All have there own problems like family problems it is the worst. My mother and father had love marriage on 2001.
And because of that I don't want this life. They fight for small mistakes it was a torcher for me because my father always drunken and do nothing. My mother who is super hero who always wants my future to be great. She was a beautition she is the one who work for me and my big brother. My big brother who always help in any situation.
And you don't know about me. I was the that kind of a person who was always in anger for no reason. Because of my personal situation. I never trusted any one and never become happy. I am just like a tomboy. All students scared of me because of my anger. But what was inside me no once know. I always cried at night because of my life. I don't want to hurt anyone but all are hurting me. I don't have any permanent friends to share about me. One thing that my parents afraid of. I never behave like a girl. And I bring lots of complaints that I fight with boys.
On my first day of college I was feeling very alone. One girl came to me her name was sana and said ' hey can we be friends' I said no I was really very rude about any one because there was my trust issues. But that girl always watch me and want to came closer to me to became my friend. She always came and I was behaving rude to her. One day I was in frustration because of my mom dad. That girl came to me and wants to talk. I screamed loudly and said 'go to hell you badass I don't need you' it was really bad all started to stare ur and gossiping about us. I was very wrong about her. And I want to say sorry to her. So I go to meet her. When she sees me she was so sad. I said her 'sorry Sana I was in frustration I don't have to do that to u'. She said it's ok I know you was in anger. I ask her why you want to become my friend. She said ' I don't like the people who is always alone. So I said let's be friends. She smiled.
I also know about the love and lover but I was hating it because I don't believe in love the is my parents. We know that all schools and colleges have students like playboy. In our college also. 'Kartik' he not good as his name but all girls like to date him because he was handsome. He was always with a new girl everyday. And I know that what playboys wants. I was hating Kartik. He was too opposite from me. But by unluckily he becames my project partner and I was the unlucky person that time. He was always flirting me and I was just avoiding him I go to the teachers to complain about him but the project is about my future I was just like 'chill it is just for some days'. The project is about the animals because I love animals. There was one thing betweens us which is Same that is we love animals. Because he became my project partner. One day teachers told us to go zoo for research about animals. I don't want to go with that Kartik but I have to. I said him please be in a distance from me. He said ok. We have to live together in one room because there was no other room . It was really bad. I was feeling insecure with him. He said don't take tension wouldn't do anything to u. And it was rainy season one day we was coming from the zoo and it was heavy rain and we don't have the umbrella so then also he pushed me in the rain and start to dance. And then that night I become sick he was caring me. He brings me the bowl of soup and seats with me and said you will be fine. It was really a good feeling for me because no ones cares about me. I was thinking he is really a good guy. But when I checked his phone it was full of girls messages. And I was like 'ewwww' this guy will never change' . But I think I was having some feelings for him. I was always staring at him he looks very handsome. We was done with our projects and it was the party time. Literally Kartik ask me for dance I said no but he was forcing. And that was the unforgivable. He pull me closer and started to dance and finally he kissed me. I will never forget that time. And finally I was in love with Kartik. But I know that he is a playboy. But then also I was having a biggest crush on him. One day I saw him with a girl kissing each other. I became very angry and I slapped Kartik. And said you are a real playboy. I was really in frustration and depression and I was like why it always happens to me I was crying everyday. And one day my mother and father was fighting again my father was beating my mother for no reason by drinking. It was really hard for me I was in anger so I killed my father. And became a killer it was really a worst in my life I was about to die. Everyone was gossiping about me. My mom also starts hating me for that. No one can understand me. But I killed my father to protect my mother. I go in jail for years. I think I don't need to be alive. No one loves me. And it was not a good ending.