Julius and I had become close ever...since the incident. Julius explains to us on when he fell they found him but wouldn't let him leave the palace. He wanted to look for me, so one day he tried to sneak out and they trapped him in Lower E and that was for everyone else who tried to leave. We plan to help the other kids in the palace. I guess you could say I kept fighting because fear of death, but it was for something much-much-bigger, I kept fighting for my mom, my dad, Annabella, my brother…, Dillan. I kept fighting for the people that had to learn the hard way out of this labyrinth of endless pain.
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We found this comfortable, isolated house as far from the palace as possible. It wasn't too much, but that's how we expected it to be. We wanted to be able to monitor the house at all times. We've also gain a couple new people to our group, siblings to be exact. There's Jonathan. He has a list of things he's scared of, says he has pantophobia. I don't know what it is, or if it's even real, but he says it is, so I believe him. As for Calla, her attitude is just as foul as mine, though never toward me, so I have no problem with it. Then there's Levi. There's something interesting about Levi. Plus, he's cute. He's only a year older than me, but my brother keeps telling me he's too old. I guess I shouldn't be focusing on boys right now though. I've been getting back into writing. My latest one was actually inspired by Levi, it's called "take that mask off when you're speaking to me". Levi reminds me of me, he acts as though he's ok but little does he know I was once like him so I can tell when someone is off. It seems as though he tries to stay strong for his siblings because he feels that they depend on his happiness and courage, and in reality they do. Calla acts tough but shes actually like a bubble, like if you blow to hard she'll just pop. Jon is a year older than calla but if they didn't tell you, you wouldn't know, he cries about everything but there certain situation you don't ask him about because instead of going soft he gets hard into a big ball of anger. Last time he didn't speak to us for a week, and when he did he acted as if everything was normal but we didn't question it. It's as if Levi has to walk on glass whenever he talks to either of them, and holds back too many emotions that don't need to be held back.
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I sit and stare into the depths of this poem still trying to figure out if I'v yet perfected it:
I know you want to be free
But If I don't know you
I cant help
So take that mask off when you speak to me
People don't see past your smile
Or your hard work
Trying to put your feeling in one file
That just talking to someone takes awhile
But I do
I see right through you
I see past your laugh
And that big mask
You think being happy isn't free
And it isn't
So work
And take that make off when you speak to me.