His head spinning like top, left become right, right become left.
Laying on sick bed, inside a high class hospital room. Joshua Wilmington feel like vomiting but nothing left inside his stomach.
His body are cream cracker, brittle like maple leaf on autumn day, with slight mistake his bone will crack.
He is a young man in his mid twenty. Possessing average face, he was neither rich nor handsome.
staying in high classes hospital room was out of reach for normal orphan, but to him it was normal, albeit not by his own wished.
He live in this classy sick room for 5 years of his life. Here he was force to laid on bed by not only his sickness that haunt him but also by his close friend.
His friend Connor William was heir to large cooperation, Joshua was by Connor side when he was at lowest point of his life.
He were there when they was at middle school fighting with upperclassman, not that they winning the fight. But at least they got beating together.
He were there when Connor ex-girlfriend trying to kill him because she was paid by connor's father rivals.
He were there to comfort Connor when he was aimless and have no will to live. He is more than family than the Williams will be to Connor.
But it all changes 5 years ago, when his body started to feel weak. The doctors was surprised. It was 1st time they saw this kind of disease, cure not have they.
So He who growth in orphanage decided that he did not wanted to bother anyone.
His mother did not want him.
His father did not want him.
deep down he feel like even the world did not want him.He leave his rental apartment, with his savings to wonder the world, to go to countryside to live peacefully until the sickness of his body decide to end him.
Know not of him at that moment, his medical results was not only see to him and his doctor but also to his close friend after 1 week he travels to countryside.
Connor who did not see him for 1 week feels anxious yet thinking to himself maybe his brother not by blood need some alone time.
Joshua indeed send a massage that he wanted some time to calm his mind.
But when Connor saw his medical report, he go into rampage. Smashing all thing in his office.
He keep call and calling Joshua phone but no answer he receive. Anger and disappointment born deep within him.
He did not angry and disappointed at Joshua but to himself. He did not even know and realized that his friend was sick, yet he keep asking him out to party after his work.
3 hours of fruitless effort of calling his brother smartphone, he decided not to waste time instead use what he have plenty of, money!.
He call a bounty hunter to track down his brother. He find him, in countryside, small town Sanoma, California.
When Connor arrived at hut build by Joshua with his bodyguards and ambulance. He kick the hut door down rushing in, seeing his friend was making orange juice.
Joshua was stunned seeing his best friend come out of nowhere and breaking his door.
Before he can even speaking anything, he was punched at the face by Connor.
"You bastard!!!"
" why you did not tell me that you was sick?!"
stunned from a punch out of nowhere, Joshua try to stand up.
Bam!
another punch rain down on his face.
"YOU WERE THERE, WHEN ALL OUR FRIENDS RUN AWAY WHEN THE SENIOR TARGET ME!"
Bam!!
" YOU WERE THERE, WHEN SHE WHO I THINK LOVE OF MY LIFE TRYING TO KILL ME!!"
Bam!!!
"You Were There, When I Was Aimless And Have No Hope For Life!!!"
Bam!!!!
"TELL ME! TELL ME YOU DAMM BASTARD!! TELL ME WHY DID YOU RUN AWAY WHEN YOU HAVE SOMEONE THAT CARE ABOUT YOU!!!''
"TELL ME! WWHHYY??!!"
Bam!!!!!
Joshua can't even say a single words before Connor rain punch on his face, yet he can hear clearly what his best friend saying.
He know that each time his friend punch him, it chipped away his friend heart as he saw his cheek wet with tear.
"BRING HIM TO HOSPITAL!!!"
Shouted Connor as he walked out from the hut while medical personals rush in with Stretcher and tranquilizer.
He can't even respond before his hand feel stingy from the needle and his vision become hazzy.
That the tale of how poor orphan like him staying in this room.
5 years already passed, day by day his body growth weaker. Connor still visiting him every day even if his schedule was full.
looking at the hospital ceiling, he breath in the oxygen through the mask that connects to oxygen tank via small white plastic tube.
As he staring at the white ceiling, helpless about his body condition, his mind begin sailing into the darkness like young sailor navigate through rough sea of emptiness.
Joshua like to imagine that he is a captain that sailing a old sailing ship.
Before this, he imagined he bring her to vast blue sea, wondering on the wave like seagull flying on vast blue sky.
He has visiting Caribbean islands, fighting pirates, and sinking a giant kraken into deep sea of abyss with her.
In his mind she was a great companion that bring him to adventure. She was his light in this forsaken world.
A light that he wish he could cling until his final breath that split him and her forever.
Even if she was his imagination. To him she was real as real snow in winter day can be.
With her, he sailing through his sick days inside his imagination. In his sailing days he was not alone with her, he have his crew!
5 ship mate, Anton as navigator and his vice captain, Camilo as chef on ship, Ellan as musician and twins brother ALUF and Maluf as sailor.
He knew them by hearts, 5 years they sailing together, non of them leave him. Even in fighting with sea monsters.
Today was like any other days, he sailing her through blue sea of his imagination. But to his ignorance today was different than other days.
the sky become dark and darker so did the blue sea.
Know he did not that his wish was granted.
Torch started to ignite on the ship, the darknes was keep at bay. The only source of light in the darkness was her alone.
As the ship sailing throughout the abbys, Joshua saw floating orbs float away heading to same direction as him.
They sail for god know how long, but he was not bored, not the slightest. He listening to music play by Ellan, he eat delicious food made by Camilo and he listens to tale of past adventures by his vice captain Anton.
To him this was nice, he got to move around as he like on the ship, his belly was full and his heart jolly with sound of music.
But all thing must end. When sun raises from the east, it must sets in the west.
Joshua staring infront of him the abbys of nothingness. He did not realize that winds were no more, the ship stop sailing signals the end of his voyage.
His ship mates stand behind him, Ellan begin to play his violin, his vice captain open his mouth, yet nothing come out.
few moment later, a cracked voices singing behind Joshua.
thought I heard the Old Man say
"Leave her, Johnny, leave her"
Tomorrow ye will get your pay
And it's time for us to leave her"
Joshua started to walk foward.
"Leave her, Johnny, leave her
Oh, leave her, Johnny, leave her
For the voyage is long and the winds don't blow And it's time for us to leave her"
He keep walking forward albeit slowly.
"Oh, the wind was foul and the sea ran high
Leave her, Johnny, leave her
She shipped it green and none went by
And it's time for us to leave her"
he keep walking.
"Leave her, Johnny, leave her
Oh, leave her, Johnny, leave her
For the voyage is long and the winds don't blow And it's time for us to leave her"
creak- crack sound of man walking on ship deck.
"I hate to sail on this rotten tub
Leave her, Johnny, leave her
No grog allowed and rotten grub
And it's time for us to leave her"
he turn his head back seeing his ship mate salute him while tear wetting they cheeks as they sang the song.
"Leave her, Johnny, leave her
Oh, leave her, Johnny, leave her
For the voyage is long and the winds don't blow And it's time for us to leave her"
he salute back to them, tear raining from his eyes.
"We swear by rote for want of more
Leave her, Johnny, leave her
But now we're through so we'll go on shore
And it's time for us to leave her"
"I was happy to be with you guys for 5 years, it was highlight of my life."
"Take care of her for me, she was magnificent companion"
He then jump from deck of the ship into sea of abbys where he did not know where he will end up.
the last thing he hear was
"Leave her, Johnny, leave her
Oh, leave her, Johnny, leave her
For the voyage is long and the winds don't blow And it's time for us to leave her"