As soon as her long legs stepped on the grass that was planted in the large yard, at that time, July was seen taking a deep breath. Breathing air that somehow feels so beautiful and fresh. Several planted palms and cypress trees, making this house look like it's in the countryside. beautiful flowers embedded in several pots, making the beauty very feels.
Nothing's changed since a year ago last set foot in this house. After uncle Tian stopped from his duty at Jordan's, July never visited.
No matter how many times July comes to this humble home, it turns out that July never meets David at the time. Uncle Tian said David was studying abroad. For July, there is no substitute for uncle tian although he is uncle tian's own.
"Please, miss. "David opened the door wide.
Standing at the door for a moment, the smell of fresh limes wafted up into the nose. Nice, clean, all look so much the same as before. Although a simple house with only one floor was provided, it was able to make anyone feel at home. So did July.
When one foot stepped inside, immediately the person July missed appeared from behind the wall that was connected to another room.
Before giving uncle tian a chance to see who was standing in front of him, July burst into a tight embrace of the old man's body. Held it so tight as if it wouldn't come off.
"Uncle, I miss you. "July sobbed. Yearning for years at last spew out extraordinary tears.
Returning July's embrace, Tian turned his eyes to David. David just shrugged.
To be honest, David was also shocked when July immediately gave his father a hug. Because what? During David's time at Mr. Jordan's house this past month, David had never seen July hug the all-father Mr. Jordan.
"Come sit down, dear." Tian took July's shoulder into his arms, inviting him to sit on the living room sofa.
"Make a drink for July," commands the tian on David.
David then nodded. Before turning into the kitchen, David had a glimpse of the still sobbing July. David was just surprised when he saw July crying that girl's arrogance instantly faded. The violent July is turning into a needy, needy girl.
"How are you, dear?" Gently rubbing July's hand, the tian asked.
From the look on July's face right now, let's make sure July is in serious trouble. Tian guessing, this must have something to do with the noisy gossip on the TV screen.
"I'm fine, uncle." July lied. "There's just a little problem." Her face showed real sorrow.
Putting July's hairline between the ears, tian then said: "Don't lie, just tell me. You can't keep it to yourself."
July exhale. Wiping the remaining tears that still felt against the cheek, July then glued to the wall of the sofa while leaning against her face with her hands.
Tian let July do its thing. Let July prepare itself before the story. Tian already knows the nature of July. She'll be quiet, but a second later he'll say. As a good listener, tian chose silence and wait.
"I'm tired, uncle. I'm so tired," says July suddenly. She then sits with her back tilted, with two elbow hands supporting the head lowered.
Had it not been so hard, July could not have looked as miserable as it is right now.
Behind the wall, before carrying a two-glass tray of melon syrup, David was standing against the back. Widening out trying to hear the conversation between the two of them in the living room.
"I didn't know what was going on with your marriage, because I couldn't be there. But if you're really tired, that means the trouble you're in right now is very serious. "Tian gently strokes July's back.
July then straightened up and shifted his bench toward uncle Tian. "Of course very serious, uncle. I almost killed myself because of this mess." The round eye sobbed again. Shortly after that turned into a hurricane.
"Relax, honey." Uncle Tian grabs the shoulder vibrating girl in front of him. "If you cry, you'll look defeated. Don't let someone who hurts you win just because you see how pathetic you are right now."
July looks up. Two palms of uncle Tian's hand had covered both of July's wet cheeks by the storm of tears. "But I did lose. I was wounded." Her eyes grew fonder and unstoppable.
"I know. I know you're very upset. You're angry, you're hurt. But remember, the weaker you are, the happier the person who hurts you."
July froze as she stared at the wrinkled face of uncle tian. It's obvious there's sincerity in there. July felt it. There are two parents who are currently trying to communicate with her as if she were a child with her father, mother, but July prefers to be open with someone who has looked after her for years. Not years, decades.
"Then what should I do, uncle? How am I supposed to deal with the repercussions of my marital mess? "July fell silent, breathing heavily and then continued. "How can I face all the fear out there? I was the victim, but I just felt guilty in their eyes. How am I to blame?"
July's gaze shifted wistful, hoping that the uncle would come up with a solution.
Tian smile. A sincere smile that long to see. There's comfort in the heart, so July can feel it. July could never deny it was a middle-aged man named tian.
"Listen." Tian still smiles. "You wanna know how to forget your troubles?"
July abruptly nodded steadily. Pulling the snot back into his nose, July then staring deeply into uncle Tian's face. "Tell me. Tell me what to do, uncle?"
"Change everything. Throw away everything that makes you feel burdened. Eliminate anything that smells like the mess you're in right now. Say: make yourself a stronger girl, but not an arrogant girl. Make those who hurt you sorry for making you feel disappointed."
Still staring broadly with her ears, July is trying to digest a long sentence from uncle Tian. The word "change" in the brain occurred, so July instantly nodded reassuringly with a solidified jaw. July sign is ready to face the whole thing from the start.
"Sorry, it's long." Only after a long enough conversation would David appear with the tray that had been accompanying him behind the wall listening.
Whether it's July or tian, they both know that David was just eavesdropping.
Putting the tray on the table, David handed the glass to July. Surprisingly, July suddenly gulped it down to nothing. Make those two gentlemen giggle at the same time.
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