everyone gave me same reply.. "Now we are not hiring"..
Already lunch time passed, still I don't get any job.. What to do??.. No one is ready to hire me.. After looking for a job even for a while, I decided to go home.. As I was walking endlessly, I noticed poster which is pasted in wall.. Its a job poster for receptionist in some hotel.. After noting down hotel phone number, I called that number on my phone.. A guy picked up the phone and exclaimed me hotel address and asked me to attend interview today itself.. So I hired the auto and went to that address..
After getting down from auto, I saw hotel with five storey building.. Its look like a three star hotel.. After entering it, I saw a guy who is standing near the front office..
I told him about interview..
He told me to wait and went inside some room..
After sometime, he came and told owner is calling me..
I went inside owner cabin and saw a old aged man who is sitting in the car.. He just asked me some basic question and told me to join from next week.. After thanking him happily, I start to go home..
I was so happy.. Finallt, I got job.. Its not high pay job but still with this job, I can pay for food and rent.. Its enough for me.. Working timing also from morning 9 to evening 5.. Today, I have to talk varun about it..
After reaching home, I prepared dinner for varun, manju and me.. After arranging dishes on the dinning table, I called varun and manju..
I knew, varun will not talk to me in the room.. Therefore, I thought to tell him about job during dinner time.. I saw varun and manju are coming from their room to have food.
While serving them, I told him about job..he asked me "How I get to know vacancy in company.."
May be he will get angry if he came to know that, today I went out... I don't want take risk, therefore I lied him, I saw post in social network..
He just nodded his head and asked "what type job.."
If I tell him , I got receptionist job in hotel.. Then, surely he will mock me.. So I lied him again that, its designer job in construction company..
After nodding his head, he told me "We can talk about it in our room"..
I just nodded happily with a bright smile.. By hearing our conversation, manju congratulated me for getting job.. While serving food for myself in the plate, I replied her thank you and went the kitchen to have my dinner..
After my first day incident in dinning table, till now I didn't tried to sit in their dinning table or sofa.. Sometime mama (father-in-law) or manju will insist me to sit but everytime I would deny it by saying some lie.. I don't want interfere in their family time.. I always try to be in my limit, so atlast I don't get hurt..
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CHAPTER 9
Rosie pov,
After Switching off kitchen light, I went upstairs.. Aunty and mama still not reached home from marriage function.. On the way to his room, I saw varun sitting on sofa in hall..
After changing into my night dress, I came out from bathroom.. When I came out of bathroom, varun is not in the room.. Where is he ??.. Then I heard his voice from hall..
"No dear.. I am always free for you.. Yesterday also I messaged you, still you talking like we are not talked for month.. Yeah I know.. After 4 month, the problem will solved.. Don't worry, I will be there for you.."
Is he talking in the phone??.. Anyway, Who is that??.. Surely its some girl.. He messaged her yesterday means he is chatting with her daily thatswhy he is always busy with his mobile.. What he meant by saying that after 4 month problem will be solved.. Is he talking about our divorce !! ... Yes, correct .. He is mentioning me as problem..
Anyway, why I'm feeling pain in my heart.. I wiped away my tears, I'm not going to cry for him anymore.. Don't cry rosie.. Cheer up.. Already you know that he hate you.. May be, she is his girlfriend, even they may planning to get marry after our divorce ..
Now I understand everything.. First day itself, his mother told that he got so many proposals.. May be, this girl is from one of that proposal.. May be their engagement is over.. They are just waiting for our divorce, after that he will marry her..
Rosie stop.. Don't think about it.. Yes!!.. Why I'm thinking about him !!.. Varun, I hate you..
After wiping my tears, I lied down on my side of bed.. When I was slowly slipping into the slumber, I felt his hands sneaking into my waist,pulling me towards him... His bare torso is touching my back and he whispered in my ear..
"Gundu.. You don't need to go job.. Already your doing enough work in our home.. So its will be tough for you.."
I didn't replied anything just cried silently, then he turned me to his side and kissed my lips.. Suddenly he stopped and asked me
"Why are you crying ??"...
I stayed silent without saying anything regardless of his words.. Again he asked me in soft tone..
"What happen.. Did anyone told anything.. Did my mother scold you"....
How can he act like this !!.. Just before he talked with his girlfriend, now he is trying to intimate with me.. I feel disgust.. I want to intimate with my husband not with someone's boyfriend or fiance..
"Please don't touch me sir.. I don't like it.. After 4 month, we will be divorced.. So what we are doing now is not correct.." I told him between my sobs
After hearing my reply, he sat up in the bed and holded my hair tightly in his hand and pulled me towards him..
"Ah..leave my hair.. Its paining".. I start to shout in the pain..
"SShh.. Be silent.. I don't want anyone to hear your voice from outside.. Do you understand ??.."
Before he could finish saying his words, I nodded hurriedly with tear filled eyes..
After saying it, he removed his hand from my hair, I took it as opportunity and moved away from him..
Only thought now running in my mind is to RUN.. Run from his room.. Run from his house.. Run from his life.. Run from everything, my pain, my love, my insult, my insecurities.. So I ran towards the door before taking two steps he was quick enough to catch my wrist..
Twisting my wrist behind me, he made me turn around and pulled me closer to him and said in dangerous tone,
"Now you want to run away from me.. Now you don't like my touch... WOW.. Actually , I'm impressed.. Did you forget what are the things you did to get me in your bed??.. Did you forget whenever I call you, you come to room like a bit*h to have sex with me??.. Now acting like innocent.. I already told you till divorce your going to be my sex slave in nice way.. Still you don't get it in your mind right??.. Do you know for last 2 month why i talked to you only when I'm having sex with you??.. Because I only want your body for pleasure, I don't want anyother conversation with you.. For me, in morning you are maid for this house and in night, you are my bitch.. Do you know why I don't allowed you to go outside from this house??.. Because I don't want anyone to know some bitch is saying in my house.. Wait.. Wait... You have to give money for food and rent ??.. How will you give it without going job??.. I am sure after seeing your ugly face no one will give you job but don't worry.. I will give you job.. Just be my sex slave.. Whenever I want you, you just need to fullfill my needs.. Thatsall.. Its good job Right ??.. Its perfectly suite for you"..
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CHAPTER 10
Rosie pov,
His bitter words pierced right through my heart.. Reality slapped me hard against my face.. Pain was burning around my heart. It was unbearable.. I felt numb.. I loved him truly but what I got return, only pain and insult.. I don't want to be alive.. I want to die.. I want to leave this world.. Please god take me and relieve this pain from me.. I cried out loudly while keeping my hand in my chest.
"Ya bit*h, take off your dress and lie down, i don't have time for those nonsense " His voice reached my ears..
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After wiping away my tears harshly, I removed my dress and lie down on bed as he told.. He came top of me and hold my chin and make me to look at him and told me sarcastically,
"Now your are behaving perfectly like a bit*h"..
Hearing his words, I closed my eyes.. Impact of his harsh and soul killing words, tear slipped out from corner of my eyes.. Regardless of my broken heart, he began to imprint his foreplay on my body using his hand. I bited my lips hard not to make any sound.. I tightly held bedsheet in my both hand and lied down like stone. I think he also noticed it, therefore he told me to open my eyes. I opened my eyes and looked at his eyes directly.
He stared at my eyes and penetrated inside me forcefully. It hurts me like a hell. I bited my lower lip and tried to control my tears. The pain began to expand around my body. At the same time, he began to move violently and handled my body as the way he want. As the times went on, it became more painfull for me.. I know that he is showing me how much he detest me. I lost the counting of rounds.. After letting out all his frustration on my body, he left my body in early morning and laid beside me.
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Even after he left my body, I stared the ceiling blankly for few mintues without having strength to move. I despise myself for loving him.. After tying bedsheet around me, I slowly bend to get my dress from floor.. I felt sharp pain shot through my lower part to stomach. I slowly limped to the bathroom while keeping one hand at the wall.. All this time, his stare fixed at me..
In bathroom, I removed bedsheet and take bath in warm water.. After the shower, when I was about to wear my dress, suddenly I felt something flowing on my thigh from my lower part.. Even though I assumed what it be.. Still I touched it to know what it is.. Its blood.. By seeing blood, old memories flashed through my eyes how I lost my unborn baby. I slid against the bathroom wall.. I pressed my palm against my face as the sobs leaved through my mouth. I cried for my foolishness.. I cried for my stupidity. I cried for my parents.. I cried for my unborn baby.. I cried until no tears left in my eye. When I felt the bleeding is stopped, I weared my dress after cleaning the blood from my body and walked out from bathroom.
With thought to sleep on the floor, I slowly bend to take my bag from the floor and kept in the sofa.. After taking shawl and painkiller, I closed slip of my bag.. Again I kept the bag on the floor, I had the painkiller. After spreading my dupatta on the floor, I laid down on it.. My whole body pained when my back touched the hard floor.. While controlling the pain, I tried to fall asleep.. All of a sudden, I heared his voice
"Why are you sleeping there ?. Come and sleep on the bed"
I sat up on the floor with difficulties and turned and looked at his side and replied him in low voice..
"Sir. I think I fullfilled your needs. You are my customer.. I don't have rights to sleep in your bed.. Especially bit*h like me, only deserve floor. "
I didn't waited for this reply, again I lied down on the floor and fell asleep..
My sleep distrubed due to door closing sound, I felt my whole body is paining like hell.. After twisting and turning sometime, I sat up in the floor.. No !!. I was lying in the bed.. But how I came here !!.
The pain banged through my leg when I tried to got out of bed.. I felt my legs are numbed. After massaging my legs for some minute, I get up from bed slowly.. After finishing my morning rituals, I went downstairs to do my work as a maid..
While preparing breakfast, I felt pain in my lower stomach.. Due to the pain, tears flowed out from my eyes no stoppingly.. I speedily wiped my tears when I saw aunty entering kitchen.. But still aunty noticed my tears and asked me,
"What happen rosie ??.. Why are you crying ??.."
I replied her with forced smile,
"Nothing aunty.. Just Stomach pain"..
She nodded and asked me
"Is it because of your monthly cycle "...
I just nodded as yes in the way to reply her . I lied to her because how can I tell her that her son is the reason for my stomach pain..
After knowing the reason of my stomach pain, aunty called out manju name loudly.. Manju yelled back from her room. .
"Coming"
After a while, manju came into the kitchen and looked at me with a smile and came near to us and asked her mom,
"What mom ??.. Why you called me ??"
"Rosie is not feeling well.. So take here to varun room".. Aunty told her in causal tone
"No aunty.. Its okay, I can manage it".. I told aunty in convincing tone but she is not ready to listen my words and strictly told me to take rest..
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